each time it breaks my heart.each break it becomes harder to heal.each time i heal, it becomes harder to love again.each time hope fades into desolation.into loneliness and despair.into self-hatred and self-loathing. at the beginning there was hope.it faded.at the end there is nothing.i seek freedom.that is all i want, all i desire, all i hope to achieve.freedom.not just from chemicals but from the cycle of loving and losing, risking and failing, returning to that which i abhors each time returning.
