so, i have nothing to do but wander aimlessly around the mall because i work at 4:30, i live a good 45 min walk from the mall so there's no point going home, n my friends and boyfriend are all either working or in shcool still. so m reduced to walking up and down the mall pretending i have a real destination, wasting 25 min on a library guest computer, or be a total dork n play a video game in some corner of the library so no one can see me. i've settled for the computer. so here i am, typing away in a blog no one will bother reading, cuz lets face it, the only blogs people actually read are ones that are short, coloured, bold-lettered, or a survey, unless you're like me and don't care to waste time on them. that's okay tho. becuase if i kno no one will read this, then at least it keeps me sincere in wat m writing (if you've ever heard a certain rant of mine, you'd understand wat i mean). so, typing away. about nothing. random thoughts that pop into my head. like how i should've picked up halls while at Shopper's Drug Mart to curb this annoying cough i've retained after being sick. i can honestly say that the taste of phlegm is really getting old...and continues to be disgusting. but i can deal with it. my self-esteem, however, could use a boost. don't get me wrong, m not some self-hating person who thinks m ugly and fat beyond belief when in reality m 120lbs n, from wat i've witnessed over the past years, people don't mind looking at me. but when a close friend asks your boyfriend IN EARNEST if you've put on wieght relating to a possible little stranger, it tends to make you feel a little, oh i don't know, wats the word....shitty. especially wen you've maintained, and continue to, the same weight over the past two years. but i can take criticism...until i see him next (just kidding, mark! oh right, no one's reading this....) but i have but three minutes left on this damned guest computer, so i have to find something else to do for an hour....fun