update single and living on my mother fuckin own!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
today i went to the victoria BC museum with my neighbour alex and her twins (john and katherina) they are so awesome. they are two and so precious. soooo polite and care about other people. i got to hold one or the others hand the whole day. i got to give them snacks while we were driving and then helped them eat when we went out for lunch. i am really starting to get a good feel about what ti is like to be a mom. i got to change naomi's baby girls diaper and she barfed on me. and one day i will actually be really ready to be a mom. i had a lot of fun the last few days. but i am also wanting to spend more time with my man. its hard cause i usually work weekends and hes off weekends now. but i am going to talk to my boss about more hours. i am so glad that i scored this job. i love it. i like everyone i work with too. i hope that i get to stay there for awhile. (years even) i got to go. but update soon <3
my friends naomi had her baby girl last night and i saw pictures on her facebook. she is so beautiful!!!!!!
i can't wait to see my friends naomi and steve and hold their baby girl
i am so proud of you guys!!!
and at work i work with this guy xander and he is amazing, so awesome and fun.
he helped me alot today, and so did sunny. thanks hun!!!
i am so loving my job, i start my night shifts tomorrow.
come in and see me tim hos downtown 3-11
friend Naomi is in labour right now and she is going to have her baby very soon
I am so excited to meet little Samara and see how Steve and her are with her.
I am so excited to hold her and feel her little hands against mine.
I am so excited!
a new job
i need one so badly
i fucked up badly on my old job
i just need a new start
what should i do with my life?
i want school but don't want a loan...
fuck!
any suggestions?
My brother really fuckin' cares about me
I love you Morgan
And thank you for caring about me so much and listening to my bullshit
And not judging me for the things I do or have done
It means soooo much
I am always worried about how things will hurt our relationship but you really do care and listen to me
And for that THANK YOU!
<3
I NEED TO GET THE FUCK OUT OF NANAIMO FOR A FEW DAYS SOOOOOOOO BAD!!! TO SEE VICTORIA FRIENDS AND VANCOUVER FRIENDS SUNSHINE COAST FAMILY. Anyone up for a visit or want to come here to visit me?? <3
iwent out drinking quite a bit in the last while and after i drank i kind of felt bad about how i should be spending the money i spent on booze on christmass presents for loved ones and family. i just felt like a total dick last night once i was shit faced. crazy uncle kris, amanda redgate and i got drunk at the cambie last night and then after my man corey and i dropped them off i couldnt stop crying. i just need to stop drinking....for awhile. i may drink on special occasions but not like i have been. i just need to do a sober life style for awhile. i am sick of hurting the loved ones around me. i just am so bord of everything in life that is also what really sucks lately. i just need to find more sober things i enjoy. i am sick of being altered or having to be to have a good fuckin time.
i may get stoned but that doesn't alter me so i change and feel like i want to die.
and on friday i went to the cambie and got drunk but had a good time but balled my eyes out when i got home. like what the fuck? i had a really good talk with my mom last night and today about my choices and she is so impowering to talk to. i think if she can do it, so can i. i love her so much.
i am so greatful for all my friends tho, i will still hang out and you go ahead and drink i just can't anymore.
loves and hugs
I got the job at Niko Video
And I am not too sure if I like it....I am going to apply around at more places and see if I get any catches and if so then see if I could manage both or just go for the one I think I will like more....
Shall be interesting.....
I do like the customers at Niko cause they are quiet and know what to do. hahahaha. I sometimes REALLY suck at helping people with things so not sure if customer service is my forte....
I am sure it will come to me like a second nature somehow.....
Sort of a life update I guess you could say...
I am currently unemployed and not looking very hard for work
I need something with very low stress levels
I had a job interview last night for Niko Video
I hope I get it, the only thing that will be an issue sort of is transportation to both stores
I can walk, bus, bike or ride with friend or family member
Just a matter if I will get to the Harewood store in time when they need me
I told them my situation in the interview and they seemed pretty understanding
*Cross my fingers*
I hope that I get somethin soon
I need money
For new place to live, go to Victoria and see Ally, Nate and baby Kaydyn and others, save up for my own BMX, and a trip to the Mainland to see TONS of friends over there
The ones who I know are true
I hope you think about me as much as I think about you
FUCK!!!!
Anyway
I am still in love with my man Corey, he is amazing
We bicker a lot but have so much fun still after it all
We are alot alike yet so different but that makes us so special I think
I have been doing so much thinking lately that it sort of has been making me mentally and phyiscally DRAINED and sick!
I am also fed up with people who say they are friends and when I need them they aren't really there at all after all
Who does that?
I have never done that to people who I call friends
I have made errors but I have learned from them, that's for sure.
....Have I ever....
I got to go but may write more later
Peace
this afternoon, corey and i draw words of the day...
and i get truth and he gets honesty. how strange....
i've been real and open about what's happening and what has happened in my life with him and its sort of scary but relieving that i can talk to him without feeling judged..... we are so getting to know one another so openly and honestly it scares me...but i also am glad we have this sort of connection/relationship but more importantly a friendship. we can goof around with one another and i can tickle one another and laugh til our jaws hurt....
i love you corey <3
