theres alot people wish they could take back.
to behonest, i don't think i'd take any of it back. if i didn't waste the time on the people i did then i don't think i'd be the same person. if i'd choosen to be like other girls i might be a fake girl. i'm happy to be who i am and act the way i do. i know i'm an idion sometimes and a total goof ball. but i'm happy and know who i am inside unlike alot of girls out there.
it's honestly pathetic how much i like that stupid boy. he can make me smile like some little kid in a candy store. his hugs make me feel like no one else is around. when we talk i don't hear anything but his words. *sigh* 3 years going on 4 of being your best friend. you can be a total asshole but when you decide to be that amazing cutsy sweetheart; i can't help it. i'm still waiting for my chance, maybe i'll be waiting forever. maybe when my turn comes it'll be too late. your my every wish on a shooting star, 11:11 and "wish chip." you got me into that wish chip buisness aswell. i'll never forget it either... i kinda, sorta love that boy.
alot of things annoy me.
when people chew gum like retarded cows, eat like pigs. talk lyke dis. spell it right, it's isn't that hard. unitelligent people drive me up the wall. it's common sense it's not that difficult. people that swear every second word. it just makes you sound unintelligent. girls with no reason for an argument; "she kissed my boyfriend" isn't sufficient. he didn't stop her did he? and insults like fat ass? slut? yawn, get some new ones you scorlotic troglidon. yes, those are words. they means "shut the fuck up retard" in stupid language. people who throw punches for something uneventful. sigh, teenagers have such small minds these days... OH, the worst annoyance for me has to be those kids that throw their lives away doing drugs, partying every other weekend, skipping, and not caring. half the rich kids i know do that. yeah, we know you can get into some major university because you have money, doesn't mean you have to rub it in us middle class peoples faces. yes, i need some sort of miricle scholarship to attend the college i want to. i have to work, so have some respect and shut your traps in class. i'd like to be able to concentrate. thanks you, that is all :)
i have alot of amazing memories, like stealing that stop sign, spray painting that road, and sneaking out with you almost everynight sophie.
but my funniest memory has tro be at lake of the trees bible camp with katie lawson. we were playing mission impossible. first you have to know katie as this crazy girl who will go through stuff the hardest way! it started with a prickle bush feild. we walk allll the way through that. then we had to dive over this tree to avoid a flash light person. we climbed through this THICK forest/bush thing. after we got out of that we were walking on a dirt road quietly. a flash light shined at we dived into the bush hard. katie his the leafy brush i hit this GINORMUS rock. i swear to god i like killed my shin. she told me not to scream or she'd leave me. no i held it in. katie walked off. i got up and limped behind her. FINALLY we'd made it half way to out goal. we were at the climbing wall. we ended up on another dirt road looking around.
we heard a foot step behind us. we looked back then screamed because this guy was there. he's exremly creepy aha. and had a flash light so we took off running. me and katie split up. katie went left to fall down this muddy hill with sticks. she got stabbed by them and rolled allllll they way down this hill to another road where she was caught by our cabin leader. i ran straight into this PITCH black forest. i fell then stood up. i was incased by sticks as the crazy ninja guy ran around me a few times. i was praying for no spiders on me. i didn't move for atleast 20 mins. i finially climbed out of my stick jail and ran down the road again toward the end. i had to sprint one last time. and was caught just before the end.
all in all it was an amazing night :)
alot of things make me depressed or can kill my mood. one is seeing a little kid in botanio park shoot up like i did a couple years back. seeing a guy i've known for albost 12 years throw his life away for partying and drugs. that stupid boy i can never seem to get. insults on facebook. just some of the things people can say. even if they're not said about me. i just wonder how people can be so cruel. when my own grandmother delets me of facebook because of a family feud with my mom and dad. when i decide to write a 3 page letter to get my point accross to an alchoholic. watching my best friend get blamed for something that isn't her fault. just because of her moms drinking. what depresses me most is when people hurt the people they love with out consiquence.
