100 Things About Me
1. Name: Debra Michelle Welch
2. Your Nick Names: Deb, Debs, Deebs, positron
3. Current Location: Home, Kelowna
4. Date Of Birth: November 17th 1988
5. Zodiac Sign: Scorpio
6. Male Or Female: Female
7. Age: 20
8. School: None atm
9. Occupation: I'm unemployed at the moment...and super pissed about it
10. Residence: Downtown
Your Appearance
12. Hair Color: brown, copper, blonde
13. Hair Long or Short: short-ish
14. Eye Color: blue
15. How Do Your Nails Look: terrible...cooking destroys them
17. Do You Have A Crush On Someone: yea
18. Do You Like Yourself: Sometimes
20. Think Your Attractive: On occasion
21. Piercings: Snakebites, and ears
22. Tattoo: Three
23. Righty or Lefty: Right
Your 'Firsts
24. First Rollercoaster: Probably Callaway Park in Calgary
25. First Cell Phone: My little Sony Ericson flip...with Fido..bleh
26. First Best Friend: Danielle Glinz
27. First Award: Probably something for writing
28. First Sport You Joined: Soccer
29. First Pet: Bird...littlefoot. Ahahaha
30. First Vacation: Probably to Kelowna when I was still living in Calgary...sweet
31. First Concert: Like I remember...
32. First Love(not lust): Cody
Favorites
33. Movie: Stranger Than Fiction
34. TV Show: Scrubs
36. Bands: right now, Bayside
37. Song: Supermassive Black Hole-Muse
38. Food: Homemade pasta
40. Candy: Chocolate
41. Sport: Hockey
42. Favorite Sport To Watch: Hockey
43. Brand Of Clothing: Volcom
44. Stores: D-tox
45. School Subject: English
46. Animal: Hello Kitty LOL
47. Radio Station: All of our local stations suck
48. Magazines: Cosmo (shutup, guilty pleasure)
Currently
49. Eating: Banana Bread
50. Drinking: Grape juice
52. Online:Obviously
53. Listening To: The news
54. Thinking About: My stupid neighbor
55. Wanting: Chocolate
56. Watching: The news
57. Wearing: Jeans, tank top, and my sweet Batman cape/blanket
Your Future
58. Want Kids: Yea
59. Want To Get Married: More than anything
60. Careers In Mind: I don't know anymore...I'm in the midst of changing careers
Which is Better With The Opposite (or same) Sex?
67. Cute Or Sexy: Both
68. Lips Or Eyes: Both!!
69. Hugs Or Kisses: Both man
70. Short Or Tall: Taller
71. Easygoing Or Serious: Easygoing
72. Romantic Or Spontaneous: Romantically Spontaneous
73. Fatty Or Thin: I like a little something to hug
74. Quiet Or Loud: Depends on the situation
75. Hook-up Or Relationship: Relationship
76. Sweet Or Caring: Both
77. Trouble Maker Or Hesitant One: Trouble Maker
Have You Ever...
78. Kissed A Stranger: Yep
79. Drank Alcohol: Yes
80. Smoked: yea
81. Ran Away From Home:yup
83. Swear At Your parents: Only whenI was angry
84. Broke Someones Heart: I'm not sure
85. Loved Someone: yes
86. Turned Someone Down: yea
87. Cried When Someone Died: Of course
88. Eaten Sushi: yes
Do you bielive in....
89. God: yes
90. Miracles: yes
91. Love At First Sight: Yes
92. Ghosts: kind of
93. Aliens: pft...no
94. Soul Mates: Yes
95. Heaven:yup
96. Hell: Yup
98. Kissing On The First Date: Only if it feels right
99. Horoscopes: They're strangely acurate
Answer Truthfully
100. Is There Someone You Want But Can't Have: Absolutely
The greatest irony of love: Loving the right person at the wrong time, having the wrong person when the time is right..and finding out you love someone right after that person walks out of your life...And sometimes, you think you`re already over a person, until you see them smile at you again, you'll suddenly realize that you're really not...For some, they think that letting go is one way of expressing how much you love the person, by sacrificing your happiness for theirs, without realizing that the other person's doing the same thing for them...Most relationships tend to fail not because of the absence of love; Love is always present, it's just that one is being love too much and the other was being loved too little...We always fall in love with the person we think we love, only to discover that what we loved about them fades...Bad experiences are always remembered, but it's the wonderful memories that are captured to remind us that there are brighter days ahead and that happiness exists. You need to learn to let go when you're hurting too much, realise that sometimes love just isn't enough and accept the fact that things aren't always gonna be the same. There is someone out there who will love you more...It's all the thought you put into your decisions that impairs your judgement when your heart already knows what you need to do. Listen to your heart. Even though it's on the left side, it's always right.
"Before you, my life was like a moonless night.
Very Dark, but there were stars--points of light and reason...
And then you shot across my sky like a meteor.
Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty.
When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizen, everything went black.
Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light.
I couldn't see the stars anymore. And there was no more reason for anything."
"Time passes. Even when it seems impossible.
Even when each tick of the second hand aches like the pulse of blood behind a bruise.
It passes unevenly, in strange lurches and dragging lulls, but pass it does. Even for me."
"why flirt with disaster?"
"I've decided that as long as I was going to Hell, I might as well do it thoroughly."
"When life offers you a dream so far beyond any of your expectations, it's not reasonable to grieve when it comes to an end."
So what you're saying is, I'm your brand of heroin?"
"Yes, you are exactly my brand of heroin."
"You're wrong you know. You are worth it." -Jasper Hale
......"When I Left you, Bella, I left you bleeding.
Jacob was the one who stitched you back up again.
That was bound to leave it's mark- on the both of you.
I'm not sure those kind of stitched dissolve on their own.
I can't blame either of you for somthing I made necessary.
I may gain forgiveness, but that does not let me escape the consequences."
-Edward Cullen
Strangely enough...for once its not me who's heart is being ripped out...but it hurts just as much to be the one doing the ripping...
um, yes please
I'm trying this new thing.
It's a positive outlook on life, no matter what.
I've decided that its not worth sweating the small stuff.
Hell, its not even worth sweating the big stuff, just as long as I keep in mind that life goes on.
Sigh.
I wonder how long it'll last....
Pf. I don't even know where to start here. My mind is racing a thousand miles a second, and I'm really having a hard time containing myself. This is one of those blogs that I feel should be angry, but I'm really just more confused, I think. About life in general, mostly. I realize I sound like a broken record, but does anybody honestly believe in love anymore? I'm sure it exsists, but it's been so tainted over the years. People's ideals have changed and their morals have faltered. It seems like the only thing people know how to do now, is to use people to make themselves happy for a short time. But, of course, once they get bored, it's bye bye to the person who actually did care about what was going on. Isn't it ironic how the person who actually gives a fuck is the only one to ever get hurt. The person who does the hurting just keeps living, and of course never learns what they've done because they just don't care enough to figure it out. To every person that's ever used me. You'll get yours. Eventually, our roles will be reversed, and you will be the one losing your mind from the pain. Wondering what it is that you did that made you not quite good enough. Wondering how it's your fault. And most of all, wondering how on earth that person could care little enough to hurt you so badly. I'm sure there's someone out there for everyone, and I know every person experiences a broken heart, to an extent. But this is just getting excessive. How many times can one heart be mangled and still be expected to keep beating? It's asking way too much. If I could let go of all of the pain and heart break that I've had in my brief 19 years, I would in a flash. But it seems like it's all I know. I'm asking for one good thing. Just one...
Wow. I've come to a somewhat strange conclusion. When I get depressed, I bake. Odd, I know. And I dont just make like a dozen cookies either. I bake ALOT. Which brings me to my next question....anyone want some cookies? Seriously....I don't have enough freezer space-_-;
I am fucking fed up.
Tired of being used and lied to.
FACK!
I am Happy.
Inexplicably, truly happy. Words I never thought I would ever have the chance to utter. Yet, every part of me just scerams it. Nothing in my life makes sense right now. None of it should. Love is irrational. The more you love, the less sense anything makes. So, I don't need it to make sense. I just need it to be. After all, how many ways can one heart be mangled and still be expected to keep beating? I've lived through alot that should have finished me long ago. Yet, i feel strong. Alive. Happy. Inexplicably, truly happy. I honestly think that if I even TRY to put it into words, I'll just burst. I'll overflow with the gushiness inside of me that would be enough to sustain a small city, at least. This is for real! I'm elated to the point of...pain? Yup, my face hurts. I can't seem to force this grin off of my face, despite all of the circumstances. I've been walking around in a kind of daze, but I don't ever want to snap out of it. And why should I have to? I've been thrown through enough bullshit in the last year alone, to deserve this little slice of paridise. It hit me so suddenly. I actually wrote this at two in the morning, I couldn't sleep. But I don't care. Because, finally, I do.
I am happy.
Truly, inexplicably happy.
These last couple of months have been the happiest that I can ever recall living.
I actually feel complete.
I`m in love.
self control
I keep finding myself in situations that people normally wouldn't put themselves through
It's odd, yes
but it's also kind of exciting
yay adventures?
sukima nai nyuudougumo no shita
ano hi wa haha to futari
higasa o sashite te o hikare
aruiteta natsu no michi
semishigure ni kiesou na koe de
nando mo itta
"minna hitori de ikite yuku mono
furikaeranai"
osanasugiru watashi wa kitto
kotaerarenai koto o kiki
anata no senaka de itsu shika
nemutteta naki mo sezu
kore kara kuru yuudachi no yokan
hibiku enrai
are kara no watashitachi o maru de
uranau you na
ano hi no anata ni chikadzuite
hajimete wakaru
totsuzen shagamikonde nagashita
saigo no namida
anata no kimochi
ano natsu no nioi
Lets find out who has the guts to say they like you.
Message me the ones you pick, yes you can pick more than one:
Send in message
1 - I used to like you
2 - I used to love you
3 - I dont like you
4 - I have a crush on you
5 - I'm in love with you
6 - I think im still in love with you and I shouldn't be...
7 - I really want to talk to you and get to know you and hopefully something will happen...
8 - I'm with someone else but for some reason i still have feelings for you
9 - I want to marry you
10 - I want to do you
11 - I want to makeout with you
12 - I want to makeout with you for the 1st time
13 - I want a relationship with you
14 - I want to hold your hand
15 - I want to hug you
16 - I'm scared of liking you
17 - I have a gf/bf but i like you...
18 - I love you but its starting to fade away
19 - I love you
20 - I don't really know you but I'd bang you
21 - I miss you
