hello agian nexopia well its been a long time since ive blogged on this site. although i might as well' considering my mom and aunties ceeep on reading every thing i post on face book. so my alternative is this site in order to keep my family members from creeping my very buried complements towards them and well them...hahah . well to begin my series of unfortunate events i have been held captive here in cold lake ...buy none other then my mom lol I have basically been braught down here to clean .....AS USUAL............IM TIRED OF MY LIFE STYLE IT SUX .....well i think. pple like to think there lifes are all fucked' but in other ways other pple like to think they have it great. its so messed op how things can be so opposite and yet so balanced at the same time .....it appalls me. pple can be so dumb when they dont need to be and thats what makes things difficult for them selves. i know cuz i noticed my self doing it. and i thin im stupid for even being like that' but what better wat to learn but from your own mistakes...

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well i dont really know how to put any of this but ive been having alot of shit on my mind and i have to get it out some how i feel some tention between some people that just never goes away and i feel some goodthings from people that is always there i dont really get it anymore its like just one day my mind went totally blank i dont even know half the things that are bothering me and i dint know how to put them in order but wut ever im a bit worried about a couple of things like missing those two days of school im worried if im getting a check or not and im worried about how im going to cash the check and there is also the thing about us getting avicted and if i do get that check how long is it going to take till i get it ....i need some money for rent or just to buy a new place with some friends but i need some friends who are willing to buy an appt with me ....do i have good friends like that of cource i do ..but who are they....? and do i even have them as good friends i dont know anymore oh and the thing that really worries me as the suicidal thaughts ive been having latley im two scared to go to any high pleaces buy my self or even just to carry a simple razor and im also afraid of pills like who cares enouph to make sure im not thinking about things like this non of my freinds in the city ....

is thinking about the most messed up demotic dream i had last night it was so bloody and gorry' creaters chopping up humands some deamon lady whoe had a razor sharp tail who was able to decapatate some one with a single swish of her tail.. and hands only hands digging in icky gewwy mud' digging up dead bodies witch where moslty women bodies naked bodies and limbs and fingers twiching on the ground just only fingers I never had such messed up dreams like that in a long time the wierd thing about it was that i wassn't really bothered buy it ........it was like being in the most horrifying demented movie any one has ever seen i wonder what im going to dreamabout tonight??
there was this one part where this guy kept crawling out of
lava and and once he came out his skelotin would start to grow skin and the more he came out the more his skin would come back and once he was totally out of the lava he was a man agian and then this one demond looking creature would push him right back into the lava and he would burn untill he was a skeliton agian and it wouold start over like he would crawl back out and he would get pushed in agian 'there was this lady hung up on the wall while this other creature lookin thing would be lashing her with a whip with blades at the end and every time he would whip her her skin would tear and bleed and heal agian and he would keep whipping her and the sceams where so freeky .......i do not know what the hell i ate to make me dream like that butit was pretty fucked up ...

dont want no short dick men!

i still cnt beilive your gone man you where like one of my best friends one of the ones i got along with the best i really cant believe your gone its like a bad dream....man i will always remember all the good time i had with you and all those times we got stonned together im really gonna miss you bro .....till the day i die...



LOVE YOU BRO

im drunk on r&r righjt now ahhahahaha good shit
so what you up to

you know who you are when i say you so just reply and say so..
thy gang

well i have writen a blog in quiet a LONT TIME SO HERE I GO
im at been trtees agiaan in cold lake i got logan in his stroller ....good thing the lil deamond passed out
but i love thew kid.......so whats new every one?

like any one would read this enouph to even reply

so what have i been up to?

well nothing much just baby sitting and reading the old darren shan book yep still reading em im on the
tenth one where harked spits and darren are just getting to the lake of souls
its funny reaLLY I EVEN GOT MY OLDER BROTHER INTO THESE BOOKS
well he has to go to t5he cells every weekend and stay thwere fron friday to sunday it must suck ass havivng to do that every weekend ....oh yea i got pretty bussed out last night with my friend angels lil brothers i boxed then it was fun and my ear is still ringing from that one shot pretty big kids for 11 and 14 you should see these kid the 11 year ols shoe's are even bigger then mine ...but yea i guess thats all for now me and logan are gonna get back to my sisters and chill out some more ,....love peace and bannok grees