i feel like i'm on top of the world
i haven't felt that in so long.
you're the most beautiful girl i've ever met in my entire life.
i just can't get you outta my head.
i have a huge thing for hot, seemingly straight girls.
i just can't help myself
my usual only go for the gays routine has died completely.
hmmm
how many times i'll hurt people
before it'll stop hurting me
and i'll settle in my ways.
a question in which i do not know a better answer to then knowing when someone worth it comes along, or i realize how worth it they are.
i will settle, and be humble too.
but i will not settle for less, and maybe that's my issue to
Promoted to Assistant manager = pay increase, own hours, benefits, etc!!!!
Girl, you're beautiful.. mmm see you tomorrow...so excited.
looking at basement suites today, ahh
I'm just so high on life.
Job, Girl, School happening soon, independence(more then i've got)
sighhh
keep it comminnnnn
mmmm, that's all i have to say.
you're so beautiful, and i'm so lucky to have you in my life
let alone get to kiss and love on you.
this feeling is a good one.
"You know it ain't easy
For these thoughts here to leave me
There's no words to describe it
In French or in English
Well, diamonds they fade
And flowers they bloom
And I'm telling you
These feelings won't go away
They've been knockin' me sideways
They've been knockin' me out lately
Whenever you come around me
These feelings won't go away
They've been knockin' me sideways
I keep thinking in a moment that
Time will take them away
But these feelings won't go away "
'But so many people are looking to me
To be strong and to fight
But Im just surviving
I may be weak but Im never defeated
And Ill keep believing
In clouds with that sweet silver lining '
but then i look up and all around me and realise that lifes just a big crazy mess and that it's all just an unwritten story ready to be told. I wouldn't change it for anything. What a thrill.
I'm the reclusive one, i obviously am. I work 11-13 hour days, and then hide in my home. Good times.
Can't wait till my boss comes home so i can get on with shit.
First class starts in November, holy fuck. School? can't remember the last time i did that.
Is there someone you wanna date?
meh, do i really date?
Why did you stop liking the last person you liked?
because i'm not an idiot
What are you listening to?
Emerson Drive
Name a quote from the song you are listening to?
"you say you've turned it off, hid your heart up on a shelf. Scared of what it might cost to take it off for someone else, cause lovin him you lost too much of yourself .baby can't you see, that he's not me."
What are you doing right now?
Music, eating, filling this out, just woke up!
What does your last text say?
"yes of course"
Are you keeping a secret from someone who needs to know the truth?
meh
Last missed call?
Sydney
Last person you talked on the phone with?
Dad?
What was the first thing you did when you woke up today?
at 5AM... went pee and got dressed and ready to go to work!
Do you like vitamin water?
ew
Have you ever hated someone, but ended up being friends with them?
hahaha, i usually end up falling for someone i've previously hated.
What do you think of people who have sex before marriage?
didn't your grandma ever tell you to test drive before you buy?
Do you own a pair of green pants?
i think i threw them out...
Do you believe that what comes around goes around?
occasionally. i think eventually in different ways. But i also believe that there are people out there that live so cruelly and yet never get whats coming to them.
What is your favorite fruit?
pineapples
Who was the last person you were mad at?
Twins to ditchin
What do you want right now?
cuddle up and sleep.
Is your best friend pretty?
obviously
Whats the one thing thats getting you through the week?
to be honest, i have no fucking clue.
Where is one place you want to visit?
Europe. England to see my aunty.
What's your favorite thing to have for breakfast?
Cheerios
Ever felt that no one relates to you?
misunderstood? sure
When was the last time you saw your grandparents?
Saturday, yeee grandma, you get crunk.
Are you a vegetarian?
fuck no.
So Pretty sure, not totally, but pretty sure the horse has sold. DEPRESSING.
New goal : BMW here i come
and school of course.
life is good
life is good
All i have to say is that the last little while has been extremely weird for me, and for reasons and parts i can not even vocalize to you or any others. My feelings towards everything are up and down like a yo yo, so i gathered i'd make a list, for different people.
-I'm so disappointed that you would treat me like that, who drops their friends with no explanation, especially someone with as much history. It's not cool, and not respectable at all. Definitely not an attractive quality.
-Is this really happening? Who fuckin knows but it's weird. But like you said, it's comfortable enough for me not to bolt at this point. I feel like you understand me(pretty well), and like i don't have to impress you at all. Which is nice for once, even if i don't really trust you or your intentions, as you don't trust mine.
- I missed you more then you know, don't ever leave my life again.
- you're a drama queen, it's a good thing i don't deck you, and or shoot you. It's also a good thing that i'm level headed and believe that it takes more to hate someone then it does to love them. Capice.
-I'm sick of the way things are here, i love you, no matter what but our relationship sucks and i'm sick of feeling useless to you. You're pushing me away.
i'm sure i'll continue this shit, but now i'm off to work.
i'm so done
i'm never putting myself out there ever again
everyone can just fuck it.
i deserve so much better then bullshit.
happy valentines everyone...
not.
that was probably the best date i've ever been on in my entire life.
amen, thank you jesus.
is gonna be way better then last year
nothing can be worse then this last year
i graduate on the 27th! woooot.
and then life starts... hopefully
it's gonna be good though. i know it.
it has to be
