if you have me on messenger add me again at apathy_meh@hotmail.com, my divided account dosnt work any more
http://www.mechc.com/vampirefreaks/index.php?p=pag​e&x=14903
if you visit my page go to the link or you shall die!
and for gods sake ask before you add me...fuck too many random people are adding me

yeah ive looked in the black metal forum and i see what most of you pink fairie fucks are saying about me. fuck off you dont know me and you never will

i cut my dreads off and am currently growing my hair out and will be dying it white and putting it in braids...ak short hair dosnt suit me all that well


FORUMS I HAVE BEEN BANNED FROM
-mttm
-christian forun
-the religion forum....it was a rip off of r&s so i told them in the most blatently rude way possible
-we hate teen angst
-?bored?
-Homework Compendium
-sex forum(temp)
-black metal
-the anime forum
-juggalo forum
-fashion squad
-the o.c. forum(fuck i hate the o.c. so much)
-attention seekers(temp ban)
-harry potter forum
-inqisition forum
-punk rock forum
-fuck goths
and many more to come(i probably forot a few...its hard to keep count)
FORUMS THAT HATE ME
-sprucegrove forum(yeah fuck you too you red neck dolts)
-mttm(fuck you orphy, fuck you)
-juggalo forum...hehe that ban was fun to earn
-inquisition of reality(fuck you...errr i dont remember why i was banned but fuck you)
-black metal forum(eat a bag of dicks you un-realistic pricks)

please if i have forgotten any forums tell me and i will add them asap

my sig has been peramently removed...thats because i posted very....bad things on it, if it has offended you i am sorry and please send $50 to #302 sprucegrove t76 28j ab, ca


anime*drools* i love good anime

this is cute...kittens are cute...I LOVE KITTENS
im quiet, on messenger i tend to be more talkative(in a bad way), im a passivist, and unfortunately i can be shy when it comes to women if i realy like them(when i like them this much i tend not to ask them out for fear of screwing up our friendship)
apathy_meh@hotmail.com is my hotmail account, i cant sign in with my divided account which i am uber pissed about and ofr emails, just use my nexopium page i never chack my email
hahahaha this is the funniest thing ever...since the how to tell your kid is a goth list: http://www.whitehouse.org/initiatives/purity/index​.asp
its recently come to my attention that ive been abit emoish the last few months, i have alot of shit to sort through right now so it will take some time for eric to be normal eric again


and since its going to be a while till i get decent pics i have light blueish green eyes, im tall and skinny(not anerexic but lead singer of him skinny) i have black dreads that are about lip length, i am incredibly pale i like wearing a black shirt/hoodie and baggy pants whit colour(blood red is so pretty) i have a large chain on my side, wear an black ankh on my neck with a spikey chain and i always have a discman with me...my alternate style is me wearing a black shirt, black leather boots, a leather trench coat and some type of pants that arnt incredibly baggy(my accesories stay the same)
right now im trying to find a do-rag, a black one because do-rags are that ******* cool
right now im changing my style its more of a rivithead style
honestly im not a happy person usualy, i feel like im alone and to have a relationship with someone i have to be able to identify with them otherwise it dosnt work.
im also a vocalist for metal bands(nu-metal,black metal stuff like that) although i wish i could rap:(
i can accidentaly flirt sometimes so sorry if i flirt with you...it dosnt mean that i like you in a romantic way
and this is my pirate introduction:yarrrrrrrrr i be the dreded scottish pirate Sir malcolm of dredsland, i am the plunderer of small helpless vilages and the molester of un attended sheep yarrrr im somthin to be proud of!
why does the world seem to taunt me.....where ever i go i am loved, but loved by the wrong people and the people i love never love me back

cmon join, you know you want to

weed is great, i love it so very much even though it fucks up my line of thinking ever so much

dani is my singing idol

i *emo heart* this drummer

well its black metal and im a fan of black metal...except for the weapons and spikes

read above^

MUPPETS ARE MY GOD!


he offered us knowledge and we took it, we didnt realize the price of our foolishness

majick exists

one of the best movies of all time

do you like to lick the moo?
this is funny shiznit, cyber sex gone wrong...haha
http://www.funwithsex.org/

my nick names are malcolm(damn you malcolm in the middle!) and the pumkin king

i need someone to hold me, someone i can relate to i need to love this person and i need to trust them. i need to be attracted to this person emotionaly and physicaly i want to be happy with someone and i want this person to mean everything and more. i would do anything for this person, i would sacrifice everything to be with this person and as long as i had this person i would be happy. this is what i need and this is my ultimate love

i love this show sooooo much

i love this show more...hehe im such a nerd

-music-music is my life! not shitty rap(50 cent, ludacris....basicly new gangster and womanizing rap),pop and country(minus jhonny cash)
-sleeping...it helps with the hard times/depression
-working out-it feels good, realy good
-weed...hehehe i love weed
-VELVET ACID CHRIST!!!!!!! JOYGASM!!!!!!!!!!
-KITTENS
-food
-foreplay....its the key to having good sex and its fun!
-sex....but i only have sex with those i love and i dont love too many people
-hearing my partner orgasm...i take great pleasure in giving pleasure
-tara your the best thing thats happened to me since...well ever and i love you so very much<3
-radiohead, this band...i dont know how to describe them but they have helped me during some hard times
-a few select people....i honestly hate pretty much everyone i meet
-THE CRYSTAL METHOD!!!!!
-johnny depp(im not gay but ill change...for you my love)
-eyes(these are my favorite part of the body)
-affection(snuggling is a good thing)
-relationships are good too
-I love my friends and i would do anything for them, without them im a lost cause
-i love my band also

this is what happened when i told a friend i liked hiphop/rap LOL

the crystal method mother fuckerz, possibly my favorite band

one of the best movies of all time also

roses are so pretty

this band is ******* great...its like manson but better

yeah thats right i like rap, but not the ooooh look at me i got shot so worship me rap(50 cent)

beastie boys mother fuckers

manson...hehehe i swear this guy is the eminem or vice versa of industrial rock

another genre/band i love

great band

again a new genre and a new band....i love them(radiohead)

nin is a great band...i dont know what else to say about them

wumpscut i love this band and because of bands like this and vac im beginning yo like eletronica more than metal

I am in a band and here our a few songs i have written

Betrayed intentions of immortality(title)

Spatter of blood across the stars
We bask in their luminosity
A dark maidens kiss for the road less traveled
Her kiss of immortality
Upon a chariot built of Jerusalem’s burning
Driven by the corrupted cross
Truths yet to be foretold
The divine, flawed by nature
Condemned to fall she was
A kindred spirit beneath the headstone
A shallow grave upturned by ghouls of a perverse nature
I crucify them with a single word, a single thought
She remains crying as a deep sorrow fills the void within
Come to her aid he whispers
That creature of black wing and beauty
Of age and wisdom beyond comprehension
Her figure draws near and she looks up at my pale face
Relief is found for both our lonesome souls and we embrace
A kiss, her warmth of lips and my cold heart warms
I live my life by the five points of power
By the inverted cross
For I am the black lamb of Jerusalem
The first immortal
A figure cloaked in shadows and fog
Neither Divinity nor flesh and blood shall conceal me
And our unrivaled love carries over on the wind
I leave that crypt of pleasure
Saddened by memories of new nature
Remorse fills the silent void within my chest
A place where lovers rot within
Remembering just moments before
Blood dripping down my chin
We embraced and a throbbing of that vein
Transcending time, overpowering my mind
I took tooth into flesh and then into vein
Her heart fluttered as that crimson liquid left
I could not help it, nor do I care
A handkerchief to wipe the blood from my face
And a unsettling rumble down there
Alas I yearn once more for the love of a woman
And the blood found near

Mistress of a Fate so Cruel(title)

The sky so black
She can never go back
Her shapeless silhouette through the fog
Moonlight gives way to her presence
Come one, come all a siren of the deepest depths
A shroud of darkness envelops her beauty
Leaving her shape to the limitless imagination and the angels cry crimson tears within her wake
A warming of blood
An urge long forgotten
Love
The desert of the real, the dark forests of imagination
Her love is long lost, a deep sadness settles within
She kneels in the court of a broken world
To shed her blackened tears
Bride of loneliness, beloved blasphemer
She is raped of her faith
Five blood moons pass
Ageless as time she remains, an enigma to all men alike
Bitterness entwines her soul for a lonely fate has claimed her as a mistress
Black as midnight she dresses, reflecting emotions locked within her heart
A ***** of Satan, blasphemer of salvation society has claimed
Her full lips almost choke with malice as she laughs
Fools and fathers, mothers and malignant wanderers
Know not what they say, know not the fate they drive her to
Tears streak her pale skin, this fate too grim
A crown of thorns, the angels have placed upon her head
A throne of lies and deceit she has been granted by her words and actions
A fallen angel reincarnate damned for eternity
This world worse than hell her ageless body and cancer enveloped soul
Bound by the lambs holy chains
As the sun rises she runs to the crypt, the only crypt known to her
Emotional she becomes tearing away at the lies that cover her body
An open casket, lined with thorns awaits
Empathetically she caresses herself to sleep
Dreams of a past unknown, dark and perverse taunt her
Newly raped of peace she awakens
A calamity creeps within her shadow
It matters not
Lifeblood pours from her serrated wrists and goblets of flesh fall to the tear soaked ground
Darkness approaches, and the angels do not inconvenience to remover the thorns from her head
Nor does she attempt to dismount from her throne, now piled heaven high
A beautiful creature of horn and black wings appears as her vision fades
The serpents tongue softly whispers within her ear
“My precious black lamb
you shant feel neither brimstone nor fire
fate has been unkind to you in this world and the next shall be a paradise for your troubled soul and lonesome heart”
He picks up her withering body and whispers once more into her beautiful face
“My Black lamb of Jerusalem”

i have a another song with i will post here shortly but it still needs an ending that i will be satisfied with
by the way these are property of niflheim so taking credit for these is sort of against the law when we get a website set up and release the rest of the music feel free to do covers i personaly dont care about that


adam, ive known you since well forever your a great friend

ally-my bassist, ive only known you for a short while and your a wonderful person so no matter the situation remember it will always get better

oh brynn...you and your power metal lol

cassie, what can i say, your beautiful and im happy your a friend so heres to many more fun times with you

catilyn, i dont know what to say about you in my eyes you are perfect or damn near it

hehe corby and heather corby we never do anything anymore but your suck a nice and seeminly cheery person and heather your just a fun person to be around

Kelsey you are sexy, very very sexy and your also a good friend even though you gave me scars lol

miranda...your so quiet and we never talk anymore either that makes me a sad panda:(

sasja, you are beautiful in every way and you have been a good friend...no a great friend so heres to many good times to come

stacy! we never talk anymore either!!!!! i hate it when i lose touch with friends

Tara ive only known you for a short while but you are easily the most amazing person i have ever met, you mean everything to me and no matter what i will always be there for you(and thanks for the idea for this friends section)

jenn, your a fun talkative person and parties at your place are always so much fun

kasi, hehe your fun and your the queen of losertopia *bows down*

MIKEY! your my hero....

olivia, your a great friend and its always a pleasure talking to you

friends continued(i ran out of room on my likes section )

haha amanda your a great person, your a great friend

tori and jess, tori your beautiful and fun and i hope you find someone to hold and comfort you*coughCJcough* and jess you have always been a great friend to me through even my most akward times

hey look its a bird, its an airplane its a jay?...hehe your a great person and your my drummer and dont you forget it!!!(yay to lawn gnomes!!!!!!)

Alicia, your a great person and are very pretty. i havnt known you as long as some of my other friends but i care about you more than most

jesus christ, kerry...you scare me soimetimes but your a pretty good guy and im glad to have you as a friend and not an enemy

Lauren, i dont know you that well, but i can see us becoming good friends as time passes

mariahh, your very entertaining and beautiful...very very beautiful*basks in her reflective beauty*-i cant wait to meet you in real life your such a great person

cameron, man your one of my oldest friends and we havnt talked in such a long time...well that just means we have tons to catch up on *breaks out the vodka*
-I dont like people(although some people have a very positive effect on me)
-homphobes(including gay bashers)
-messenger(i talk too much on messenger)
-religion(the people not god)
-alberta(because of the people and the cold weather)
-peer pressure
-metalheads, not all of them but what i found is that next to rednecks they are the most narrow minded group of people i have ever met expecialy when it comes to music
-elitists...god i hate them so much
-excuses(im such a hipocrite)
-depression
-the pasties...ak the one bad thing about weed
-racism
-racist groups(nazis, kkk ect)
-sexism...women arnt sextoys treat them with respect!!!!
-narrowmindedness...iI know canada has a conservative culture but cmon if your going to judge someone judge them by their personality and now their looks/personal tastes
-insecurities( life is too short to worry about what other people think)
-MEGAN STERN, your a bitch you know...dont fuckin lie about my friends they dont deserve it

this is such a bitchin show

"Two members of the heavy metal band Damageplan were reportedly shot and killed, including Dimebag Darrell, formerly with the band Pantera, NBC 4's David Wayne reported. The other band member's name was not released. The alleged gunman also died at the scene, Wayne reported."
A sad day for metal, music and humanity all that died deserve our respect and a moment of silence
"when i die, i don't want people crying at my funera,l i want them drinking"-R.I.P dimebag \m/
im happy no other band members died, although two fans and head of security did R.I.P


i guess you could call me a goth but whatever i like alot of other things than just "gothic" stuff as you have read