i do what i do. some times i feel like life could end tomorow and sometimes i sleep right throu tomorow. my passion is fun, when i die, you can bet i'll be smilein'. im not hard to please but im rarley satisfide. im not asking for anything. i leave it all on the field. so if you wana find me im on the field, still trying to leave it there. i think in the end it will all make sence. like the start of an old cassette, you hear that noise and the music starts to play. smile with me. take a breath ,look deep. it shouldnt be hard to enjoy. sing your song, play the game. and watch throu your rear view.












' If I have seen further than others, It is because I have stood on the shoulders of giants' -Makiveli










i've missed out on so much following that wild goose. it never ceases to amaze me. the goose that is. i love the goose. and the chase. but when you expand to fill, like steam in a kettle. it leaks out and burns you. like steam in a kettle. i cant explain. not even gona try. it's just a night like this one that will make me question why. should i of turned back. was i supposed to cut and run. why didnt i stay and do life as it was. like it should have begun. as it was supposed to end all those times. but didnt. the paranoya burns me and all those that reach for me. i dont wana be saved. because it cant be done. not till the light melts me and takes me back. i search and will chase forever if i feel thats what it'll take. i just cant understand why the right shoe is on the left foot and untied. why the reflection in the shadow is the only one who will not run and hide. are you, the one who cant look at me no more. does the thought of me leave you misunderstanding. I can tell you. but it wont help. so bleed for your self. and leave. leave me bleeding for you.






do you ever feel like you're not where you're supposed to be. And then you look at where you're at and it doesnt even feel real because you've never dreamped of this place. and from here every thing you dreamed of feels a world away, and your walking so the ability to get there is a dream in itself. trying to understand time and distance is aloosive. not the concept of tommorow but the reality of ten years. self constructed road blocks achieved from disfunction, block your vision of ten years from now. and you think of the smoke that was your dreams. they seem takin in the wind. your confident tho casue you know how to start a fire but is there anything left to burn. how many times can you let yourslef down befor you just sit and belvie where your at. when do you let it go.




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for a moment in time you felt like things were looking up, a break finaly went your way but as time passed life reverted to what it is. its not the challenge you cant handle. the uncertainty of if this compass is pointing north makes you weary of where to go next, so you go nowhere and its a childish conception to want to be led. you'd rather lead you know this. the book is thick but the paper lacks ink. so break free and fill in the script. ad lib when the pages end, such is life. be resourcefull. it feels like this phase wont end but it will. just breath and reformulate that game plan. you're not working hard enough and you know this. but dont forget to give yourself credit when credit is do. so build that bridge and burn this one, it leads no where. fight for that faded light and ignore time for now. ad that element of danger , it lets you know that you're alive. do the things you love cause those are the things that make you you. and just take it all in and enjoy it.



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i have that feeling in my stomach again. like im missing somthing . i just ate so it's not food. the ball stoped rolling and the momentum of the world still spinning has left this void in my gut. the feeling as sick as it is, is actually encouraging. its actually like the voice of my conscience gasping for air. seens as i spend quite a bit of time flying solo , weather it's on the road to and from work. or in this town where i cant seems to crack the social code. my gut seems to be like a life coach or somthing, like that budy you want to dare you to make the next move. but still i must grind on. i'm changing dates, well actually i think im gona erace dates and create milestones. from five year plan to get er done. not like i was pacing myself befor or anything but thinking about it now it's more encouraging to think about life this way. so i'll stay on the hoarse and keep getting that cash and build on this feeling.



its that crack music niiga says:
for me it was jsut... sayin fuck it.. i am me.. i can t make a person or persons love or like or hate me.. i am me.. i do me.. what i do is me.. so it migh be hard to rescue urself from the box u may find urself in. but really jsut be u

jena says:
what if i dont even know who i am, then what? am i pretty much fucked?

its that crack music niiga says:
haha
its that crack music niiga says:
ive never .. heard u swear
its that crack music niiga says:
what do u mean .. go look in a mirror
its that crack music niiga says:
u'll find u

jena says:
haha im not what i look like i'll tell ya that right now

its that crack music niiga says:
lol
its that crack music niiga says:
i dont get it




"I am a member of a team, and I rely on the team, I defer to it and sacrifice for it, because the team, not the individual, is the ultimate champion.�
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Ev.All I have in this world are my balls and my word and I dont break em for nobody says:
was that sex we had that time at your friends house not the best sex ever....?
Miss Morrison says:
evan what the fuck... lol
Ev.All I have in this world are my balls and my word and I dont break em for nobody says:
ya... soo good right
Ev.All I have in this world are my balls and my word and I dont break em for nobody says:
what it wasnt ?
Miss Morrison says:
it was the best sex i've ever had it was crazy... everytime it think of sex i think of the sex we had


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KEEPIN' IT ALL-N-CHECK

being naked..fact is im naked right meow.
freestyling when no ones around
smashed on a sunday. S.O.S.... this day has gone down in history.
the feeiling after being scared. adrenaline, i think thats when your heart trys to keep up with your brain
songs that remind me of the summers.
the odds..the underdoggs..and the struggle
my birthday....everyones allways partyin.
and i get fire works
winning
loosing
and the givens, cars
money
and ladies

true or false, right or wrong. thats what i live by

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