the most difficult phase of your life isnt when noone understands you, its when you dont even understand yourself.

"Just do it who the hell do you think you are? Are you an athlete? Because if you are, then you know what it means to want to be better, to want to be the best. And if you are, then you understand it’s not enough to want to be the best. You can’t just sit around all day and bullshit about how much you want it. Show me how much you want it. Stop just “thinking about it” and “wondering about it” and “hoping for it” and actually go out there and get it. Dare to do what it takes to be the best. And then, whether you win, lose, or collapse on the finish line, at least you’ll know exactly who you are."

As we grow up, we learn that the one person that wasn't supposed to let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and its harder everytime. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your bestfriend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty second you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.

Don't be afraid that your life will end, be afraid that it will never begin.

Heres to being lied to. To being walked on, used, promised something, and fed bullshit. Heres to seeing the best in everyone, not believing that someone could possibly be as awful as they turned out to be. Heres to trusting over and over again, because you really want to believe that what he did was a mistake, and that hes changed. Men dont change. The way he is and was, is the way he will always be. If he lies to you, he doesnt feel you are good enough to hear the truth. If he plays you, you dont mean enough to him for him to be with just you. Breaking a promise means he is okay with disappointing you. He knows what he is doing when he is doing it. He knows what will hurt you, and he does it anyway. Because as much as he says he cares, he cares about himself more. Heres to him saying hes sorry. With him its one of those words that is said so many times, it no longer has a meaning. And anyway, the only reason he is sorry is because he was caught in his lie. Excuses mean nothing, nothing he could possibly come up with could fix what he did. So tell him to fuck off, learn a lesson, remove him from your life. Pick up where your life left off, before him, and dont concern yourself with his bullshit anymore. Dont worry about his new girlfriend, chances are she isnt anywhere near as pretty as you, because..lets face it; he lucked out with you. So heres to a fresh start, a clean slate, and a mended heart.
Oh and by the way...
Heres to you, asshole.<3

- your so annoyyinng like jesus noone cares about you like really you dont understand everyone thinks your the biggest fag i mean invting yourself to partys ? cool dude , get over yourself
- now that i think of it , you were a pretty bad friend all along
- i dont know if i like you or if i dont like ugh sometimes i do and sometimes i dont
- you say you "love me" yet you dont talk to me ?
- your an idiot for dating that whore like tell her to pull her fuckin shirt up , your so much better than that
- im glad were becoming good friends
- why dont you tell another 8 girls you like them secerts out dude everyone knows what your doing
- your soo good looking its kinda ridic

130 question, promise you won't lie?
i promise
Is the person you last texted single?
nope
Do you get jealous easily?
not really
Are you wasting your time on the person you like?
apparently..
What are you currently waiting for?
sunday
Do you think more about the past, present, or future?
past
Is there anybody you wish you could be spending time with right now?
yeah i wish i was with them all the time
Honestly, did you really love the last person you said I love you too ?
no but the person i did before that yes
Is anything wrong with your eyes?
naah
Who were the last people you saw besides from family?
taylor
Have you ever received a love letter?
no but i got a love card aha
If something was wrong, who is the first guy you would go to?
shaun,emerson
Who's thinking about you right now?
not to sure
Is this year the best year of your life?
haha not even close
Which of your friends lives closest to you?
um taylor or michele
How do you feel about Diet Dr Pepper?
not good
Do you ever work out?
yeah i am very active
Do you go to the tanning bed on a regular basis?
never been
Have you ever thought someone died, when they really didn't?
yeah in my dream i woke up crying
Does your bedroom need cleaning?
not really
Flowers or chocolate?
flowers
July 4th or St. Patrick's Day?
st.patricks
Sushi of choice?
i hate sushi so much
Would you rather take a relationship really slow or really fast?
slow obviously
Do you ever hang out with someone of the opposite sex?
yeeep
Are you comfortable with your height?
yeah its pretty decent
Do you act differently around the person you like?
kinda but not really
Do you think anyone has feelings for you?
yeah the ones whove told me , but i wish he did..
Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile?
yeah only 3 or 4 people
Do you like thunder storms?
yeah there cool
Do you think teenagers can be in love?
if theyve been dating for a while , but most dont , i doubt i even know what it is
How fast does your mood change?
pretty fricken quick
Are there things that can't be joked about with you?
oh yah
What do you always take with you?
money
Where is the weirdest place you have slept?
bathroom floor , i was sooo sick
Anything on your walls.
collauge of memoriess
What do you always bite more, your lip, your tounge or cheek?
lip
Has a boy/girl called you babe/baby lately?
yeah
If so, do you like it?
i dunno
Is there something that you want to tell someone but can't?
nope i just told them but there is other things i guess
Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months or more?
i already did twice
Do you crack your knuckles?
yes unfortanutly
Do you feel comfortable getting up and giving speeches?
depends whos gonna hear it
This time last year, can you remember who you liked?
omar
Would you ever want to swim with the sharks?
NOO !
Does anyone know your passwords besides you?
i think so..
Have you ever kissed someone under fireworks
i wish
What is the last non-alcoholic beverage you had?
strawberry milkshake
I bet you miss somebody right now.
more than anything
Do you get high a lot?
no
Do you have a box where you keep all your important things?
used to , threw it all out
How many times have you dyed your hair?
three times
Can you count past 100?
uh im not handicapped here
Would you ever date anyone your parents disapproved ?
yah screw them
If you were abandoned in the wilderness, would you survive?
i doubt it im dumb
Are you afraid of shots?
nope
Is there someone you can tell anything to?
well i tell them most things but theres things ive never told anyone
At this moment in time if you HAD to have someone's name tattooed on you who's would it be?
um rebecca
Most memorable thing that's happened to you over the summer?
camping with rebecca
Has anyone called you perfect before?
yeah but thats a liee
Do your best friends’ parents tend to like you?
i hope so
What’s your all-time favorite ROMANCE movie?
notebook , a walk to remeber and titanic
TV channels/shows you watch?
one tree hill , hockey games , basketball , hannah montana , family channel ect.
Are any of your friends taller than you?
mosto of them are
Do you prefer the ocean or pool?
pool ocean tastes weird and makes your skin hurt ahha
Ever liked someone whose name started with a B?
i dont think so
What’s your favorite part of the song that you’re listening to?
yeah you and i will be a tough act to follow
Ever really cried your heart out?
that night..
Are you the same person as you were at the beginning of 2009?
nope ive changed
Do you make good grades?
nope failing math harshly just got a nice 0/18 it was cool but other then that im decent
Is there a difference between love and IN love?
huge differnce
Have you ever been on a motorcycle?
yes my dad owns one
Does it bother you when someone says they will call you and they don't?
yeah unless they have a good reason
What is the main ringtone on your cell?
dont got a cell
Do you speak any other language other than English?
a little spanish
Did 2009 treat you good?
nat really
Do you think you were raised well?
i guess so
Could you name all 50 states and point to them on a map?
no i suck at socials
Are you someone's best friend?
i think !
Where was the last place you were when you got sick?
soccer practice
Have you ever smuggled something into America?
whats that mean
Who's your favorite super-hero?
batman
Can you say the alphabet backwards?
no my brain doesnt work that good
Pen or pencil?
pencils , my hand smugges pen easily
Ever had an 11:11 wish come true?
never
Do you get bad headaches?
yep just had one last week
What's worse: liars or cheaters?
there both so bad
Have you ever broken someone’s heart?
i hope not
Does it matter if your boyfriend/girlfriend smokes?
yeha its kinda gross
What's usually colder, your hands or your feet?
feet
What’s your favorite type of flower?
rose
Do you think two people can last forever?
yees
Do you consider yourself lucky?
barley ever but occasionly
Do you live in a ghetto neighborhood?
nope
Is there someone that cares about you more than themselves?
nope..
Freedom or safety?
freedom
Has a song ever made you cry?
yesserie
A book ever made you cry?
yeah
Is your life any good?
it could be better but life is always better then death
How many states in the U.S. have you been to?
2 i think
Is your handwriting large, tiny, or pretty normal?
normal
Will you be in a relationship next month?
doubt it
Your phone rings, what do you say?
hello
Has anyone ever said they wanted to marry you?
as a joke
Have you ever been a gymnast or a cheerleader?
i was in gymnastics when i was like 6
Is your birthday on a holiday?
nope but it is in 17 days !
Do you ever cry during romantic movies?
yeah i have
Do you always answer your phone?
no to lazy most of the time
Has someone of the opposite sex ever told you they loved you?
yeah like 4 or 5 people
Are you ticklish?
mhhm
Is there someone you wish you were still close with?
yes but it wont ever happen again , sorrryy

When was the last time you saw someone attractive?
less then an hour ago

Have you kissed the last person you texted?
naah

Where's your phone right now?
dont have one , but home phones right beside me

What did you do today?
school , went to kays , soccer and karate

What did you do last weekend?
hung out with keara and soccer and shit

Do you have any plans for the weekend?
some , for sure sunday though

Last movie/DVD watched?
zombieland

What do you always take with you?
ipod , untill my mom put it through the wash

Do you like messages or comments better?
messages , more deep

Who was the last person to text message you?
no phone..

Last time you talked to your number one?
what the hells a number one

Do you think you'll be married in 5 years?
deffenitly nat

Last time you hit someone?
like 30 minutes ago

What was the best thing that happened today?
uh ... nothing good happend today

Do you think you've ruined your chances with someone before?
yeah a few people

What is something you currently want right now?
to take doing that back cause it ruined so much

What was the first thing you did when you woke up?
grabbed my socials homework

Would you like to put last weekend on repeat, and live it forever?
nope

How are you?
decent , not the best

Are you excited for next year?
no schools gonna be hard as fuck

What are your plans for tomorrow?
might go out for lunch or to the movies

Is your room clean?
surprisingly kindof

How many pillows do you sleep with?
1 , not even i only use 1 corner

Do you wear eyeliner?
used to , not anymore

Does anyone annoy you?
op victoria barusic , i mean shes just so cool though , bff <3

Is life good?
better then death

How many people have you had feelings for this year?
um like 4 or 5

Are you jealous of anyone at the moment?
nope

Your parents split; Would you want to live with your Mom or Dad?
my mom but id visit my dad alot

Told your parents you were going somewhere but went somewhere else?
haha who hasnt

Are you gonna get high later?
what the hell no

Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with?
nah me and jordan are pals

Who was the last person to FB chat with you ?
Jordan and becca

What do you like most about the guy you like?
um everything

Have you ever liked someone that was in a relationship?
yeah it was hard not to

If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?
um yeha its nice to know

How many kids do you want to have?
none children are annoying

Do you need to say anything to anyone?
it was me .. use your brain kid

Do you still talk to the person who hurt you the most?
nadda he hates me

Who do you like?
a boy

Is anyone else in the room with you?
naah

Would you ever get a tattoo?
no they would hurt

Can you recall the last time you sincerely liked someone a lot?
yes , right now

Will you talk to the person you like tonight?
um hopefully but i doubt it

Would you be able to date someone who doesn't make you laugh?
uh yeah if i loved them enough

How many hours of sleep did you get last night?
like 6

Do you think you're wasting your time on the person you like?
i just figured out i am

Can you fill this out without lying?
im doing it right now

What are you hoping to get this Christmas?
a cell , and a punching bag

Last time you had a sleepover?
friday

Dark hair or light hair in the opposite sex?
light , but both are fine

What woke you up this morning?
my mom

Have you ever been awake for more then 2 nights straight?
couldent do that

Have any memories that you'd like to forget?
oh tons

Is your handwriting large, tiny, or pretty normal?
large my writtings so big and ugly

Do/have you ever liked someone younger than you?
yeah but only by like 4 months

Do you believe that it is best to have a good friendship first then love?
yeah cause love breaks easily

Do you have an older brother?
yeaah doesnt really come around here though we dont talk much

What will you do after this?
watch t.v

Have you ever walked in on people having sex?
noo

What were you doing at 4am?
sleeping

Is there any emotion you're trying to avoid right now?
sadness , not workin

meeting you was fate,
becoming your friend was a choice but falling in love with you
i had no control over

allie stover is amazingly beautiful,and i lovee herr <33

Let's start with a tricky one, what's the real reason to why you're confused right now?
boys and i cant figure out my socials homework

Do you find it easy to trust others?
nah its really hard to gain my trust now

Have you kissed the last person you texted?
nope

Whos your best friend, and who will always be?
Rebecca olson

Last movie you watched and who with?
animal farm . english class

When?
today

I bet you kissed someone today, right?
i didnt

Have you ever said "bitch"?
almost everyday

Is there someone who continuously lets you down?
sure is

Someone says to you now, "lets go to a party and get trashed!"?
thats nice

Do you always answer your texts?
np phone but when i get one i will

When was the last time you talked to one of your best friends?
today

Do you like anyone?
i dunno i used to

What did you last eat?
chesee string

Would you rather watch football or baseball?
none there both boaring as fuck

Did someone make you mad today?
they really did !

Ever kissed someone who smokes?
um probley?

Who did you hug last?
um i think probley someone in my volleyball team

Have you ever been around someone who was high?
all the time

Have you ever played a Wii?
yeah there so sweet !

Who was the last person of the opposite sex you had a conversation with?
Josh

Anyone of the opposite sex been on your mind lately?
yeah only cause i was talking about them though

Do you feel like your wasting your time on someone?
not really going for anyone so im not putting my time into anyone

Do you ever say thank you to the bus driver?
most of the time

Are you available?
yeeep

Is anything bothering you right now?
yah sports and school and stuff

What's something you wish you would forget?
my past

Some memorable things that's happened to you this summer?
haha hangin with rebecca and like dressing up like total dorks , gotta love her

Do you/have you ever liked/been in love with someone older than you?
yeaah

What are you listening to?
the hockey game

Did you enjoy your summer?
yeah obiously youd have to be retarted to not enjoy summer

Is there someone you'd really like to hang out with and just talk about stuff?
mhm i never get to see him and hes like one of the only people i trust

Are you planning to go see a movie anytime soon?
maybe dunno

Have you ever been given roses?
yeah valentines day 2008

Are you a jealous person?
not really

Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?
sure do

Has the last person you texted ever been mad at you?
uh rebecca ? probley but rarley

Do you think "I love you" are strong words?
the strongest words on the earth and i just hate it when people use it at age 12 like 2 weeks into a relatonship

What is your best class in school?
P.E and drama

Have you ever been caught doing something you shouldn't?
yeah everyone gets caught doing bad things aha

Do you curse in front of your parents?
usally just my mom

What was the last website you visited?
facebook and nex

Do you trust all your friends?
not all but deffenitly the best's

Whose hoodie did you wear last?
lorelle

What are you doing tonight?
just had volleyball and going out soon

Friday night?
hanging with rebecca

Last person you talked to on the phone?
taylor

What color are your eyes?
hazeel

Where will your next kiss take place?
i don't know yet

Would you date an African American?
um obvs if i liked them , what a rascist question

What makes you your happiest?
knowing that im alive

How often do you hold back what you want to say?
not very much i ususally say whats on my mind

Day been rough?
not near as bad as yesteryda but not the best

Is something bothering you right now?
yeah

What pisses you off more than anything?
school , boys , cheatersss !!! , losing , liers lol alot of things

Did you cry at all today?
i got no reason to cry

What do you want for your birthday?
a punching bag and a cell

Who is someone you tell everything to?
becca

Whats the last thing you laughed really hard over?
lol josh.b talking about his weekend

Do any of your friends have tongue rings?
not that ive noticed

What kind of shoes did you wear today?
ugs

How is your hair styled right now?
wavy and down

Is your best friend taken?
most of them are

Do you have your best friends number memorized?
of course

Do you have any plans for the day after tomorrow?
probs be with rebecca still

What time did you wake up today?
7:00

Can you honestly say that at this point in time you're happy with the way things are?
not exactly

Is there someone you don't ever want to be out your life?
of course

Who did you last nap with?
myself

What should you be doing?
homework

Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it?
i hope so !

Could you go out in public looking like you do now?
already did

Has anyone told you they missed you lately?
yeah

Think back to the last person you held hands with non family, have you kissed them?
no i dont think so

Do you and your friends often hang out at Starbucks?
lol weird question .. no

Next time you will kiss someone?
never know

Do you know anyone named Austin?
actually i do

Do you think your last ex deserves to die?
nah hes a decent guy

Who was the last person you talked to in person?
janna

In winter, would you rather wear jackets or hoodies?
either are fine

Do you wish you were somewhere else right now?
oh yeah

Where are your siblings?
at yoga and probley at his house

How many pillows do you sleep with?
1

Honestly, when was the last time anyone saw you in your underwear?
today in the changeroom probs

Kiss anyone in the last week?
noppses

Anything exciting happen lately?
kamloops

Who was the last person to look at you like you were crazy?
lol number 3 in kamloops , bitches these days i tell ya

Has someone disappointed you recently?
mhm shaun

Do you get along with your friends' boyfriends/ girlfriends?
uh yeah

Do you know anyone who is having a baby?
nope

Have you ever been called heartless?
lol yes ! obviously i have a heart or i wouldent be alive common now


Looking back, did you ever think you'd be where you're at in life now?
not a chance

What was the last thing you cried about?
i thought about what happens when you die and my mind when blank and i started crying

What are the last spoken words you heard?
noone but you

How many months are there until your birthday?
1 and a week

Do you prefer regular or chocolate milk?
chocolate is the way to go people

When was the last time you had Starbucks?
few weeks ago

How many letters are in your last name?
6

Have you lost friends in the past year?
yep

Do you think relationships are ever really worth it?
not unless they work out but its kinda stupid when you brake up and never talk again, thats what happens in most of my relationships

Last November, who were you in a relationship with?
Omar Agha

Do you still talk to the person you last kissed?
um no he hates me

What was your last phone call about?
um someone aha

Do you miss anybody?
yeah a few people

Did you ever waste too much time on a certain boy or girl?
oh yah

Do you think you are an argumentative person?
lol i argue with teachers and actually like everyone all the time

How are you feeling right now?
decent

Last nap?
science class

What did you do on Saturday?
volleyball in kamloops

Excited about anything?
umm tommorow

Do you believe in celebrating anniversaries?
sure do

Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
um probley not but maybe

Are you someone who worries too often?
lol yah

How has the week been?
not that good

When did/will you graduate high school?
2012

Have you ever dyed your hair?
mhm twice

Have you ever been in a play?
no but i will be this year

How many children do you want?
2

Do you have a bad temper?
sometimes....

Have you ever spent the night in the hospital?
when i had jondis

Want to get something off your chest?
i hate you for hating me for nothing

Anything good happening tomorrow?
volleyball game , rebeccas spending the night

Are you ready to answer these questions honestly even if it starts to get hard?
yes i am

What color shirt were you wearing when you had your last kiss?
my brain doesnt work that well..

Do you know what you want to be when you grow up?
pro sports player or model

What are you currently listening to?
hockey game and Jason Walker - Down

Do you wish someone would turn up at your front door right now?
yes obviously !

Who was the last person you had a face to face conversation with?
Janna

What were you doing at 12 am last night?
sleeping

What's under your bed?
nothin cleaned my room last week

Do you sleep with anything?
pillow and blanket

Has someone ever called you handsome?
nope,well actually probley as a joke

Are you wearing short shorts?
no way to cold for that

Do you miss anyone?
yes a whole lot

Do you like messages or comments better?
messages there more deep

What are you drinking?
hot chocolate

Are you an asshole?
lol so im told

Love really is a beautiful thing, huh?
it really is but it fucks you up when its over

Did anything dramatic go down on the weekends?
dunno wasnt in this shit town

Are you afraid to stay home all alone?
only sometimes

Does the person you like, like you back?
nah

Have you ever walked away from someone who was yelling at you?
aha yeah i do it alot

Do you ignore people when you're mad/upset with them?
yah or i backtalk them or something

Have you ever slept in the same bed with anyone on your top friends?
i have

Has anyone licked you in the past week?
no thats weird

Did you kiss or hug anyone in the last 48 hours?
mhm

When you say you don't care do you mean it?
i usually care but sometimes i dont

Do you plan on sleeping in tomorrow?
no, i wish

Do you like to take walks?
yeah there relaxing

Can you recall the last time you liked someone a lot?
i can , wasnt anytime recently

What were you doing at 12:30 this afternoon?
math with mcgiver

Did your last kiss take place in/on a bed?
yeah

Have you ever cried cause you were so mad?
yep

What is on your wrists right now?
nothing

Did you sleep alone last night?
nah i slept with my ipod

Have you ever felt lonely?
occasionaly

How many hours of sleep did you get last night?
like 7

What kind of music do you listen to the most?
country !

Reason for the last tear shed?
confused

Have you ever felt like someone wanted to forget of your existence?
actually rhys just told me that last month , it was cool.

What's your favorite color?
pinkk

What color is your shirt?
grey and white

What do you hear?
hockeygame

Is there anyone home?
yeah sister and mom

Are you sitting or standing?
i would not take a quiz this long standing

What would you do if you had no friends?
life would blow

Are you keeping a secret from anyone?
yaaah

Why are you in pain?
my feet hurt cause im constantly playing sports

Do you crack your knuckles a lot?
oh all the freakin time

Do you have clothes that are not yours?
not on but probley somewhere in my closet

What is your favorite animal?
kangaros

Did you dance today?
i wish

What's something you can't wait for?
the weekend

Have you ever kissed someone in the rain?
yes it was cute

Have you kissed someone with braces?
yee

Do you sing in the car?
haha yeah i jam it out

Do you have a hard time admitting you're wrong?
yes i just keep pretending im right even if i know im not

When is the last time you had pizza?
last weekend

Do you think you have made a difference in anyone's life?
yes i think so

Were you single on your last birthday?
i already said no

Are you wearing a sports shirt?
nope hollister

Have you ever crawled through a window?
lol yeah

Do you wear shoes in your house or take them off?
take them off who wears shoes in the house

When you watch movies at home, do you like the lights on or off?
deffinatly off

Are you short?
average as i noticed at soccer pictures monday i actually got to stand for once in my life !

Who was the last person you kissed?
uh uh no comment

What would your last name be if you were married to the last person you texted?
Olson

Last picture comment was from?
allana

How was your day overall?
alright i guess

Do you think that someone is thinking about you right now?
i doubt it

Who was the last person that you said "i love you" to?
um probley a family memeber

Have you told anyone that you missed them lately?
not recently but like a few weeks ago

Have you ever liked someone that you didn't expect to?
lol yeha i was like ill never like someone like him then next thing you know i did

Who was the last person that you cried in front of?
um i cried to myself

Are you 100% over the last person you kissed?
um 99.9%

Have you ever kissed anyone within an hour of meeting them?
no thats got whore written all over it

This time last year, can you remember who you liked?
yah omar

Whats going on with you and the person you last kissed?
nothing at all

Are you anyone's first love?
that would be cool but i dont know

Did anything brighten up your day today?
um sorta

How are you feeling at this exact moment?
tired

Do you ever wonder how other people see you?
yeah all the time i think of how i looked and the way i said things and stuff im so self concious

Do you think you're a good friend?
to friends that are good to me

Within the next 5 months, what are you looking forward to MOST?
christmas , birthday , halloween , reffing in calgary !!!!

Do you want to cut your hair?
yeah but not much but im stikk to scared they will screw it up

Would you rather have roommates or live alone?
roomates

Do you have any scars?
yep on my leg

Will you be in a relationship next month?
i could be but i dont want to be

Do you remember who you liked three months ago?
not easy to forgeet

well leaving to thousand trails today camping till tuesday with my bestie rebecca
cannot wait to get out of mission
woot wooot !
love you cheeeeerrrrrryyylll
i hope theres some good lookin boys there

looking back at all the pictures and that book , really makes me miss b.c winter games and my team