1. Your First Love?
Jenalee Campbell

2. Your Best Memory?
its between when i first started skating lots with danny, or the summer house i lived in with the punks

3. Most Embarrassing Moment?
im not the best with remembering when i get embarrassed, but i would have to say,
waking up fully dressed, and being told i had a bath during the party the night prior, wih the door wide open

4. Your Dream Job?
running a clothing company

5. When you were little what was your plan for the future?
A teacher, or an Astrologist

6. Your best childhood friend?
elementary - mickiel kovacks

7. The first time you ever kissed the opposite sex?
Grade 8?

8. Your top 5 biggest pet peeves?
people whos girlfriends run there life, when ppl wear wrinkled clothing, when ppl step on the back of your shoes, errr... can i say ppl that smoke pot and think its the cool thing?

9. Your idea of the perfect boyfriend/girlfriend?
im going to sound really shallow with this but here goes:
Gorgeous
Brunette
Green eyes
Small hips
Shorter than me
Flat stomach
Small ass
Amazing smile
Good teeth
Good sense of humor
Can handle me with the way i party
Has to get along with my best friends
Somewhat high maintenance
slightly athletic
Playes video games
Her life doesnt revolve around me
knows she has to work for a living
Likes pretty things
... the list goes on and on


10. Your Best friend at this point in life?
Duncan McRae <3

11. Where do you see yourself in 10 years?
Laying on a beach in Australia watching the sun set on the horizon, looking into the ocean, enjoying life to the max

12. Who are you more like, your mom or dad?
I am the absolute spitting image of my mother no questions asked

13. Siblings?
1 brother

14. Your Biggest flaw?
Im a conceded, stuck up, self centered, vain douchebag that thinks i myself am extremely gorgeous. Im an asshole that thinks im better than most ppl i know, but yet, im extremely insecure and i have to buy the biggest the best, and be the one that stands out the most upon any others, yet in the end, im still the one that sits alone at home every night with nobody but my xbox

15. Top 5 things you like about yourself?
not a whole hell of alot

16. An event in time that changed your views on life?
The drug days, i learned so much, and i learned who were my real friends

17. Your all time favorite song?
any blink 182 song

18. Its saturday night, what are you doing?
PLAYING XBOX WOOOOOOOT

19. Your idea of the perfect first date?
Romantic candle lit dinner, on the beach, eating steak, with a romantic boat ride off the coast right after, then to a room to watch a romance movie in dimmed lighting

20. Favorite season?
SUMMER!!!!!

21. Favorite Tv Show?
umm, i dont watch tv, but i would have to say, family guy????????

22. Favorite Movies?
The butterfly effect, Lord of war... umm, i dont really watch movies either :S

23. What are your hobbies and interests?
I rollerblade, i collect shoes (14 pair, 1 new one each month) and i play xbox

24. If you could change anything about your life right now,what would it be?
My job, my legal situation, the fact i cant find a girl to actually have a real relationship with, find out what im going to actually do for a career and go to school for it, so on, so forth

25. You have three wishes,and you can do anything with them,what are they?
i would make it so i didnt get caught with selling drugs, but i wouldve still quit , i would find the love of my life, and move to australia with her and duncan

26. You could go anywhere in the world,where would you want to go?
lol, so many places, Ireland for st pattys day, Spain for the tomato fight, Germany for oktoberfest, Holland, Italy, Paris, and Australia

27. What makes you laugh?
dunno, jokes about masturbating?

28. What makes you cry?
thinking of all the things i have fucked up with in the past, and how im not really doing a whole hell of alot to change them for the better, how ive lost so many great friends from stupid shit, many others not needed to be explained

29. Biggest realization you’ve made this year?
That i finally actually have to grow up figure out my career, and move on with my life, instead of the whole "living in the moment" shit i have been doing since i can remember

30.Who was the last person you gave up on?
Im damn near ready to give up on danny

31.Have you talked to a complete asshole today?
Definately not, i havent talked to Fraser in a month or so ish

32.Do you think relationships are ever worth it?
Yes, in every relationship, you gain attributes from the significant other, and it evolves you to be who you are in the future, you learn , you love, you grow,

33.If you could pack up and move,would you?
dunno

34.When was the last time you laughed really hard?
a week or so ago?

35.What did you do last night?
Played Gears of War 2 allllllllll night

36.Has anyone told you lately that they'd always be there for you?
Duncan, Kelli, and my Mommy

37.What do you want right now?
for my curfew to be over, to have all my old best friends back, and to quit smoking

38.Does anyone like you?
doubtfull
.
39.Are your parents divorced?
my biological father and my mommy never were really together

40.Have you ever kissed anyone whose name starts with L?
I would imagine yes

41.Where's your girlfriend/boyfriend right now?
he is working right now

42.What's your mood?
relaxed and feeling i want to spill to the world

43.When's the last time you cried?
within the last few weeks

44.When is the last time you ran?
oh shit, lmfao, hell if i know

45.Do you like your first name?
Most definately do, i still havnet met anyone with the same first name,

46.Are you jealous of anyone right now?
probably

47.Do you regret doing something today?
smoking?

48.Last person you told a secret to?
Duncan probably

49.What's irritating you right now?
dunno

50.Did anyone watch you the last time you kissed someone?
dunno, i dont really even remember the last time i kissed someone for 100%

51.When you're walking,do you stop to drink?
depending on if its a bottle or can
.
52.Do you believe that if you want something bad enough you'll get it?
no, but its always worth a try

53.Kill or be killed?
killed

54.Who was the last person you hugged?
Duncan

55.Are you a forgiving person?
too much

56.What are you about to do?
call duncan at work, play xbox,then go to bed

57.Done anything you regret so far in life?
Way too many god damn things

58.Are you listening to anything?
Voyeur - Blink 182

59.What are you scared of?
Spiders, commitment, losing everyone

60.Are you thinking of someone right now?
mhmm

61.Have you ever made a boyfriend or girlfriend cry?
OMFG sooooo many usually after i break up with them, or just before, but that still counts

62.Have you ever told someone you loved them and didnt mean it?
yup

63.Have you ever had your heart broken?
Kinda sorta not really, i never give a girl a chance to break my heart, i break up with them first

64.Have you ever broken someone's heart?
too many to count

65.If you could go back in time and change things,would you?
yup

66.Do you think you're a good girlfriend/boyfriend?
to a point i think im an amazing boyfriend, just depends on how "into her" i am

67.Do you want to get married?
well i dont think i have a choice

68.Ever liked someone else's boyfriend or girlfriend?
definately

69.How many times have you really truly been in love?
only once, unless your including the love i have for duncan, then twice

Fraser Stig Loewen at 2:28am February 8
wow that was a very descriptive representation of me, considering how the only word you have used is cunt. Maybe if you guys weren't so immature all the time touching dicks maybe my mind would change, but when you think about it i drove you guys pretty much everywhere, work coffee, home everywhere you buy him coffee, i saw maybe two or three so ya i got fed up to i hope you have fun walking to work everyday, so what i grew up maybe you should consider doing the same. Its been nine months maybe he should get a job contribute and help his dad, he cant coast through life. Devlin Heslehurst Hoppus at 2:29am February 8
Devlin Heslehurst Hoppus at 2:36am February 8
i enjoy touching dinks with duncan, it gets my rocks off,
i enjoy being immature, makes me feel young, very few ppl complain about it, and you just happen to be one of them, but thats fine, at least the only things on my mind isnt the next bottle that touches my lips, or the next hole i get to stick it in, i like how, work coffee and home consists as everywhere, in which you dont have to, and its beautiful outside, i can rollerblade, or walk, it gives me more time to consider how much of a cunt you really are, maybe you should quit pretending like you have your fucking head on straight too?
all of a sudden you know what your doing for you life?
last i heard you planned to get a nicer audi, and working at Leth Iron for at least 5 more years, while living with your mother... that was last thing you said to me
so i dunno
and you know what, duncan might not necisarilly be going anywhere in life right now, but his time will come, when he finally realizes what he did wrong in life Devlin Heslehurst Hoppus at 2:38am February 8
and change it around, and do the right thing, and figure shit out,

but just like you, hes stubborn too,
and one day, you will realize what great friends you passed up because you figured being a complete fucking douchebag was more important than being a friend

you seriously just lost me as a friend, and it is one of the hardest thigns to do, i am more loyal to my friends than i am my family fraser

it takes alot... and you did it

congratulations Fraser Stig Loewen at 2:46am February 8
ya you smile yet your the cunt, ya you " were " a good friend yet never saw it, and ya he did fuck up time and time again, at least i have plans for the future, you i can see you being a lifer at the iron works, i was always a good friend to you, you were the one that was an asshole to me every single chance you got, im an asshole to duncan to try and kick his ass in line, seeing as how being nice to him isnt getting anywhere. his dad is getting pissed off, along with every member of our family, so why dont you try kicking his ass in line, seeing as how your so good at it with your cock, and that hes the only one who will listen to your complete and utter bullshit, and ya so what i like to drink, i make it to work every day, do my job to the best of my ability, which is more than i can say for others. you on the other hand aren't allowed to drink for legal reasons, seeing as how you fucked up in the past, maybe if you were a little more mature you would understand consequences Fraser Stig Loewen at 2:52am February 8
ya i was your friend then all the sudden you weren't and you weren't exactly the greatest friend ever, you always thought of yourself time and time again, never had 2 dimes to rub together, yet you could buy 150 dollar shoes, so no wonder you couldn't ever pitch for gas money
when you get your car i hope you realize how life really works, and how the fuel economy and all that other shit adds up and leaves you with almost no money. maybe then you'll realize that i was your friend you were the one who was to stuck up and self indulged to notice.
ya later
see you around Devlin Heslehurst Hoppus at 3:30am February 8
kai bye Devlin Heslehurst Hoppus at 3:39am February 8
And fraser,
i need new shoes, like you need booze
just
my shoes only cost me 100 a month, once a month
unlike your alcoholism Devlin Heslehurst Hoppus at 3:48am February 8
fraser if you were a true friend, you would be supportive in a non-negative way,your always fucking negative
never positive, and its been proven time and time again,
being negative never got anyone anywhere,
you cant talk your friend into getting a job by telling him hes worthless and a fucking piece of shit, and telling your family how well your doing and how horrible he is cause hes a piece of shit, this isnt duncan listening to me, this is me and him both finally fed up with your shit,
when i finally start thinking about my future, career wise, (even if it is a stupid idea) you being a "best friend" should at least be supportive, and not say "thats fucking stupid, you have fun with that" and when you dragged duncan out to coaldale, and i talked to you at 3 in the afternoon, and told you , i really needed duncan in town for 6, and all you had to say was " im not going to rush into town for stupid shit like that" all because you wer to busy playing games , that makes you a cunt Fraser Stig Loewen at 3:51am February 8
i did drive duncan into town that day b4 six
and he never once said oh wait i should call devlin
and i can think what i want i have a mind of my own unlike him who thinks however you do Devlin Heslehurst Hoppus at 3:55am February 8
its what made me and him best friends
is how much alike we are
that and you being a cunt, and ditching your 2 best friends for a vagina you wanted to have sex with
time and time again,
and again
and again
whcih was the whole initiating in Duncan not having a job
you made him depressed,
he lost his fucking best friend to a girl
in which he never thought would ever happen
you broke his heart
thats the reason he quit the iron works
all because of you
dont believe me? ask him
he was depressed, and wanted to make you feel how you made him feel
the only way in his mind, he could do such a thing, would be to not ever listen to you, when you told him to go to work, he didnt, even if anyone else did, just cause you said it, he didnt want to
when you tell him to get a job, hedoesnt want to do it cause he knows you will be happier with him working, and he hasnt put you throught anywhere near the amount of emotional distress you bestowed upon him Fraser Stig Loewen at 4:00am February 8
you know what at this point i dont give 2 shits
he can be depressed all he wants
he can hang himself with an extension cord
he quite the iron works under his own free will
not like you've ever chased after pussy before either
your the one always saying ive slept with X amout of women ladda dadda da and i dont care, i live my life so can he
im fed up and sick and tired of this bullshit of people covering up for him, i got sick of being the nice guy
i finally grew up only to find out how much of an asshole you and everyone you associate with is. Devlin Heslehurst Hoppus at 4:01am February 8
when the fuck were you the nice guy?
i wish i knew you when you were

you've changed Fraser Stig Loewen at 4:04am February 8
i was the nice guy since day one, i changed when i realized you and duncan had "feelings" for each other, and you've never really known me, i knew you for a year and a half or so, you were an acquaintance Devlin Heslehurst Hoppus at 4:05am February 8
and you were a cunt with a car Fraser Stig Loewen at 4:08am February 8
ya and thats why you were friends with me, was that fact and that fact only, your a user, were in the past and always will be rather it be drugs or people Devlin Heslehurst Hoppus at 4:09am February 8
just like your lonely and an alcoholic
always have been, always will be
well at least you ahve your family
well
untill you bring your own mother to tears again
and she disowns you Fraser Stig Loewen at 4:11am February 8
im not even going to bother getting into the family bullshit
you know nothing about my family
as i know nothing about yours
only thing i know about you is that your father isnt you biological one Devlin Heslehurst Hoppus at 4:27am February 8
jsut slightly curious though
as to what i use Duncan and Jesse matlock for?
Or Danny?
or anyone else i call a friend?
a list would be amazing

THE CANS:
Can you blow a bubble? yup
Can you dance? not even definately
Can you do a cart wheel? used to be able to
Can you tie a cherry stem with your mouth? in less than 10 seconds
Can you touch your toes? word
Can you whistle? yup
Can you wiggle your ears? nop
Can you wiggle your nose? nop

THE DIDS:
Did you ever get into a fist fight in school? yes, many, i won
Did you ever run away from home? a few times
Did you ever want to be a doctor? nop
Did you ever want to be a fire fighter? nop

THE DOS:
Do you believe in God? nop
Do you know how to swim? yup
Do you like roller coasters? yuppers
Do you own a bike? nop
Do you think you could handle the stuff they eat on those reality shows? errr, maybe

THE DOES:
Does hair loss run through your family? i doubt it
Does your car get good gas mileage? mhmm
Does your family have family picnics? hahah no

THE HAVES:
Have you ever asked someone out? yup
Have you ever been asked out by someone? yup
Have you ever been to the ocean? YES !!! love it
Have you ever gone fishing? used to, i hate it though
Have you ever painted your nails? yup

THE HOWS:
How did you find out about facebook? first time i heard about it, was at white trash bash, when the rollers all started some shit with a guy, then he wanted to add them on facebook
How many myspace friends have you met in person? dont use myspace
How tall are you?: 5 foot 6
How much money do you have on you right now? JUST GOT PAID NIGGUH, and i dont carry cash ever

THE LASTS:
Last person you hung out with? Eric, and Fraser
Last thing you said out loud? RUINED
Last thing someone said to you? "peace man"

THE WHATS:
What are you listening to? dimmakmmunication - The bloody beetroots
What is the temperature outside? 0?
What radio station do you listen to? 94.1 the lounge, if anyting
What was the last restaurant you ate at? 360
What was the last thing you bought? pepsi
What was the last thing you had to drink? and apple juice from my mini fridge
what was the last thing on TV you watched? 3 weeks ago watched 4 minutes of southpark, other than that i dont remember last i watched

THE WHOS:
Who is your newest friend you added to nexopia? fuck, i duno
Who was the last person you IM'd? duncan
Who is the last person you talked to on the phone? surveilance
Who is your current crush? dun worry bout it
Who was the last person you took picture of? Myself and duncan
Who was the last person to leave you a comment? Tiff

CRYING SECTION.
Ever really cried your heart out? yup
Ever cried yourself to sleep? definately
Ever cried on your friend's shoulder? yup, most of who is my best friends i have
Ever cried over the opposite sex? yes
Do you cry when you get an injury? no
Do certain songs make you cry? not that i can think of

HAPPY SECTION.
Are you a happy person? err, kinda ish
What can make you happy? Anything with duncan, talking to sharron,
Do you wish you were happier? it would be nice
Is being happy overrated? too happy maybe
Can music make you happy? definately, it helps me relax, and can help me release

LOVE SECTION.
How many times have you had your heart broken? for reals, none
Have you ever loved someone so much that you'd die for them? all my best friends
Has anyone besides your friends and family ever said 'i love you' to you? yup

HATE SECTION.
Do you actually hate anyone? a few certain individuals... yes
Ever made a hate list? nope
Have you ever been on a hate list? guarantee
Are you a mean bully? kinda,
Do you hate George Bush? i could give a fuck less about him

SELF ESTEEM SECTION.
Is your self-esteem extremely low? no
Do you believe in yourself? sometimes
Are you good looking? would i be conceded if i say yes?
Do you wish you can be someone else? nah

LOOK AT ME.
What is your current hair color? blondish
Current Piercings? left ear, right nipple
Have any tattoos? not yet
Straight Hair or Curly? straight

CURRENTLY WEARING.
What shirt are you wearing? none, but last wore my B.unique Milli T
Shoes? none, but last wore my black B.unique fortune cookies II
Necklaces? my silver

THIS OR THAT:
Rock or rap: rap
Coffee or Tea: i love both equally
Wild Night out or Romantic Night: depending on my mood
Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate hands down
Hummer or Sports Car: sports car
Bracelet or Necklace? bracelet both, i feel naked especially wihtout my necklace, but i still have to have my bracelet
History or Science: science
Sleep in or Early to rise: sleep in, definately
Beach or Boardwalk: beach
Hoodie or Tee Shirt: tee shirt
Night or Day: depends, day
High School or college: high school , just to relive those days
California or Florida: CALI
Simple Plan or Good Charlotte: Good charlotte
Love at first sight or Learn to Love: Learn

HAVE YOU EVER.
Kissed the same sex? kissed as in peck, yes
Hugged someone? daily
Been on the phone until the sun came up? yup
Laughed so hard you peed in your pants? lol, definately not
Laughed so hard you cried? almost
Got in a fight with someone? lots

THE LAST.
Person you talked to in person? mommy
Person you talked to online? Duncan/sharron
Person you talked to on the phone? Nabe
Had a shower? twice a day everyday, last was when i got off work

RANDOM.
Do you like surveys: they help pass the time
What kind of shampoo do you use? apple shampoo
Do you get along with your parents? yes
Do you have mental breakdowns? kinda
Did you ever tell your parents you didn't feel good so you didn't have to go to school? when i didnt feel good, no

CURRENT.
Current mood: starving, and tired
Current Music: fucked from above 1985 - the blood beetroots
Current hair style: messy spike
Current Thing I Ought to be doing: sleep
Current Windows Open: facebook, nex, limewire, music, music folder, and a few msn convos
Current desktop picture? Gost design made by Arlo Eisenberg
Current Book: dont read

Dating Quiz
1. Would you date someone who smokes? yes
2. Would you date someone who was addicted to drugs? meh
3. Would you date someone who was outside your race? no, i would never date an alien
4. Whats your biggest turn off? gross teeth
5. Whats your biggest turn on, physically? Eyes, Smile, Lips
6. Whats your biggest turn on, mentally? Optimism
7. Most hurtful relationship?
8. Have you ever regretted breaking up with someone? in the past i have regretted, not anymore
9. Have you ever dated someone more than once? definately
10. Do you miss any of your exes? kinda not really
11. If you could go on ONE DATE with any celebrity, who would it be? Mark Hoppus, or Tom Delonge
12. What's your relationship status? single
13. What's the sweetest thing someone you dated did for you? walked from the west side to see me on my coffee break at work
14. When was your last serious relationship? define "serious", i would have to say a few years ago
15. Are you ready to get into another serious relationship right now? seeing as how im done sleeping around, i definately am
16. Whats the most screwed up thing someone you dated did to you? named my penis "Princess Powderpuff
17. Do you hold grudges? No, not on many hings
18. Do you regret dating anyone? Yes
19. How many times have you been truly IN love? Once
20. Do you still love them? As in just friends, yes, never could i see me with her again, but we keep in touch, i help her with boy problems, she helps me with girl problems
21. Have you ever been in a fist fight with someone you dated? no
22. Have you ever broken up with someone, tried going back, and realized you still didn't want to be with them? Yes
23. Are you happier single or in a relationship? 3 months ago, single, not so much anymore
24. Whats the most important thing in a relationship? Trust, attraction
25. What would make you break up with someone.. no questions asked? them not liking that i rollerblade, my parents strongly dissaprove, they dont like my friends, my friends dont like them(by friends i mean my best friends),
26. Have you ever loved someone who didn't love you back? Not that i know of
27. Would you date someone who was broke all the time? Yes, its not about money
28. How important are looks? to be honest, if there is no attraction, then there is never security, or trust, if your significant other doesnt find you that attractive, if they have a chance with another person, that is definately better looking, they would be tempted to cheat
29. Would you date someone in a wheelchair? i suppose
30. Do you consider yourself shy? Yes, believe it or not, if im not surrounded by ppl i know, or im not intoxicated using the "social lubricant" i am very shy
31. Would you rather date someone who was SUPER-HOT or someone SUPER-NICE? Nice hands down
32. Have you ever been turned down? before grade 8, i got turned down every single time, since then im not quite sure, normally, i make sure that the other person likes me, before i even make any moves of any sort, gives me a sense of security
33. Have you ever been ashamed of anyone you were dating? to an extent, yes
34. Do you currently want to date anyone? Yes
35. How important is sex in a relationship? Sex, isnt important, to a certain extent
36. Would you ever date anyone your parents disapproved of? depending on why, probably not
37. Do you stay friends with the people you date? Yes, i try to with all girls i date,
39. Would you fight over someone you wanted to be with? Definately
40. Do you kiss on the 1st date? lol, if im not too shy to do so
41. Would you date someone A LOT older or younger than you? well younger, would make me a pedophile, and older, i dont htink i could see it happening
42. Do you think cheerleaders are sexy? some
43. Do you like "bad asses?" to an extent
44. If someone cheated on you, would you take them back if you really loved them? im not quite sure, but i would have to say no

1. Put Your iTunes, Windows Media Player, MP3 Player, or whatever on Shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. You must write down the name of the song no matter how silly it sounds!


* How would you describe yourself? fix you - coldplay
* What do you like in a guy/girl? start the machine - angels and airwaves
* How do you feel today? everytime i look for you - blink 182
* What is your life’s purpose? asthenia - blink 182
* What is your motto? all of this - blink 182
* What do your friends think of you? hands open - snow patrol
* What do you think of your parents? recycled air - the postal service
* What do you think about? one i love - coldplay
* What is 2 + 2? heart of man - xzibit
* What do you think of your best friend? take a look at me now - postal service
* What do you think of the person you like? green eyes - coldplay
* What is your life story? this place is a prison - postal service
* What do you want to be when you grow up? love stoned - Justin timberlake
* What do you think of when you see the person you like? touchdown boy - Blink 182
* What will you dance to at your wedding? Ben wah balls - blink 182
* What will they play at your funeral? adams song - blink 182
* What is your hobby/interest? dumpweed - blink 182
* What is your biggest fear? square one - coldplay
* What is your biggest secret? the gift - angels and airwaves
* What do you think of your friends? when your heart stops beating - plus 44
* What will you post this as? always - blink 182

1. Some days I just feel like - vietcatipillar - black moth super rainbow
2. Right now I am thinking - strawberry swing - coldplay
3. My favorite type of day is - this is why im hott - MIMS
4. Nothing beats a good - distraction - angels and airwaves
5. When stuff confuses me - nobody said this was easy - coldplay
6. My view on sex is - voyeur - blink 182
8. I hope my last words are - breathe me - Sia
9. Nexopia quizzes like this are dumb, I’d rather - flashing lights - kanye west
10. At my funeral, they’d better be listening to - superheroes - daft punk
12. Some days I just want to scream out - i miss you - blink 182
13. I love to eat, especially when the food tastes like - Lillian - plus 44
14. I’m not racist, I just like the - easy target - blink 182
15. Lots of these made no sense, but that’s because - apple shampoo - blink 182
16. My music knows me best, that’s why it knows that all I want for Christmas is - brand new colony - postal service
17. When I laugh a lot of people say I sound like - YEAH - usher
18. My feelings on gay marriage are summed up in this word/phrase - Digital love - daft punk
19. If that last one made no sense to you, then I just have this to say to you - my president is black - young jeezy
20. My last thought after that - i wont be home for christmas

now, i dont want to come off as more of an asshole as i already am

basically

in my past, i got " around the block a few times"

and it quite bothers me i cant recall all the names of girls ive slept with

weird as it is,

basically im asking help from anyone that has known me ,

on any names, of girls... that i have slept with

out of all 41 girls, i can recall 36


p.s. this also means, my sleeping around is over btw
if that means no sex, then, no sex is what i get

sooo

reading up on cosmopolitan.com today
and reading some of the articles

one caught my attention

"why guys dump girls they dig?"

http://www.cosmopolitan.com/sex-love/dating/guys-d​ump-girls

and

i found the reason i dumped the majority of the girls ive ever dated
(opy and pasted obviously)


So why do we invest any time in a relationship that we know will ultimately end? Because we're able to live in the moment for a while and chalk it up to a good experience. But once you show that you're way more into us than we are into you, we'll dump you out of guilt. "I dated this girl for about a year, but as soon as she started using the L word, I had to end it," recalls Jay, 29. "It was hard. I cared about her and didn't want to hurt her. But I knew that if I stuck around, she'd have been happier at first but miserable later on. After all, she deserved to be with someone who loved her as much as she loved me."


Just when you thought it was all bad news, here's a hard-to-fess-up admission: Guys are protective of their emotions. Translation: We're scared shitless of being hurt. So, if we start to feel like we're getting into a situation where we'll be destroyed if you dump us, we might launch a preemptive strike and yank the plug first. For Gary, 27, showing his girlfriend of two years the exit felt like the only choice. "She was the first girl I was serious with, and I didn't like letting someone have that much power over me. I was starting to feel emotionally needy, and that was uncomfortable for me," he recalls. "So I ditched her to save myself!"

Sounds crazy, but cut us some slack. Think about how vulnerable and paranoid you feel when you're nuts about a guy, and realize that we go through the same thing with girls we really like. But our friends aren't as good at helping us get over an ex as yours are, plus being openly heartbroken makes us look like wusses. Nope, it's better to act like a winner before you turn us into a loser, which is when our natural self-preservation may come into play. Before the real humiliation and pain assail us like a plague, ending the relationship seems like a good option.

http://www.IHateJasmine.com/?id=979nthn0cfheuek3ue​lw1hyei0bg5

Some say
Anakin skywalker was the Chosen one
Some say
Luke skywalker was the chosen one
And others say
Neo Anderson is the real chosen one

But what if the real chosen one
isnt just imagination,
or someone on the movie screen.
Hes not famous
Or rich
or extremely powerfull

What if i told you
I found the Real chosen one
I befriended him
bacame as close as possible with him

But not ever to turn my back on him
but to teach him
all of my knowledge
I want him to be just as wise as I

I want him to fullfill his destiny,
To live his life to the fullest
With me right behind him,
helping him the entire way
Giving him that shove whenever it is needed

He is now,
My best-friend
by far

We never argue
We are always there for each other
in times of need, or times that
the other just wants to meet for a smoke

And ppl think were gay
Ppl can think all they want
Were just best friends

He is my protege
I am his Jedi master

We just don't let it get to our heads

So what if i told you
i wanted you to be more in my life
then just a friend?

What if all i want to do
is hold you close to my heart
and never let go?

What if all i want to do
in public
is hold your hand?

What if everytime
i looked into your eyes
all i wanted to do...
was kiss you?

What if i get nervous
everytime im around you
and i dont know the right things to say?

What if i cant read you
like the rest of the girls i have met
and it makes me want to be with you more?

But ...
what if im just to shy
and nervous,
and scared to lose you completely

What if you
dont see the same thing in me
everytime you look at me,
as i do when i look at you?

What if you
say no,
and shut me down?


What if?

my thoughts.. and only mine... feedback if you wish



Basically.. within my deep thoughts of wondering what life is about..
i believe i have found the reason we live. it is very scattered, but so is life... so try to keep on track with all of this


Life, is to make happiness, not upon yourself but upon others. and not just a simple, make someone happy for a matter of a day or such a short period, but a never-ending happiness. how to create a never ending happiness. Fall in love, and find someone to fall in love with you, love is a way to make a member of the opposite happy, and love is never ending, or at least it should be. you create love, do what you always can to make that significant other happy as possible, then, you create life, now.. you have now made your significant other happy with your bestowed love upon them, you create a child, find a career, and live your life to the fullest... lets start with your parents, your parents wanted to fullfill there life with having a child, and making there parents happy, now your parents have you, and if you grow to fullfill your life with happiness, love and children, success and anything of the sort, then.. you bestow never ending happiness upon your parents, with you doing this... having success and living life, falling in love, and even back when you took your first step, and first word, your already on the right track to bestowing never ending happiness upon them, your already making them proud, making them smile. this is where it starts, then your first day in school, your already talking walking, having fun, being active.. and now .. your starting your education, they are thinking about your future, to bestow happiness upon you.. not themselves, they think of you.. you go to school, get your education, be physically active, and when your a child, and you are happy. your parents are happy as well... but it is still not fullfilled, you go to high school, and start thinking about your future, your parents are always there to support you, as long as the decision is a realistic one, your parents pay for your schooling, as you find out what you want to do for your career, you go to school, get your diploma, and right there.. your parents are already proud, and extremely happy.. but this is just the begining, many parents early in life, realize that they are going to breed, have a child and start saving for college, they start early to bestow happiness upon you, all in all this therefore makes there parents happy, and you... ( life is a vicious circle of making others happy, it never ends) by the time your done high school, hopefully you have figure out what your wanting to do with your life career wise... if you do not have enough money for the education, many work for a year, while living with tehre parents so you can have enough for your courses.. or travel and such, in which they do it to help you out, to again.. bestow happiness upon you and others... now.. lets say you find your career, you do your schooling, and now... you find your job, education finished. and your making your money, making yourself happy, buying a house, nice furniture, growing up, becoming responsible, and falling in love...usually throughout school, you start trying for love, you date, you have sex, your heart gets broken, or you break hearts... never quit looking, cause one day you will find it.. but now... lets say... you dont stay with your highschool sweet heart, now that you have your career started, house bought, and friends you hang out with, you have to find that "soul-mate", some go to the bars, some look at there job, many different ways on to find someone eligible to be that "one and only". Lets say .. you find him/her, everyone knows.. that... if you start dating someone.. you have to be in the good books with the parents. cause if your not, then. your parents arent going to be happy, to have your significant other over for family events, they will always look down upon that person... eventually.. if you stick it right... and that significant other of yours.. proves themselves.. your parents thoughts will eventually change... for your happiness.. cause again.. with you being happy.. makes them happy... but now.. to make thsi easy.. lets say you find that one ... and your parents do love him/her, your now already in the good books.. you fall in love.. as does your significant other... usually its the male in the relationship... that propose, so .. he thinks long and hard.. finds taht one ring.. that catches the females eye... or that he knows would make her smile brighten the room... now he gets the ring... he thinks ... long and hard.. about how to propose to her.. the right way.. none of this cheesy , hey lets get married over lunch at a coffee shop kinda shit... but... actually puts thought and effort towards it... if he thinks hard...and puts lots of effort to proposing.. she can see this.. and this makes her even happier.. that you want to show the world.. that you do want to be with her the rest of your life... making her happy at any given time, at any little possiblity...


To be continued...

It’s a new year, now let’s go make some new friends! Each dedicated rollerblader wants to see our sport and culture grow to its fullest potential, and Get Someone to Blade Day is here to remind us that one person can make a difference. But getting a new person on blades is about more than just making a new rollerblader, it’s a chance to share the unique awesomeness that is blade culture with new people; to pass the fun you get from blading on to someone else’s life. It’s a win-win situation all around. So don’t be shy. Keep your old blades in your trunk and when you hit up the park next time, get them on a pair of feet. Drag your non-skating friends in with you to the local skate shop. Bring ‘em to the video premieres and events in your area. This may sound like a no-brainer to some of us, but there’s plenty of you out there being greedy and keeping blading all to yourselves! No fair! You want your pros to earn more cheddar and your favorite company to make even cooler gear? Go the extra mile and do what you can to help make a whole new army of rollers. Let’s consider this post a forum to discuss ways to get your local scene involved and a place to brainstorm ideas. We’re here to help however we can, so let us know what we can do to help you Get Someone to Blade! — ONE

EMOTION TEST.

Don't cheat . It's pretty good .
Write your answers underneath the question .
The answers are at the bottom , BUT don't cheat .
Then repost this for others to answer .

1. Your favorite color out of: (red, black, green, blue, yellow)
green
2. Your first initial ?
D
3. Month you were born ?
Sept
4. Which color do you like more, black or white ?
white
5. Name one of your friends ?
Duncan
6. What's your favorite number ?
13
7. Do you like Flying or Driving more ?
driving
8. Do you like a lake or the ocean more ?
ocean
9. Think of a wish but don't write it down !

Answers .
1. If you choose :
Red - You are alert and your life is full of love .
Black - You are conservative and aggressive.
Green - Your soul is relaxed and you are laid back .
Blue - You are spontaneous and love kisses and affection from the ones you love and give good advice to those who are down.
Yellow - You are a very happy person .

2. If you're initial is :
A-K - You have a lot of love and friendships in your life.
L-R - You try to enjoy your life to the maximum & your love life is soon to blossem .
S-Z - You like to help others and your future love life looks very good .

3. If you were born in
Jan-Mar : The year will go very well for you and you will discover that you fall in love with someone totally unexpected .
April-June : You will have a strong love relationship that will last forever .
July-Sept : You will have a great year and will experience a major life-changing experience for the good .
Oct-Dec : Your love life will be great, and eventually you will find your soul mate.

4. If you chose :
Black : Your life will take on a different direction, it will seem hard at the time but will be the best thing for you, and you will be glad for the change.
White : You will have a friend who completely confides in you and would do anything for you, but you may not realize it .

5. This person is your best friend .

6. This is how many true friends you have in your lifetime .

7. If you chose :
Flying : You like adventure .
Driving : You are a laid back person.

8. If you chose :
Lake : You are loyal to your friends and your lover and yourself are very reserved and not emotional .
Ocean: You are spontaneous and like to please people but have many emotions.

9. This wish will come true only if you repost this with
" Emotion Test. Don't Cheat "

you got laid last night, didn't you?
i fucking wish
Have you ever had a sleepover with a member of the opposite sex?
many times

Relationship status: Single, Taken, Complicated?
single

Have you ever kissed someone whose name started with a C?
yes

What's the biggest annoyance in your life right now?
my ankle :S

Is it easy for others to make you feel awkward?
only my parents

When was the last time you wanted to punch someone in their face?
a few days

How many hours did you sleep last night?
3

Who will your next kiss be?
i could only hope this one girl, but... doubtfull it will happen

Is the last person you kissed mad at you?
definately not

Do you believe that you can change for someone?
if you need to change for someone to be with you, they arent worth being with in the first place

Is there someone you want to keep in your life?
mhmmm

Is there someone you want out of your life for good?
a few ppl

Are you happy?
not overly

Do you think you can love someone without trusting them?
yes

Where did you get your last bruise from?
snowboarding

Have you ever thought you were gonna die?
yes

How many true friends do you have that you can tell anything to?
2

What's one action you do when you're really nervous?
look around, and not say anything

What did you last cry over?
not sure

Do you mean anything to the last person you held hands with?
Duncan.. hahaha...

Where did you go last night?
tom hortons

How many windows are open on your computer?
6 and one window has 3 tabs

Are you shy?
not usually, unless intimidated by a female

Are you close with your siblings?
no

Would you rather be the heartbroken or the heart breaker?
well, ive been the heart-breaker my whole life, maybe change is a good thing

Have you ever been heartbroken?
nop

Last Person you talked to on the phone?
Duncan

How did you feel when you woke up today?
tired, and ready to snowboard

Do you believe in love?
mhmm

Current mood?
tired, bored

Are you too forgiving?
extremely

Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?
yes

Do you think you will be in a relationship three months from now?
with this curfew im on, i doubt any girl would want to have a relationship

Do you secretly like someone?
YES, secretively, i dunno, i am quite sure many ppl know

Do you care what others think of you?
yes, but differently than others

Do you think you'll be married in 10 yrs?
if kelli has her way, yes

Have you ever found it hard to tell someone you like them?
yes, alcohol is great for helping

Are you open about your feelings or closed off?
depending on how confident i feel upon the subject at the time

Think of the last person you told "I love you" to, did you mean it?
of course, those 3 words are something not to be "just said"

Say something to the first person you kissed this year:
hi

What does the tenth inbox message on your phone say?
" Fuck yea, i got laid just before new years"

When was the last time you were truly and completely happy?
too long to remember

Last night, did you go to sleep smiling?
dont think so
.
Last compliment you received?
that i have a resemblance to JT

What are you thinking about right now?.
How im tired, and this curfew shit blows

A song that describes your mood?
Devotchka - How it ends
.
Has the opposite sex ever sang to you?
dont believe so

Do you think you are a good person?
no.

What's a song that describes your love life right now?
Prozzak - sucks to be you

What is the age difference between you and the last person you kissed?
3.5 years

Do you break things when you are mad?
no

Do your parents really know you?
pretty much

When do you get butterlfies?
almost never

When's the next time you will see the person you like?
Jan 10th if not sooner

What was the last thing you cried about?
when i was drunk and high on acid. and i went to coaldale to shitkick 3 guys from brooks
knowing that after i do it i will go to jail, but it would be worth having my 2 best friends safe and not harmed

Why do you like the person you currently have feelings for?
it might be somehting do to with her green eyes, and when me and her look into each others eyes, and i cant read her, and how she just makes me smile everytime she says "heyy" on msn , or how she doesnt seem like she likes me, makes me want what i cant have...

Is it okay to kiss people if your single?
but of course

Do you believe your ex thinks about you?
i know so

Would you ever eat cow poop?
Not intentionally

Did you speak to your father today?
yes

If an ex says s/he hates you, you say?
Thats only cause you cant have me

Who has the ability to hurt you most?
My mother/Father and duncan

Are you starting to realize anything?
My life is boring

What would you do if you got someone pregnant?
depends on who it is...

What were you doing at 8 this morning?
sleeping

Who do you love?
Duncan, Kelli, Maggie, Sister, family , and a lil bit fraser
.
Why?
True friends, the only thing that kept my ass out of jail, and
well, its my family

Have you ever spent the night with the opposite sex?
i used to,

What are 3 important things everyone should know about you?
Im not actually gay, i make fun of others due to me being insecure, my life sucks

How did you feel when you woke up today?
Groggy

Your ex shows up randomly at your house, you say?
hi?


Does it take a lot to make you cry?
errr, fuck if i know

You're in the hospital, who would come visit you?
Depending on what im in for
Duncan, Fraser, Kelli, Family, Sister