what an unfortunate turn of events that my mouth can't seem to respond to what i think in my headcase. I expected some things to be easier, at least SOME THINGS. My mistake. the inferiority has been eating away at my physical and spiritual well-being. always confused, never satiated. desperately searching for some kind of closure, anything to prevent this segregating confusion. the praise means nothing when followed by no action. words are words. a feeling does not exist unless it is proven through action. the only way to accomplish anything is to ask questions, and often they go unanswered, lost in the void. i want what i want. and i know exactly what it is. or at least, i'd like to think that i do. more confusion. nothing makes sense. no coherency. no lineage. no connection. no simplicity. simplicity is the thing to strive for, he was always right about that. i cannot achieve peace such as that when i am so very thoroughly ostricized from all that i care for. nowhere to be.
don't just survive. LIVE.
Is it my kindness that disgusts you?
Animethon is in 5 days, so excited!! My show binder is pretty pathetic and my hair isn't dyed yet. I'm cosplaying as L from Death Note, Sarah's gonna be Reno from FFVII. Our posters aren't finished yet either ... Gonna be a busy 5 days ...
My sprained wrist still hurts just as bad as it always did. i'm starting to debate whether it's ever going to heal.
I miss Shelley and Nikki and little Tayler and Lorraine and Cameron ... I wish we could go socialize and gallivant together. Nikki didn't come see me before she left, and seemed incredulous that I wanted to see her. And now she's gone and I'll never see her again. Kinda sucks.
Don't know where we're crashing while we're in Edmonton ... Poulin might go to Red Deer and visit Stashko, so that rules him out possibly. So probably Devon's.
Jimmy's leaving soon. Jason won't have anyone to play Go with. He'll be so heartbroken.
1. What is your character's name?
Taavi Tuulikki
2. What is your character's name in another language?
Means "Beloved little wind" in English.
3. How old is he/she?
Not very ... around 18 ... possibly younger.
4. What is your character's race/species?
Half black-cat demon, half human.
5. Do they have a crush?
Yus ... One that could get him into alot of trouble.
6. Do they have many friends?
Not very many ... He's very reserved, shy, and lost within himself.
7. What planet is your character from?
Where the rest of my characters are from. -_- That planet that has no name yet.
8. Does your character like to eat?
He eats like a fatty. But he's really thin ... which is odd ...
9. What's his/her favorite food?
Soup
10: What's his/her favorite drink?
Tea
11. Is your character annoying?
Only in his self-destructiveness
13. Is your character loved?
Yes.
14. Is your character hated?
Yes. He's got scary powers, don't ya know.
15. Is he/she emo/goth?
No.
16. Is he/she straight, bisexual, or gay?
Gay.
17. Is he/she a virgin?
... For now.
18. Name 3 hobbies
Taking baths, drawing, being scared
19. Is your character normal?
....... Naw. Unless psychic abilities are normal
20. Is your character attractive?
He doesn't think so. But others do.
21. How does your character handle emotions?
Keeping them in, except when it comes to Helmuth. When someone makes him angry or upset, he holds back any retorts and waits till he's alone, and then bawls his eyes out.
22. Does your character have other forms?
Not really. More like other states of mind.
23. Does your character overreact?
Not usually
24. Is your charcter a criminal?
No. He's painfully honest. Just reserved.
25. Does your character go to school?
No. He's too much of a loner for that.
26. What's his/her IQ?
I little above average.
27. Does your character have a disease/curse?
He has psychic abilities that he can't control, and when he has a vision, it causes him great pain.
28. Is your character dead?
Nope.
29. Does your character have a family?
They're dead.
30. Has he/she encountered any tragic times in life?
Of course. Who hasn't?
31. What's the best time in your character's life?
When he's with Helmuth.
32. If you could name 1 friend, which would you relate to your character?
Myself ... Durr .....
33. Is your character single?
Nope.
34. Has he/she developed any relationships?
Yep.
35. Does he/she have an element?
He knows some Wind and Air magic
36. Do you role-play your character?
I don't roleplay.
37. Do you write about your character?
I try to develop him more.
38. Does your character have a bad temper at times?
Again, only when he's alone
39. Does your character get depressed?
Yes. Hell yes.
40. What's your characters favorite animal?
Cats.
41. Does your character have any fears?
Himself, his powers, being open.
42. Does your character have any weaknesses?
He's small, fragile, mentally unstable, and cares about people way too much.
43. Does your character look up to anyone?
Anyone inspirational.
44. Does your character like music?
Yep. Loves it.
45. What's your character's favorite type of music?
Metal, folk, ambient, alternative, techno, pretty much anything.
46. Is he/she impatient?
Yes.
47. What's something funny about your character?
The flesh at the end of his tail is ripped off, but the bones still move as though there was still muscle attached to them.
48. Name 5 nicknames
No one gave him any.
49. Does your character curse?
Sometimes.
50. This test is over, what does your character have to say?
"All exposed, spilling out, am I still safe here on ths fragile ground?"
Don't read too much into this. It's just a conversation between two of my characters. Has nothing to do with me personally.
"Don't look at me that way.
You saved my life, but that gives you not the right to steal it away again.
I know I am in your debt
But this is beyond my comprehension
I cannot live like this, this way
With you."
"Damn you, boy.
If you don't live here with me, then you won't live at all."
"You own me, I know this
If I refuse to pay my debt, I will die
... That is why you took me away ...
To protect me.
I have become your shameful secret
If you are found out ...
You will lose all that matters to you."
"Are you not listening?
Haven't I proven that all that matters is you?"
"... It's funny to hear you say that.
It's funny to hear that come out of your mouth.
Since all you've ever known is taking life."
"... I know.
But, please, don't say it with such scorn.
Do you hate me so for what I was born?"
"Of course not."
"Then what, boy?"
"It's what you've been made
That I despise."
"How can that be?
You never knew me before:
What I was like, what I grew up with ..."
"Then tell me, help me understand."
"I had a brother. A twin.
As did you. I saw him that day.
The one that hid you from the flames ..."
"... Yes. My older brother ..."
"You loved him, did you not?"
"Yes."
"And he loved you."
"Yes."
"Ah, you see boy, that is something I never knew.
Love from my sibling ..."
"Well ... all brothers fight ..."
"Just listen.
We may have been twins, but he was always the larger, the more powerful.
He had the more .... dominating ... personality
I was ... weaker ... but I never did admit it.
My brother was ... to put it simply ... cruel.
He did ... awful things to me ... unbeknownst to my father of course.
I was too prideful to tell him.
I ... could not bring my shame to light.
Until, he spilt my blood.
He tried to kill me.
... He failed, obviously, but I was still very damaged.
This incident finally showed my father my brother's true face.
He was banished from the God's Realm."
"... Where is he now?"
"He wanders ...
He still comes here at times ...
To me ...
To remind me that I am ...
the smaller one."
"... I see ...
I'm sorry.
I did not even imagine ...
Such a sad story."
"It is not a story.
It has no ending as of yet."
1. What is your character's name?
Sulfur _______
2. What is your character's name in another language?
It's 'Iwo' in Japanese.
3. How old is he/she?
He's a god, so ..... I guess he's ageless.
4. What is your character's race/species?
God of Destruction
5. Do they have a crush?
He has a little fuck toy named Kimiko! XD
6. Do they have many friends?
He doesn't want friends .... He has a few he begrudges slightly.
7. What planet is your character from?
The Interstitial Plane
8. Does your character like to eat?
He doesn't need to.
9. What's his/her favorite food?
..... Kimiko's pen15.
10: What's his/her favorite drink?
..... Kimiko's blood.
11. Is your character annoying?
Naw. He's calm usually.
13. Is your character loved?
Yes.
14. Is your character hated?
Yes. Who doesn't hate the bringer of ruin?
15. Is he/she emo/goth?
No. He's kinda dark though.
16. Is he/she straight, bisexual, or gay?
Gay.
17. Is he/she a virgin?
Oh hell naw.
18. Name 3 hobbies
Wrecking things, toppling cities, confiding in/raping Kimiko.
19. Is your character normal?
Normal for a GOD.
20. Is your character attractive?
His beauty would stop you in your tracks. XDDD
21. How does your character handle emotions?
Quietly, within himself, sometimes his inner restraints break and he gets very angry (throwing things, yelling, etc.)
22. Does your character have other forms?
Of course. He's a god.
23. Does your character overreact?
Not usually, but who doesn't sometimes?
24. Is your charcter a criminal?
He kills things ... so yes?
25. Does your character go to school?
No.
26. What's his/her IQ?
Above average.
27. Does your character have a disease/curse?
At one point he gets a curse put on him that turns him mortal.
28. Is your character dead?
Nope.
29. Does your character have a family?
A brother.
30. Has he/she encountered any tragic times in life?
He's more the CAUSE of others' tragic times. But, like everyone else, he has his down days.
31. What's the best time in your character's life?
The comfort that Kimiko provides.
32. If you could name 1 friend, which would you relate to your character?
............. Probably myself! Lawl.
33. Is your character single?
Nope.
34. Has he/she developed any relationships?
Yep.
35. Does he/she have an element?
He's a destructive chi master.
36. Do you role-play your character?
I don't roleplay.
37. Do you write about your character?
I try to develop him more.
38. Does your character have a bad temper at times?
Very occasionally.
39. Does your character get depressed?
Not alot.
40. What's your characters favorite animal?
He doesn't really value life.
41. Does your character have any fears?
Kimiko being hurt, being human.
42. Does your character have any weaknesses?
Kimiko being hurt, blows to his ego.
43. Does your character look up to anyone?
Himself! XD
44. Does your character like music?
He likes it.
45. What's your character's favorite type of music?
Whatever Kimiko sings.
46. Is he/she impatient?
Not usually.
47. What's something funny about your character?
He consistently rapes the person he claims to love.
48. Name 5 nicknames
Ummm .... Iwo?
49. Does your character curse?
Yes. Lots.
50. This test is over, what does your character have to say?
"Monkey killing monkey killing monkey ..."
