You say there is nothing to worry about...
But you are showing/feeling all the same symptoms you had last time....
Please fucking god dont do this....
I need my mommy...Please dont fucking do this...
She fought and lived throu cancer last time....
Why do you have to put her thro it again...
Those tests better come back negative...
She promised me she'd be there till the day I leave this world...
Dont make a liar out of my mom...
Shes my best friend....
Holy fucking shit please...

Holy fucking shit...
I thought I had control over my anxiety attacks, thought I didnt need help
But after last night... I definatly do.
It was a pretty scary feeling, as I was drifting off I felt as if I was leaving
my actual body, as if I was drifting into death =\, as depressing thoughts
filled my head.
I jolt myself fully awake, so full of panic, shaking,
I start screaming and calling for bradyn,
and start to nearly cry.
Happened twice.. Didn't get to sleep till 5-6am.

blah/fml