okaii so its not like it matters or anything.
but for the past couple daiis i been trying to make some sense of my life.
and i cant, not anymore, i changed so much from the person i used to be.
the care free, loving person i used to be.
i miss that kyle. he was happy.
this ones afraid, of somethings.
its so hard to follow your heart when you dont know if its the right thing to do.
well i was born and lived in merritt for about 8 years of my life, then i moved to spences bridge, then we moved to skeetchestn, a very boring place where my life slowly started going wrong... in life i learned about death, love, and sex at a early age, and then i started getting into weed and drinking around the age of 13-14. and the only reason i got into it was because of my brother, i think thats one of the many reasons i hate him, hes kinda been a big deal in my life, messing my life up, making it just that much harder every weekend, and his friends too, my brother is a drunk, he turned 19 not to long ago, but hes been a drunk for a very long time, hes more then fucked up, and he got into alot of drugs, i think hes into crack now but im not sure, hes been around it i know that for sure, his friends are... rap singers... everyone thinks they are good, but i dont listen to them coz their his friends so thats not my thing to be interested in anything that has to do with him. and my dad is a crack head, a drunk, and scary, he tried to burn my mom alive when i was a lil kid, my dad hasn't really been there my whole life, but hes been trying, but obviously not hard enough, i dont really like him either, i saii my dad and my brother are gonna live the same lives, i lost my mom when i turned 12 i think, she died in the kamloops royal inland hospital, there are times i miss her, or times i wanna hug her, or talk to her, people saii no matter what, the ones you love that die, will always be with you, but thats not true. my two best cousins in the world are jody and skylar, they been there since i was a baby, we been through alot together, and hopefully we will always be close to each other, jody was there when i lost my mom, and i was there for her when she lost her brother. me skylar and jody are able to read each other really well, since i moved away we kinda stayed close for the first lil bit, but we slowly started to move away, but we're still in touch. ive been through so many relationships its not fun, ive broken hearts, and had my heart broken, most of my life all the promises i had made to me were broken, so i dont really like making promises, ive had allot of bad experiences with drunk people, such as my dad, my mom and her bfs, and my brother and his friends, my sister laura and cousin cliff, trish and jordan, they all put me through hell more then once. but mostly its kevin and his stupid friends that put my life through hell. my grandma didn't really raise my brother the waii a grandmother is suppose to raise a child, she let him drink, and do drugs, even buy the stuff for him, i really hate my life, i been brought up good, in a bad place, i taught myself basically all i know about life... id do anything to get out of this life
1] Who are you?
[2] Are we friends?
[3] When and how did we meet?
[4] How have I affected you?
[5] What do you think of me?
[6] What's the fondest memory you have of me?
[7] How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
[8] Do you love me?
[9] Have I ever hurt you?
[10] Would you hug me?
[11] Would you kiss me?
[12] Would you fuck me?
[13] Are we close?
[14] Emotionally, what stands out?
[15] Do you wish I was cooler?
[16] On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?
[17] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
[18] Am I loveable?
[19] How long have you known me?
[20] Describe me in one word.
[21] What was your first impression?
[22] Do you still think that way about me now?
[23] What do you think my weakness is?
[24] Do you think that I am wierd?
[25] What about me makes you happy?
[26] What about me makes you sad?
[27] What reminds you of me?
[28] What's something you would change about me?
[29] How well do you know me?
[30] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
[31] Do you think I would kill someone?
[33] Who else reminds you of me?
[32] If you I told you I had 3 weeks to live what would we do?
[34] If I died would you cry?
[35] When was the last time we fought?
[36] Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?
[37] What song reminds you of me ?
[38] If we where going on a date where would you take me?
[39] What is in your opinion, my best asset?
[40] Do you think I willl get married?
okaii well i been like away fr awhile
ever since mike and i ended
but whatever
i love the guy still
but we need to move on and find others for the time being
i been gone for awhile
and i just started missing talking to all the people that i used to talk to awhile ago
so yeah i am gonna try and come on here more often again lol
Pick the month you were born in
Jan - I cuddled with
Feb - I killed
Mar - I ran shirtless with
Apr - I raped
May - I killed
Jun - I banged
Jul - I needed
Aug - I ran naked with
Sept - I stabbed
Oct - I ate out
Nov - I slept with
Dec - I smoked with
Pick the day (number) you were born on
01 - the kool-aid man
02 - a horse
03 - a pornstar
04 - a toothbrush
05 - Santa Claus
06 - a bag of weed
07 - a prostitute
08 - a jew
09 - a ninja
10 - a homo
11 - Paris Hilton
12 - the trojan man
13 - a whore
14 - a cat
15 - a pickle
16 - a glass of milk
17 - a bisexual
18 - YOUR MOM (mam)
19 - an orange
20 - a crackhead
21 - a bowl of cereal
22 - an easter egg
23 - my ex
24 - a condom
25 - a jar of honey
26 - a lesbian
27 - a homeless guy
28 - a french fry
29 - your dealer
30 - a stripper
31 - Ur grandma
pick the colour of the top your wearing now..
White - Because thats how i roll
Black - because im sexy as hell
Pink - Because the lil people told me to
Red - because I have AMAZING boobs
Blue - because I'm a pimp and your jealous
Polka Dots - because I hate my life
Purple - because I'm gay
Gray - because I love marijuana
Other - because I have double D's
Green - because I'm beautiful
Orange - because I smoke crack
Turqoise - because I have a noodle in my nose
Brown - because i had to
Shirtless - because I've got abs
Here I am again
Talking to myself
Sitting at a red light
Both hands on the wheel
How am I supposed to feel?
So much running through my mind
First you wanna be free
Now you say you need me
Giving mixed signals and signs
It's so hard to let you in
Thinking you might slam the brakes again
Put the pedal down
Heading out of town
Gotta make a getaway
The traffic in my brain's
Driving me insane
This is more than I can take
You tell me that you love me first
Then throw your heart into reverse
I gotta get away
I can't keep coming back to you
Every time you're in the mood
To whisper something sweet in my ear
It's so hard to move on
Cause every time I think you're gone
You show up in my rearview mirror
Is this just a detour?
Cause I gotta be sure
That you really mean what you say
It's so hard to let you in
Thinking you might slam the brakes again
Put the pedal down
Heading out of town
Gotta make a getaway
The traffic in my brain's
Driving me insane
This is more than I can take
You tell me that you love me first
Then throw your heart into reverse
I gotta get away
To a place where I can be redefined
Where you're out of sight
And you're out of mind
But the truth is I can't even say goodbye
Here I am again
Talking to myself
Sitting at a red light
Both hands on the wheel
How am I supposed to feel?
So much running through my mind
Put the pedal down
Heading out of town
Gotta make a getaway (a getaway)
The traffic in my brain's
Driving me insane
This is more than I can take (I can take)
You tell me that you love me first
Then throw your heart into reverse
I gotta get away
If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, even if we don't speak often, please post a comment with a memory of you and I. It can be anything you want, either good or bad. I promise not to come after you. When you're finished, post this little paragraph on your blog and be suprised (or mortified) about what people remember about you.
CLAIM YOUR PLACE.
MY BEAUTIFUL - <3JoJo<3
MY LOSER -
MY ANGEL - <3<3Mike<3
MY BABE - <3john<3<3
MY STONER - Harry<3
MY PARTNER IN CRIME - Gordy!<3
MY DOLL -
MY WONDERWOMAN - <3Stacii<3
MY SLUT - <3<3Mike<3
MY SUPERGIRL -
MY ALWAYS - <3JoJo<3
MY BITCH -
MY HOE -
MY PREP -
MY GANGSTER - Bri <3<3
MY SUNSHINE -
MY BUDDIE -
MY COOKIE MONSTER - Candii<3
MY HERO-
MY RETARD - <3Aubin<3
MY LOVE - <3<3Mike<3
MY SHINING STAR - <3john<3<3
MY SMILE - <3 tascha <3
MY EVERYTHING - <3<3Mike<3
MY LIFE - <3Harmo<3<3
MY ROCKSTAR - <3Aubin<3 & Sky
MY WIFE -
MY COOK -
MY PLAYMATE -
MY SUPERHERO -
MY HOTTIE -
MY PLAYER -
MY PIMP -
MY THUG - Bri<3<3
MY WHORE -
MY HUSTLER -
MY SPAZ -
MY DANCER -
MY BODYGUARD - <3Stacii<3
MY OUT OF TOWNER - Gordy!<3
MY DUMBASS - <3Harmo<3<3
MY BESTFRIEND - Gordy!<3
MY CUTIE - Shea Shea<3<3
MY FAVORITE -
MY BALLA - Shea Shea<3<3
MY DOG -
MY CREEP - <3Steffy<3
MY GIRLFRIEND-
MY LOVER-<3<3Mike<3
My Pimpin Friend -
My Boo-
My World-
My Ex-
My Hunny-
My Auntie-
My Uncle-
My Princess-<3Alex<3
My Prince-
My Queen-
My King-
My Big Flirt-
My Twin-
My Mad Love-<3<3Mike<3
My Big Sista-
My Lil Sista-<3Harmo<3<3
My Big Brother-
My lil bro-
My Crazy Brother-
My Sexy Sister-
My girl friend -
My Messy Upper-
My Horny Friend-
My Nerd-
My Crazy Gurl-
My Geek-
My One and Only Gurl-
My Crazy Lover-
My Older cusion-
My Sex Machine-<3<3Mike<3
My Baby Boo-
My Hyper Buddy -<3Harmo<3<3
My Weird Buddy- <3Aubin<3
My Crazy Buddy-
My Mind Reader-
My Personal shopper-
My Mad friend-
My Fav.Ex-
My Cuzzy Wuzzy-
My Crazy Awesome Friend-
My Beautiful Chick Friend-
My Future Wife-
My Sister In-Law-
My Brother In Law-
My Inspiration-
My Shoppoholic friend-
My Goddess-
My Fav Baller-
My Lil Cutie Pie-Shea Shea<3<3
My High School Sweet Heart-
My Fav Gurls-
My Best Gurl-
My Babe-
My Babies God parents-
My Sexy Hot girl-
My Manager-
My Best Friend-
My Personal Assistant-
My Dirty Dancin Partner-
My Bitch On The Side-<3<3trory<3
My Party Animal-
My Favourite Cousin-
My Niece-
My Nephew-
My Buddy-
My Good Twin-
My Bad Twin-
My Computer Friend- <3 tascha <3
My Good Half-
My Bad Half-
My Evil Half-
My Thinker Half-
My Hottie-
My Beautiful-
My Gross Minded Half-
My Tokin Buddy-
My Good Friend-
My Classmate-
My Boss-
okaii well not like anyone reads or cares
but whatever
idk
i just have alot on my mind rite and i dont know what to talk about
theres this guy
he is kinda in my head like all the time
i dont know whats going on
i dont know why i cant sleep
when i close my eyes hes there
when i think
hes my thoughts
when i talk
all i wanna do is talk about him and how much i wanna be with him
theres nothing more i ever wanted in my life
i am trying my best to get a job so i can be with him and
buy him everything
to wake up to his smile
his touch
seeing him everydaii
i dont know how much he loves, but i know he does
or at least he saiis he does
i love him more then anything i ever loved in my whole
entire life
i couldn't bare to loose him
or live my life without him
lmfao
rite now me and my grandma are talking about him
and why i cant sleep
she just worries about me
but i dont know
she doesn't know him
she doesn't know how he makes me feel
his smile is the best thing ever
it makes all the wrong things rite again
when i know he's smiling at me, is the best feeling ive ever felt
