Have you ever thought about what the world would be like if you didn't exist? What your friends or family would be like? One lifeless, boring day of mine, i started thinking, what WOULD this world be like if i was never concieved and brought into this hate-filled world? I've spent too many of my precious days feeling down, and low on myself when i could be making something of myself. Sometimes i have sufficient reasons for feeling the animosity that i do, and other times, there could be not the faintest reason in site, yet i still feel like im so worthless. But in all actuality, we're all worthless. What are we all but a cluster of water and molecules thrown together for some higher powers enjoyment? Often times when im zoning out at work or school i think about the oddest of things. What is it to hate, what is hate, what is love? Love is a progression of an unexplainable feeling that really is nothing. It comes and goes, causes us pain and anguish. Love is a travesty with a brilliantly articulate mask. A very dangerous mask. Love starts off making us feel like we are something. It makes us FEEL as much as a human being can truly feel. Especially our first love. And then it deminishes and reveals its ugly face. And once the wounds heal and you are uncertain whether you can love again, it hits you. Pounces on you ready to destroy you into two once again. Without love we would be emotionless creatures. People just need to be loved! It's a fundamental step in our society. So then as i was thinking these stupid random thoughts, i thought, love is an incredibly wonderful risk full of adventure. It helps us grow, mature and develop in many odd and unknown ways. When it comes down to it, everything relies on love. It's a fascinating thing, love. When the first human being walked on the earth, how did it know to love? Attraction perhaps? A growing desire to rely and have someone rely on it in return. Love really is a fascinating thing, even if it is a brilliantly articulate mask.. so lets indulge shall we?