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10:18pm | Sep 20, '08 | Public
1. last beverage iced green tea latte =)
2. last phone call mommz
3. last instant message Jbens
4. last song you listened to Momentum- The Hush Sound <3
5. last time you cried Connors funeral
6. last text message facebook i think hah

SIX HAVE YOU EVER:
1. dated someone twice you bet i have ahahah
2. been cheated on? basically. i might as well have been.
3. kissed someone & regretted it? uhm. nah.
4. lost someone special? yes
5. been depressed? yes
6. been drunk and threw up? only once.

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
1. oraange babyy
2. green
3. black ( but never these 3 together...yuck )

THIS MONTH HAVE YOU:
1. Made a new friend yeah a few!
2. Fallen out of love perhaps.
3. Laughed until you cried umm yeah at work haha.
4. Met someone who changed your life yeah . well in the last month
5. Found out who your true friends were yeah
6. Found out someone was talking about you not recently
7. Have you kissed anyone on your friend's list too many hahah
8. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life all except maybe like 3
9. How many kids do you want to have 2 or 3
10. Do you have any pets oui... un chat
11. Do you want to change your name nah people get kicks out of it haha
12. What did you do for your last birthday haha . tight and bright combo bday party with matt c, and the rest is history....
13. what time did you wake up today 4:55am. hahah . fuck me.
14. What were you doing at midnight last night watching Liam rest
15. Name something you CANNOT wait for umm weds. my day off =))
1 6. Last time you saw your father shit. uhm... last..saturday. so a week ago
17. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life i wish i had enough money that i could be in pen on my own already
18. What are you listening to right now Must be Dreaming - Frou Frou
19. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom you bet..in fact i did today!
20. Who's getting on your nerves right now nobody.
21. Most visited webpage fb, caringbridge, castanet
001. Whats your fulll name sam. =)
002. Nicknames you tell me. there are too many to think of.
003. Relationship Status single
004. Zodiac sign Pisces
005. Male or female male, obv. hahaha
006. Elementary black mtn/anne mcclymont
007. Middle School n/a
008. Highschool okm
010. Hair colour blonde
011. tall or short medium
015. Are you health freak no except when it comes to matcha cause I could live on it.
016. Height 5f6"
017. Do you like someone i like a lot of people.
018: What do you like about yourself i'm awesome, come on.
019. Piercings just the good ol' ears
020. Tattoos one planned but none yet
021. Righty or lefty righty ftw

FIRSTS :
022. First surgery gum surgery
023. First piercing ears
024. First best friend Jess A
025. First award library assistant award in gr 3 haha
026. First sport you joined T ball and Jazz Dance
027. First pet Shadow, first cat
028. First vacation Manzanillo, MX when i was 7
029. First concert imitation Britney and BSB haha
030. First crush not even going to talk about it!! hahah

CURRENTLY :
049. Eating nothing but i'm hungry as frick cause I havent eaten yet today
050. Drinking nothing. i'm not big on multitasking
052. I'm about to sleep i hope
053. Listening to how many times will you ask this? anyways, now it's High School Party by Bo Burnham lol
055. Waiting for Mom and Tann and D to get home to see if i can make the salad that's prepped in la fridge

YOUR FUTURE :

058. Want kids? you bet
059. Want to get married? eventually but no hurry
060. Careers in mind? something with my criminal and soaicl justice degree eventually, don't know what though

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX? :

068. Lips or eyes eyes
069. Hugs or kisses depends on the mood
070. Shorter or taller taller
071. Older or Younger right now i'd say older
072. Romantic or spontaneous both, but more spontaneous
073. Nice stomach or nice arms arms =)
074. Sensitive or loud how bout quirky?
075. Hook-up or relationship relationship
077. Trouble maker or hesitant trouble maker.... but not a criminal.

HAVE YOU EVER :

078. Kissed a stranger yep
080. Lost glasses/contacts dont have any to lose
081. Ran away from home once
084. Broken someone's heart yep, i'm such a bitch,
085. Been arrested nope
086. Turned someone down yeah
087. Cried when someone died of course
088. Liked a guy/girl friend yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

089. Yourself yeah man,
090. Miracles when i see one i will.
091. Love at first sight nope, maybe love at first date.
092. Heaven meh who knows
093. Santa Claus he's my BFF
095. Kiss on the first date if it's a god date =)
096. Angels you bet

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY :

097. Is there one person you want to be with right now? kinda.
098. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? not yet... hahah
099. Do you believe in God? i don't realy know.
100. Posting this as 100 Truths? no. just posting. the end.
 
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02:01am | Sep 13, '08 | Public
But even the sturdiest ground
Can shift and can tremble and let us fall down.
Kindly unspoken
You show your emotion
And silence speaks louder than words;
 
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11:49pm | Sep 07, '08 | Public
Okay here we go Connor.
At some point it was inevitable I would have to get everything off my chest. Its not that I have much to say because you know I love you and miss you so much and I think about you every singe day. I was inspired by Jess to talk about some of the fond memories I have with you and Im sure your family might get a kick out of these if they read them too.
I remember when I first met you in Grade eight in woodwork class. We clicked right away, you always made me laugh and of course I fell for your charm and sarcastic wit right away. I had a huge crush on you and I remember it was such a competition no matter what year from grades 8 to 10 because there was always someone else that liked you too, and I even TOLD you and you were all laid back like, I dont NEED a girlfriend. Come on Shayne. And I just laughed it off, and Im glad that we still remained such good friends even though that was a bit of a let down at first!
In grade eight your true comedic behavior came out. You were always shining bright, getting my attention, and you reminded me of Jack Black the way you were so laid back and fun to be with. I remember how you used to have Purrell in your backpack every day to sanitize your hands. You hid it most of the time but when I saw you using it one day I was like Connor why do you have Purrell and you were embarrassed because your mom had made you take it to school, or at least thats what you said! It was funny because then in foods class, Sarah and I always bugged you and asked you to borrow some Purrell. It never got old.
I also remember you used to shake your hair out and fan it with your hands when it was long and flippy and died a burgundy color. It drove our Home Ec. teacher, Ms. Laing absolutely CRAZY and she always asked you to stop shaking your head!! It was sooo funny because you were simply curt, always saying But Mrs Laing, I need to shake my hair because the air cools off my head! and she would just look at you like you were crazy. I just thought it was hilarious.
We also used to steal extra supplies for our food in cooking. One day when we made chocolate chip cookies I think you made 3 trips to the chocolate chip bin and when you came back all sneaky we would hide the chocolate chips under the dough so when she came to check you could go and get some more. Those were quite possibly the best cookies I have ever had! I remember we called them generous cookies because of the generous serving of chocolate we used haha.
There are a lot of other memories from Grade 8 and 9, like how I used to steal your jacket because it made Christina jealous so you let me wear it when you ran around in the winter, and you would share your lunch with me and just always be a total goofball.
I remember your jeans were always falling off your ass so Sarah and I kept telling you to get a belt but it wasnt until early grade 10 that you actually followed suit. I was so proud haha =)
In grade 10 I had my first serious boyfriend. At least it seemed like it at the time, but the one big thing I remember is that the one day he made me REALLY mad, I came to your birthday party and everything was okay, I hung out and visited and I forgot about how stressed I had been.
You always had the ability to do that, no matter what was going on with me, whether you gave me a hug and sat to talk or just sent me a text message, you could make my stresses diminish.
Later in grade 10 you came to my sixteenth birthday. Its one that I STILL hear about because there were 30 or so of us there, and it was a huge gong show. I will never forget it.
About a week after my birthday was when you were diagnosed. I remember it so vividly, it was over two years ago and it feels like yesterday. I remember seeing a card that said GET WELL CONNOR and I went and talked to the teacher to figure out what was going on. I was in so much shock that I couldnt think of what to write, and I remember being devastated and going straight home after school and crying and then thinking that the only thing I can do is support you and so thats what I did.
I had so much faith in you, and you gave me so much courage because you are such a strong soul. I remember when you came home from Vancouver after some treatments, you had lost your hair and you were a lot thinner and very pale. I was taken aback even though you had warned me before hand. We sat in your front yard and played travel scrabble for hours when your family had a barbeque because it was right before you were leaving back to Vancouver.
I remember being scared to hug you, just in case I was coming on with some kind of cold even though I felt fine, and when I went to go home you told me it didnt matter if I was sick, even though if I had been, your parents would be mad, and you gave me a huge hug. You always could give great big hugs. I remember you were wearing your lacrosse jersey that day.
After that, I didnt see you for quite awhile. On my 17th birthday you were at OKM visiting. It was perfect timing and I was so ecstatic to see you. You smiled and I sat down beside you like it was any other day and the more time I spent with you, the stronger I realized you were, and the harder I prayed for you and I put so much faith into the fact that one day, you would beat this.
I saw you a couple more times, at home when you visited and at OKM once or twice more, and then you were in Vancouver for countless months. This year, when I heard you were coming home, I was so excited because of everything that was going on with our school fundraisers, our get well cards, and the relay for life that had helped keep you front and center in my life even when you were at the coast.
I felt horrible for not visiting you more than I did, and I realized when I DID come see you, that you were the same old Connor that I know and love.
There are all of these preconceived ideas that cancer changes people. With some people Im sure it does because it wears them down and puts burdens on all of their friends and family. You were completely opposite of that, because you did everything in your power to support YOUR family, and lift them up when they needed YOU. You were and still are the spark of life that burns within a lot of us, and that is something that even Ewings cant take away from us here on Earth.
I love you so much Connor and I always will. I will always smile when I think about you. I have done my share of shedding tears, and Im sure there will be more to come, but I know that you were a man of many laughs and that is something I will never forget. I will always laugh for you and with you. I will love for you and live for you and I will keep you in my heart and mind forever. Thank you for being such a special part of my life and making me the mature, strong, and courageous person I am today.
I love you, goodbye for now, I will see you again.
Shayne
 
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10:42pm | Sep 07, '08 | Public
i hate how you make it obvious
that its so IMPOSSIBLE to have you
& yet so IMPOSSIBLE for me
to get you off my mind.
fucking seriously?
 
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03:17am | Sep 06, '08 | Public


20days.20days.20days.

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09:04pm | Sep 01, '08 | Public

fuck you,
14 years difference.
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08:03am | Aug 31, '08 | Public

I need you,
now, more than ever.
you're never there
in the worst of times.
I long for you,
but first you have to
prove yourself.
tomorrow, first since
2 years ago.
you're
a fucking
asshole.
I miss you,
and you just dont accept it
you think nothings changed
its complete bullshit.
I crave you,
I talked to you today,
and It look every ounce of
strength within me
not to tackle you right there
I want you to be mine,.
it'll never happen.
I admire you
you are a great friend
and i need you in my life.
I love you.
you're gone
be my guardian?
I know you will.
thank you. for changing me.
 
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03:44pm | Aug 26, '08 | Public
L: the canoobies?
B: Obviously.
S: You're a canoobie.
B: I'll canoobie the hell out of you.
S: *awkward laugh* .. uh huh.. right.
B: I figure it would be really gross or it would hurt a lot.

hahahaha.
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05:13am | Aug 15, '08 | Public

Tonight I am going through all of my "facebook friends." I am going to honestly delete anyone that isnt FRIENDLY or my friend. SO basically if I have no interest in talking to you, SAYONARA.

Start time: 9:40 pm
Friend count: 601



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End time: 10:05
Friend count: 561.

okay thats not as bad as I thought.
you guys are legit.
<3
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05:56am | Aug 08, '08 | Public
faarewelll
season four
sytycd.

IV REAL,
betches.
=)
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05:43am | Aug 08, '08 | Public
im so sick of crying.
i know its not fucking helping. anything. at all.
ahgtakuaktwuytaejkgekatkjaydsfjgsejk.
stupid red swollen blurry eyes
and unshakable shivers
and congestion. gross.
no thanks.
iloveyou.
keep your spirits up.
=)
 
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05:11am | Jul 24, '08 | Public



I don't know what I've done
Or if I like what I've begun
But something told me to run
And honey you know me it's all or none

There were sounds in my head
LIttle voices whispering
That I should go and this should end
Oh and I found myself listening

'Cos I dont know who I am, who I am without you
All I know is that I should
And I don't know if I could stand another hand upon you
All I know is that I should
'Cos she will love you more than I could
She who dares to stand where I stood

See I thought love was black and white
That it was wrong or it was right
But you ain't leaving without a fight
And I think I am just as torn inside

'Cos I dont know who I am, who I am without you
All I know is that I should
And I don't know if I could stand another hand upon you
All I know is that I should
'Cos she will love you more than I could
She who dares to stand where I stood

And I won't be far from where you are if ever you should call
You meant more to me than anyone I ever loved at all
But you taught me how to trust myself and so I say to you
This is what I have to do

'Cos I dont know who I am, who I am without you
All I know is that I should
And I don't know if I could stand another hand upon you
All I know is that I should
'Cos she will love you more than I could
She who dares to stand where I stood
Oh, she who dares to stand where I stood
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redicc songs that i love.
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04:34am | Jul 13, '08 | Public






 
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07:49pm | Jul 10, '08 | Public

Is something on your mind?
Hands are cold as ice, she said
Tell me about your secret life
And all the things you've seen,
Tell me what you think of me.

You dance like a queen
In spite of all the things you never wanted
When you're left out in the cold
You dance like a queen
Your silhouette is still my reflection
You speak to me, you speak to me...
& you speak to me in riddles *
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05:50pm | Jul 09, '08 | Public


What have I got to rannnt about today..?
Larry is STILL a fucking homo.
aka dickwad, asshole, prick, you know.
I could go on for hours. lets just leave it at that..
I GOT A JOB
wooot x 8735148751
I mean, I dont START yet, but
at least I HAVE one, right?
also stoked on: seeing kendal today
& on friday, when tann has his party
YAY . and YESTERDAY, seeing L & hb.
That was just great.
Same deal with hb.. basically
want to die. or sleep forever
because a lot more happens when I sleep.
lolololololol......
and as far as L..,....
I miss him. GAY. GAY. GAY. NOTFAIR.
yeah.....you get the point.
so NOT going to KidRock..
even though Dad & Shannon are
and they have lots of extra tickets
and tann and I could have both gone
but we're not. hahahahaha.
&& stoked for the concert tomo.
YAY SARAH ..ALPHABETIZED.
okay as much as i cant stand J's voice
most of the time..and didnt want it
to be our grad song...........i'm stoked to see them
yayay for mission hall. okay... i overslept again
i hate it..i want a regiment again ;-; !!!
I AM SO SICK OF SLEEPING IN.
I have to shower now.
kkkkbyeeeee
 
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