Hello my faithful blog readers.....i have something to share with you all. So as most of you who are closer to me know....ive been in a very depressed state, and yesterday i decided to drown my sorrows which i was definately feeling today . So there i was at work, washing cars that don't seem to end, feeling like a bag of beat up shit when it hit me like a ray of light. Now a wiseman once told me "The carwash , as evil as it is, is a place where one can reflect upon ones self"* and in this moment of complete shittiness, I took a brief look at my life and said to myself 'ok now, being depressed really sucks.....Life is probably not as bad as i think it is....and if i ever want to escape its darkness....i have to take control of my own destiny....whats past is past.....its time to move on' and i as i sat there pondering these thoughts a tired smile appeared on my face.....it may have been tired but it was real, as i continued to wash the never-ending cars. Im finally taking control and attepmting to rep