i have fallen for you even tho i really shouldent have.

i just cant seem to get away from it anymore. no matter were i look or who i talk to your on my mind. im trying to move on and im doing alright at it but still, i just cant stop thinking.

i really wanted to stay friends with you even when we broke up. but its a lil hard when we dont speak anymore. its also hard when you spend evey waking moment with him. i still want to be friends with you but your making it very hard for me. so when you decide you wana hang out again let me know.

i thought i was getting over you, i was doing really well i thought. then everything just crashed, im not over, im not even close.

i just need to keep shit to myself. im not helping anyone by saying anything. im just making things worse for everyone

even when im in the middle of knowere camping, having a bloody amaising time with friends, not thinking about anything in general, your still always on my mind. i cant get you of my mind, i just cant no matter what i do im always thinking about you

heart still pounding for you. i dont wana let go when i feel like this.

well ive been thinking about all of this that is going on right now in my life. ive relised that there is still some feeling there for me still i know its not much but it is enough to hold on to the one thing that means almost as much as you do to me. you still have him, and you havent asked for yours back, you said you never even thought of doing it so ya. im not getting my hopes up with all of this im not trust me but it is nice to know there is somthing there even if its almost nothing it is still there. i realised this today, when we hung out last he still stays on your bed and the lil spark i see when we look into each others eyes. it has died down a lot from what it use to be but i can tell theres still a little somthing left.

ive just about hit my breaking point now i cant stop thinking about you. im looking at old stuff to bring back all the memories we had together. im remembering everything and now i just want it back i just cant help it anymore i just cant i miss everything now. i want you in my arms again,

well i hate to say all this again but, its still not easy knowing theres another guy your with im not trying to make anyone feel bad its just. i do miss being with you i know this is for the best but that dosent mean it makes it any easer at all. everything reminds me of when we were together. so im always thinking about us, a lot of the time its hard to controle my self when im with you i just wana hold your hand, kiss you and just cuddle. also when your upset i just wana hug you then kiss you and say everything will be alright. but i know i cant cuz your not mine anymore.

well im getting by day by day, thats all i can really do to be truthful. the days just seem to drag on, but things always look up in the end they always do. so just trying to look at the bright side for every thing but you probley dont realise it but you are my bright side to my days just seeing you brings a smile to my face just still being best friends. i couldent ask for much more really. i say a girlfriend should be a best friend to you other wise you will get nothing out of anything so still being my best friend is awsome.

i guess this really is the best thing for us really we can bairley hold a 5 min conversaition now, we argue over everything, i never know what to talk about anymore cuz we have talked about everything, and your feelings for me are clearley not there anymore. so i guess this is for the best it still dosent make anything easer for me my feelings are still there for you, so i just need to take one step at a time and just remember your happy now extremley happy. im just hoping things will get easy soon but who knows really mabey ill fall for someone tomorrow but i dought that. i guess lets just see were life takes me next

im trying to get over you and give you space but its just not easy when all i wana do is be around you i know your happy with him. i just want you to be happy so im trying my hardest not to get upset so you can just have fun. cuz all we do is argue now and i see that now so its probley better off this way for at least now but it still dosent make any of this easer tho if anything it makes things harder but im doing this for you. who knows mabey ill get another chance latter on in life but who knows. i wish you were by myside still but this is good to having you as a best friend =] its still all worth it really.lets just see were life takes me now who knows were it will take me next

well ive finaly let the dove out of its cage. im letting it go and hoping it will return one day. when that day comes if it does ill still be hear but until then ill have to live life to its fullest and nothing else.

everyons saying things will get better with time and im sure they will get better. its just when? this is all so hard at this point in time that nothing seems to be good in life anymore. the one thing i cared so much for is now no longer in my arms to hold and care for anymore. i know if you let somtihing free and it love you it will come back but how long would that thake tho?