--"It's times like these you learn to love again."--

GOD is no lie

--R.I.P --- Jody and Marvin

-Im sick of hearin how, im not very good lookin, how people in my family are annoying. hear it everyday, i've learned to live with it, keep your thoughts inside your brain, where they can echo and reecho off the wall of that empty chamber :D.

-snow/wake/skateboarding
-i'm about 6' 1"
-CHRISTIAN
-hockey player, canucks fan
-TORONTO SUCKS
-huge car guy
-memorize everything lol
-really good at burnin people, pretty quick upstairs
-i have an awsome truck, love it
-HUGS ARE THE BEST THINGS EVER INVENTED_
-Matt, im soooo drink... lol

need more? leave message, name maybe, msn, anything...

Thanks to those who hated me
you made me a stronger person.
Thanks to those who loved me
you made my heart bigger.
Thanks to those who cared
you made me feel important.
Thanks to those who worried
you let me know you actually cared.
Thanks to those who left
you showed me not everything lasts forever.
Thanks to those who stayed
you showed me the meaning of true friends.
Thanks to those who entered my life
you made me who i am today


Dear Mommy,

I am in heaven now, sitting on Jesus' lap. He loves me and cries with me, for my heart has been broken. I so wanted to be your little girl. I don't quite understand what has happened. I was so excited when I began realizing my existence. I was in a dark, yet comfortable place. I saw I had fingers and toes. I was pretty far along in my developing, yet not near ready to leave my surroundings. I spent most of my time thinking or sleeping. Even from my earliest days, I felt a special bonding between you and me. Sometimes, I heard you crying and I cried with you. Sometimes, you would yell or scream, then cry. I heard Daddy yelling back. I was sad, and hoped you would be better soon. I wondered why you cried so much. One day you cried almost all of the day. I hurt for you. I couldn't imagine why you were so unhappy. That same day, the most horrible thing happened. A very mean monster came into that warm, comfortable place I was in. I was so scared, I began screaming, but you never once tried to help me. Maybe you never heard me. The monster got closer and closer as I was screaming and screaming,"Mommy, Mommy, help me, please; Mommy help me." Complete terror is all I felt. I screamed and screamed until I thought I couldn't anymore. Then the monster started ripping my arm off. It hurt so bad; the pain I can never explain. It didn't stop. Oh how I begged it to stop. I screamed in horror as it ripped my leg off. Though I was in such complete pain, I realized I was dying. I knew I would never see your face or hear you say how much you love me. I wanted to make all your tears go away. I had so many plans to make you happy. Now I couldn't; all my dreams were shattered. Though I was in utter pain and horror, I felt the pain of my heart breaking, above all. I wanted more than anything to be your daughter. No use now, for I was dying a painful death. I could only imagine the terrible things that they had done to you. I wanted to tell you that I love you before I was gone, but I didn't know the words you could understand. And soon, I no longer had the breath to say them; I was dead. I felt myself rising. I was being carried by a huge angel into a big beautiful place. I was still crying, but the physical pain was gone. The angel took me to Jesus and set me on His lap. He said He loved me, and that He was my Father. Then I was happy. I asked Him what the thing was that killed me. He answered,"Abortion. I am sorry my child; for I know how it feels." I don't know what abortion is; I guess that's the name of the monster. I'm writing to say that I love you and to tell you how much I wanted to be your little girl. I wanted to live. I had the will, but I couldn't; the monster was too powerful. It sucked my arm and legs off and finally got all of me. It was impossible to live. I just wanted you to know I tried to stay with you. I didn't want to die. Also, Mommy, please watch out for that abortion monster. Mommy, I love you and I would hate for you to go throught the kind of pain I did. Please be careful.

Love,
Your Baby Girl
Abortions are wrong!!

Our dreams make us who we are, so dont fear. keep your mind freely flowing, and step out into the unknown
-frends, u know who u are ladies and gents, most of u are the best, the rest are a step above
-snowboarding and hockey, wakeboarding
CHEVY and VW
-gettin things for free, doesnt matter wat it is
-music: metallica, beatles, hedley, fallout boy, system of a down, a little heavy metal for those feelin-down days lol, umm... chevelle, death from above 1979, Led Zepplin, lynard skynard, GnR, NIN, BLink 182, Johnny friggen Cash, beatles again, Armchair Cynics, really gettin into slower music, throwin some Rufus Wainwright in the mix, maybe some damien rice... its all good
-so, matt added a little shout out to himself haha matt, thats the way it goes for ford people.
-RANDOMNESS--

---JESS: your quite lazy... didnt even get out of the chair to say goodbye... tut tut, but thats ok
-MATT:kickin ass and takin names... partyin will never be the same, and please keep rubbin it in that im single, its pretty awsme when u do... haha, anyways buddy, good talks, bff lol
-SEAN>>> for drivin, and snowboardin with me, dude, so many good times, many more to come... i sitll owe you a ride, not that i remember the one you gave me... fun night iguess... lol.
--MEL- goodtimes, rejection hotline, the campin trip, haha, good times, pissin off mr. dejong
-MARK: dog, good times, almost dyin at 184th... lol, not ur fault man, no worries, get a new truck already. "Nice rims, ugly truck though..." -Ron
-Jason Togeretz "mr. swimmer almost got a hug from a drunk native" : nice truck, dont forget, ur windows need t o be seeable through. o ,and u can jump pretty damn high, im impressed. o, and u can hit a volleyball pretty hard.
--APRIL HENDRICKS- we make a great accoutnign team, if only u werent soo busy all the time...
-Shane BOOOOOes: road trip = amazing, we should do that again sometime, eh?
p.s. not anymore
-CRAIG (not the effin Kobes kid, thats my dogs name too)- for talkin ot me even tho im christian,, haha
JOEL:snowboardin, partying, everything... rock rock on

-REECE: dude, u drive a mothafuggin mercedes... dope and i touched ur nipple!!
-TIMOHTY STIKSMA: dude, cant wait for spring league, its gonna kick ass, thanks for the organizing, mens league, coachin, we're awsome
--SHARI: quite the mood swings, young one, but still pretty cool, dont mind you at all
-- SAM, your house, shared with shari and jess, is quite nice, i shall prolly stay there again sometime
-- JOLENE: here's your "effin shoutout on my page" geeze, we good now, or are ya gonna keep buggin me??

=ALECIA "FRIGGEN GORGEOUS" VELDMAN- i hope we are frends for ever and ever...
-MEGAN: u r who u r
-ASHLEY: why in your picture, is your finger in your mouth??
-JOEL:snowboardin, partying, everything... rock rock on
-TASH: the serious talks we had, the best ever. u dont no wat it means
-BRENT ROOK: for makin life interesting with u and joel, and tellin me after u got ur liscence that i wouldnt have to drive u to hokcey anymore, real mature u son of a b
--WHO WANTS TO COME WITH ME TO HIDE IN THE SKY---
-DUANE; for snowboardin, and bonnies... haha good times, and tons of shit dog, great assskills with the handi-door
-MRS> KUIK- for awsome sunday dinners and lettin me help with dishes
-CAKE: u taste good
JAYDEN FRIGGEN KUIK-dog, playin dee for spring league, dope yo, we are awsome together, cant wait to fight alongside u
MISSY: great times, findin out true love is blind...
SKYE: good times, thanks for tryin to hook me up, even if it didnt work out so hot... lol
-Having Matt schouten as a friend, its fricken sweet shit!!!!!!!!..... but he likes fords, which as mentioned below, suck, buuuttt, hes still aitte. haha, good tmes. PARTAY
-BRENT FENNEMA: i give u lotsa nerpies, freakin tall child
-ANDIRA: hows my favorite black girl? hopefully ur good, thats fo sho... haha, a little gangsta in there for ya
-BRAYDEN: first party for u ever, i was soo gone its not even funny, thanks for helpin me out, ur a real pal
-TREVOR: TRIPLE KILL!!! haha, goood times dog, i still don no why u dont wanna be on my hockey team.
-WHERE DO YOU EXPECT US TO GO WHEN THE BOMBS FALL--
-PETER: u have an awsome afro, kick ass
-STEPH- aka whatev. lol, nice pics on ur page, looks like a fun trip
-Jeremey FREAKIN Meyer- watt up? sucks u just cant beat me in accountig... however, it is a gr. 11 class..
-STEPHANIE BOSSCHER: there, ur mentioned...
=IF I MISSED U, TELL ME=

Feeling like a freak on a leash. (You wanna see the light)
Feeling like I have no release. (So do I)
How many times have I felt diseased? (You wanna see the light)
Nothing in my life is free... is free

-cars, love them like fat kids love cake
-drivin really fast and crazy like
-gettin dirty -4x4ing with my van at onderwaters
-parties and stuff
MATH
-funny stuff... like "every group has that one guy, the douche bag. Everyone talks bad about him untill he is there, then there like ' hey jim hows it goin' If u are thinkin, my group doesnt have a guy like that, u are that douche bag."
-JUMP THE GUN
- my system in my truck... done by moi



The dawn is breaking...
A light shining through...
You're barely waking...
And I'm tangled up in you. (yeah)

I'm open, you're closed.
Where I'll follow you'll go.
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again.

Even the best fall down sometimes.
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme.
Out of the doubt that fills my mind,
I somehow found you and I collide.

---the fact that bad things happen to good people, lifes unfair--- again, RIP Jody and Marvin

-FORD SUCKS NUTs
-shitty effin drivers, if you cant drive, stay the hell off the roads
-people who piss me off alot, GO AWAY

-do i need to know how a tampon and shit can make u dance, ride a horse, or shit,,, no, i dont
-gays are not birthday presents, u dont have to accept them in order to not hurt somone's feelings. send them packin... in the non-gay sense of the term