1. i miss you. more then you will ever know.
i loved you.
im not over it.

2. i like you. more then i should.
i need to learn to slow down.
im afraid im going to scare you.
or that you feel a completely different way...

3. i dont know what to tell you.
i hope you dont define my character by my impulsive actions.
i fear what you think of me, truly.

4. im so afraid to hurt you.
alot of things about myself have been brought to my attention.
and i can only see it going downhill from here. :S
you were one of my bestfriends first.
and i hope that doesnt change...

5. im sorry that ive been acting the way i have.
ive been feeling so off.
im hurting you with my words.
but i cant bring myself to say sorry to your face.

6. i blow your shit out of proportions when i talk about you.
im sorry.
i love you, i just wish you'd understand what its like to be where i am one day.
but i dont think u ever will.

7. i feel bad about the things i say about you, but im stupid and blurt them out.
your still one of my best freinds.. and im sorry i say/assume the things i do.

8. your scaring me...
seriously...

i wont forget im me today
in spite my best wishes.
i wanted to impress you,
but realised im lying to myself.
i dont know how to fix me,
i dont know what i want.
ill never know what its like to be calm.
ill never fully understand my opportunities and options until they have passed.
i cant rely on my own thoughts and understandings.
im paranoid.
i will figure out your motives and assume they are true even when i have no facts.
i assume everyone thinks the same way.
i assume everyone has a deeper purpose, an ulterior motive.
im excited to find out whether everyone will die this year.
i dont think i can go on forever.
nor do i want to.
i dont think theres alot of hope for me.
i dont think u think of me the same way i think of you.
i always assume the worst.
im afraid to move on.
im afraid to get over it.
i cry too easily.
i harden at the wrong times.
i feel like ive gotten bitchier.
my anxieties make me want to tear out my own heart.
im afraid of everything.
im afraid of everyone.
i have to much empathy.
im selfish.
people that dont normally annoy me are getting on my nerves.
im afraid ill do something i regret.
im afraid to live.

This is seriously going to get personal, you ready? ya?

If you were caught cheating, would you fess up? yup.

The last time you felt honestly broken? when i saw him at the mall...

Are you craving something? i guess.

If you could have one thing right now what would it be? ..someone?

Would you rather have ten kids, or none? uhm none.

What do you hear right now? family guy.

Is your bed against more than one of your walls? 2.

What’s on your mind right now? family guy.. and someone.

Are you there for your friends? i try to be.

Last person to see you cry? my mom and mike

What do you do when you get nervous? fidget alot. get very quiet, or wont shut up.

Be honest, do you like people in general? no, not really.

How old do you think you will be when you finally have kids? older.. at least 5-7 more years. at LEAST.

Does anyone completely understand you? no.

Do you have a reason to smile right now? ..not really. but kinda.

Has anyone told you they don’t ever wanna lose you? ya..

Would you be happier if life had a rewind button? no. not really. i dont think it would change anything.

Do you tell your mom or dad everything? more then most people do, i think.

Does it matter to you if your boyfriend or girlfriend smokes? yes and no.

Are you going to get hurt anytime soon by someone? i do kinda feel it coming on.

This time last year, can you remember who you liked? ...:'( this is around when we broke up.

Do you think more about the past, present, or future? Past..and future.

How many hours of sleep do you get a night? around 11?

Are you easy to get along with? sometimes.

Do you hate the last girl you had a conversation with? no.

What was the last drink that you put in your mouth? water.

What size bed do you have? queen?

Do you start the water before you get in the shower or when you get in? before.

Do you like the rain? NO.

Do you think someone is thinking about you right now? maybe... but no probly not.

Have you ever done something you told yourself you wouldn’t do? ..so much. :/

Would people refer to you as a goodie goodie, bad news, or neither? im.. just.. danni.

Who were you last in the car with, besides family? uhm, kelsies mom, jordan, and jake.

What’s the last movie you saw in theaters and with who? breaking dawn with enya.

Have you ever kissed someone who had a boyfriend/ girlfriend? yes.

Have you ever been hurt by someone you never thought would hurt you? alot.

Your parents are out of town. Would you throw a massive party? fuck no. probly invite like 5 people over tho... haha. xD thats my idea of a party..

Do you regret a past relationship? i did at points. but no. i dont.

Would you rather spend a Friday night at a concert or a crazy party? party prolly.

Do you tend to fall for the same type of person over and over? yes. i really do.

Have you made a joke about somebody that made them cry? yes. :S didnt mean to!

Do you care too much about your appearance? yes and no.

Are you a jealous person? very..

Have you bought any clothing items in the last week? nope.

Do you miss anyone? ..kinda :$

Last person who made you cry? ..me.

Does your ex piss you off? which one? probly yes.

What are you doing tomorrow? ..handing out resumes hopefully.

Are you the type of person who has a new boyfriend/ girlfriend every week? fuck no. my shortest relashonship was a month. and that was damn short.

Is there anyone you want to come see you? YES.

Have you ever been cheated on? yes.

Ever given your all to someone who walked away? yes.

Do you like cotton candy? sometimes.

Who was the last person you had a serious conversation with? jordan.

Are you planning to get knocked up or knock someone up by age 17? already 18, i win.

Do you have siblings? yes.

Have you ever fallen asleep on someone? probly.

How has the past week been for you? ..decent.

Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to? yes <3

What’s on your mind right now? people..

What were you doing at midnight last night? watching tv.

What is your current mood? meh.

Who was the first person you talked to today? mom.

Will this week be a good one? no idea. probly just average.

Anything happen to you within the past month that made you really happy? ..yes :$

Who were you with last night? my house?

Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night? yes.. :$

Next time you will kiss someone? hm. i dunno. probly somewhat soon. weekend?

Who should start the kiss, the girl or the boy? depends who im making out with.

Do you have any plans for the weekend? not specifcally.

You can't get to sleep without? dark peace and quiet, no movement.

thinking about deleting nexopia. only person i talk to on here is enya. and i can text her if i wanna.

hardened.. cacoon, a shell.
iron plated..
but hollow inside.

all i ever wanted from you was just to be treated like a human.
but appearantly your incabable of that.
whatever, ill get over it.

I LOVE IT WHEN YOU TEASE ME!
YOU MAKE IT SEEM SO EASY!
WHEN YOU MAKE MY PEE PEE HARD!
GIRL YOU MAKE MY PEE PEE HARD!
DAMN RIGHT HOE YOU'RE SO SLEEZY!
YOU GIVE ME THE HIBBY JIBBIES!
WHEN YOU MAKE MY PEE PEE HARD!
GIRL YOU MAKE MY PEE PEE HARD!

Turn around girlfriend now drop it.
Let me see you pop and lock it.
Put your hands down in my pocket.
And make my PP hard.
Shut the fuck up bitch, quit talking.
I want to see those panties dropping.
Drop droppin, Drop droppin.
Drop those fucking panties girl!

She's bringing sexy back.
Look at how she shakes that ass.
She drops it to the floor.
GIRL YOU'RE SUCH A DIRTY WHORE! (x2)

I LOVE IT WHEN YOU TEASE ME!
YOU MAKE IT SEEM SO EASY!
WHEN YOU MAKE MY PEE PEE HARD!
GIRL YOU MAKE MY PEE PEE HARD!
DAMN RIGHT HOE YOU'RE SO SLEEZY!
YOU GIVE ME THE HIBBY JIBBIES!
WHEN YOU MAKE MY PEE PEE HARD!
GIRL YOU MAKE MY PEE PEE HARD!

And I love it when you tease me, YEAH!
You're sexy baby but you know that.
You don't have to ask me a million times.
If you want to have sex lets make some time.
Lets take them drugs, lets drink some wine.
Feel that bottle up baby and make it shine.
When I can feel your body next to mine.
That when I know it's sexy time. (come on)

She's bringing sexy back.
Look at how she shakes that ass.
She drops it to the floor.
GIRL YOU'RE SUCH A DIRTY WHORE! (x2)

I LOVE IT WHEN YOU TEASE ME!
YOU MAKE IT SEEM SO EASY!
WHEN YOU MAKE MY PEE PEE HARD!
GIRL YOU MAKE MY PEE PEE HARD!
DAMN RIGHT HOE YOU'RE SO SLEEZY!
YOU GIVE ME THE HIBBY JIBBIES!
WHEN YOU MAKE MY PEE PEE HARD!
GIRL YOU MAKE MY PEE PEE HARD!

I know you want me girl.
I can tell by the way you stare.
Your body's calling me.
As you shake your dariare.
OH YEAH! OH YEAH!
Baby girl we can bump and grind.
OH YEAH! OH YEAH!
We can do this all the time. (x2)

why are you such a fucking dick?
do you WANT me to stop talking to you? cuz in order for me to do that, you have to stop to.
or you could treat me like at least a little bit like a human being.. even treating me like a carpet would be a step up :/
but ill keep taking it, because im danielle, and ill do anything for you.
but you already know that..dont you.

So far in 2011
1. Have you had more than 5 different serious relationships? not in my whole life.
2. Have you had your birthday? yes.
3. Been to church? fuck that shit.
4. Cried yet? today, even.
5. Been drunk? a few times.
6. Pulled an all nighter? .. not this year yet, nope.
7. Drank Starbucks? ..jones?
8. Went shopping? define that. >.<
9. Been camping? no
10. Been to the beach? no
11. Bought something for over $200? no
12. Met someone? yes
13. Been out of the province? not this year.
14. Gone Snowboarding? no

HAVE YOU...
1. Hugged someone? yes
2. Slept in someone elses bed? yes
3. Snuck out of your own house? ..i dont think so, not yet.
4. Gotten drunk? ...yes?
5. Gotten a ticket? no
6. Gotten a car? no
7. Gone over your cell phone bill? lol, havent even paid my cell phone bill..
8. Drove somewhere? yes
9. Done something you regret? probly.

LASTS...
1. Last Thing you bought? hm..dnno.
2. Last person you hugged? robyn?
3. Last person to call you? my mom
4. Last time you felt stupid? ..now.
5. Last person you saw? mike?
6. What did you do today? went to school.. went to work. watch VD with gabby.

TEN FACTS...
1. Hometown: kelowna
2. Natural hair color: dark brown
3. Moustache: ew. no.
4. Hair style: ..short?
5. Eye color: hazel.
6. Height: 5’3 ish?
7. Pets: 3 cats 1 dog
8. Mood: ...
10. Homes: this year? just one..

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE…
01. Have you ever been in love: yes.
02. Do you believe in love: unfortunately.
03. Have you ever been heartbroken: yes
04. Have you ever broken someone's heart: i dont know.
05. Have you ever fallen for a friend? yes
06. Have you ever loved someone but never told them: :/ kinda.
07. Are you afraid of commitment? not really.
08. Are you single or taken? single
09. Have you ever been cheated on? yes
10. Have you ever wanted someone but knew that you couldn't have them? oh, like rihgt now?

TEN MORE THINGS...
01. Love or lust: love
02. Beer or liquor? liquor
03. Night or day: hard to say.
04. One night stands or relationships? relationships
05. TV or internet: internet
06. Pepsi or Coke: coke
07. Wild night out or romantic night in: wild night out
08. Black or white: black
09. Quality or Quantity: depends
10. Hot dish or casserole: hot dish

TEN EMOTIONS...
01. Are you missing someone right now: yes
02. Are you happy? no.
03. Are you talking to anyone right now: texting.
04. Are you eating: no
05. Are you German: no
06. Are you Irish: yes
07. Are you French: yes
08. Are you Italian: no
09. Are your parents still married? Never were
10. Do you like someone right now: i wish i didnt.

00. Your ex texted you and wanted you back, would you take them back?
sigh. depends who.

01. Has anyone told you "Forever and ever" then left?
more then once.

03. Where did you meet your crush?
..internet technically, but also technically through a friend.. its complicated.

04. Have you ever lost a close friend?
well they didnt die, but ive lost many friends.

05. Do you smoke weed regularly?
yes. :/

06. Think back to the beginning of 2010, are you still dating the same person?
nope... was single then, and im single now. >.<

07. Would your parents be mad if you were in a relationship?
..depends with who.

08. When was the last time you really laughed?
...im not sure.

09. Something's wrong: first guy you turn to?
:/ none, really.

10. First girl you'd go to?
..i dont know anymore. probly noone.

11. Is there anyone who doesn't like you because of something you didn't even do?
yup.

12. Angry at anyone?
:/ ish,

13. What's stopping you from going for the person you like?
the fact that they said no.

14. When was the last time you cried really hard?
..like 20 mins ago.

15. Is there anyone you would do anything for?
too many people. :/

16. Say you were given a pregnancy test right now. Would you pass?
...how do u "pass" a pregnancy test?

17. Who was the last person you talked to for more than 10 minutes on the phone?
my auntie sue, apparantly.

18. What is your favourite song?
i dont have faveorite songs. i have songs i listen to alot, and they change every few weeks.

19. Do you like Red Bull?
its the only energy drink i can tolerate enough to drink it all.

20. How many people can you tell just about everything to?
appearantly anyone.

21. Have you ever wished on a shooting star?
yes.

22. Does the last person you held hands with mean something to you?
i dont know who the last person was, ive been getting drunk alot so its couldve been anyone who was with me.

23. Describe your life in one word?
pointless.

25. Have anything that belongs to your ex?
i probly have something from every one.

26. Can you honestly say you've had a sleepover with the opposite sex?
uhm.. ya.

27. Do you rebound?
horribly.

28. Ever cheated on someone?
unfourtunately, and i regret what ive done. but in my defense, it was ever only with the one boy i truly loved.

29. What would you do if you found out the person you like was in a relationship?
break down.

30. Do you act differently around the person you like?
:/ i dont know. probly.

31. Honestly, who's numbers do you have memorized?
..my moms... my work.. and mine. pretty sure thats it.

32. Is it hard to make you laugh?
no. but i dont always laugh just cause things are funny.

33. Who was the last person to make you mad?
kelsie, i guess.

34. Do you think your last ex will eventually want to be with you again?
my answer to that can litereally change daily.

35. Have you ever fallen asleep in someone's arms?
yes.... and i think i might have just broke a little more reading that. :/

36. Has anyone ever called you "scrumptious" before?
honestly.. yes. >.<

37. Would you like to put a night on repeat, and live it forever?
dear god, yes.

38. Do you have a best friend that knows you inside and out?
i dont even know myself inside and out..

39. Is your best friend a slut?
only with me.

40. Is smoking pot a turn off?
no, it kinda makes it easier to like them. >.>

41. Are you happy with life right now?
no.

43. Are you still in love with your ex?
define "love"

44. Have you ever been the "other person" in a relationship?
more then i should be.

45. Have you ever had your heart broken?
more then that.

46. Have you ever broken someone's heart?
maybe.

47. Is there anybody you're really disappointed in?
yes.

48. Where is your best friend?
... i dont know.

49. Something you're happy about?
really, actually, nothing...

50. How is your heart lately?
..heart? whats that? you mean that empty hole in my chest?

if i had any more of an ego, this would HAVE to be my theme song.

I hear your boyfriends jealous
sweating at the neck, and a little bit nervous
there's nothing wrong with having some fun
i betcha he's thinking it's love on the run.
no more, so push-push and shove ya?
but you can't help it that you want me so much-a.
He's gonna have to face the facts
once you're with me there's no turning -
back stage and behind the scenes, i can't change so naturally

It's not, my fault - that i'm so good looking,
and it's not my fault - that i've got something cooking,
and just look into these eyes
to let you know that - i'm the master of disguise, i am the master of disguise.
(Master of disguise.)

Everybody knows when i drop its like the H-bomb
make you lose your breath, and then some.
Take a picture cause it wont last long,
i change my face like a chameleon
chamele-order up, our relationship goes?
you know it's all part of the show, because -

It's not, my fault - that i'm so good looking
and it's not my fault - that i've got something cooking
and just look into these eyes
to let you know that - i'm the master of disguise, i am the master of disguise.

it's not, my fault - that i'm so good looking
and it's not my fault
it's not my fault - that i've got something cooking
and i'm the master of disguise.

it's not, my fault - that i'm so good looking
and it's not my fault - that i've got something cooking
and just look into these eyes
to let you know that - i'm the master of disguise (i am the master of disguise).

it's not, my fault - that i'm so good looking
and it's not my fault - that i've got something cooking
and just look into these eyes
to let you know that - i'm the master of disguise (i am the master disguise).

(im the master of disguise)
it's not, my fault - that i'm so good looking
(im the master of disguise)
and it's not my fault - that i've got something cooking and..
(im the master of disguise)
it's not, my fault - that i'm so good looking
(im the master of disguise)
and it's not my fault - that i've got something cooking and..

i can laugh all i want.
inside, i still am empty.