not many people gwt a second chance wh did i get one i hung myself for a reason why did i have to wake up iv had nothing but bad times since then so why am i aloud to have this is this my punishment live a life hated by everyone because im angry at my self and take it out on them i was good once now im just a broken peace of meat with too many storys to tell i dont even know why im tiping this nobodys gunna read it and care ill probibly just get made fun of for my spelling mistakes but whatever iv been picked on enough it dont hurt fuck i cant even sleep i also realapsed tonight i hated myself so much iv been trying so hard not to do drugs but i dont do it for a happy feeling its just so i can get away thought about cuting my self but im to shakey and hyped up to do thhat plus i find it gross im so stoned and fucked up i dont know what else to do i should complain i have a beautiful girlfriend and nice family but even they think im fuckin strange i try pretend i dont have feelings but for some reason i do i really dont know why im so fucked up all the time iv got everything a guy could want a big dick hot girl monney friends wierd confusing friends but still friends but still somthing is eating away at me and i cant figure out what i dont want pitty from this i just wanna know what the fuck to do but nobody can tell me like do i just stay high all the tim and see were that takes me or do i try become a totaly differant person what do i do