lost are those who walk in unicen

ignorance is the key to keeping ones sanity, it is a price not worth paying

Think not that I am come to send peace on earth: I came not to send peace, but a sword. mathew 10:34

Losing an illusion makes you wiser than finding a truth. ~Ludwig Börne

this is a asignement i wrote for english, it made me rember something i am ashamed i forgot

Daniel Bell
letter to long lost frend



are you a girl?
is the first words i ever said to him, and now that may be all he rembers of me, a eturnatity ago i made my first frend, was a guy in knew in my morning kindergaurden class
he was the first guy i had ever sceen with curly blond hair and having spent all my time up untel that point alone in my house with my borthers and parents, he said no and he wasen't offended, he was just as coureious about me as i was him, i don't rember what hapend after that but i know we were frends shortly after, the line was "can you play today" can you come over or can i go to your house,
and then for years thats what we did, i jumped on his trampoleen and when he came over to my place we would go to the ravieens behind my house, we had a great game that he cam up with, you stand at the top of the ravieen on the west bank witch is about 45 feet above the water, you stand up there and you jump off, you fall you roll and you land in the dirt, its all soft so we never get hurt but you alaws get very dirty. we went like that for a few years and our circle of frends grew and shrunk, slightly at times more at other times at its hight we were 9, and offen it was 2, we alawas knew he was different, of course at 7 and 8 years old you can't quite put your finger on it, he alawas looked at guys one way and girls a different way ,different form the guys any way, in the end he may not have seen any differance at all. he was the olny person who was able to be frends with girls at 3,4,5 years old, well he was different we all said girls were ickey and had cotties and he envited a girls to his bithday parteys, we went to camp together, 4 times, we were best frends, i never understould what hapend at the bugening, i think olny he knows that now but now im being cryptic,

we started grade 8 and high school, and the past went away, the past was over and the present was on, all those who were once my frends disapered and others took there place, the crouds changed and the in croud and cast systems became aperent like never before and a great zigraut of "cool" was drawn in stone, the top tire was the girls and guys who were "cool", good looking and "cool" but you could never see them because of the second tier, the folowers and clawlers hoping that they would get some of my former frends were there, then was the thurd tier that was me and the bulk, the hurd, the pack the cattle, after us there was still 2 tiers left, below us was the "nerds" some of whom weren't very smart now that i think about it, and last and by far least was the out croud, they were the people who were the smar ones, of course we wouldent realise it for 4 years (and longer for some) they were the ones that were smart enought to say that the cast zigraut was a bad idea, aafter a while my click in the hurde saw the oupertunity to raise in the ranks, at the expence of me. i was out of the system, and i left the map, it had taken a year and a fall from "grace" to make me want to have the frends i one had, i had not sceen him for a year in that year i defended him when he wasen't there and now i wantes to see if what i had said was the truth. but even then, he was no where to be found, i never did find him. and to this day we realy don't have a good idea of what hapend to the boy who wore nail polosh in grade 2

if i could talk to him, and i wish i could i would tell him that we don't judge him, or at least enought of us don't, i would tell him to rember there will alawsa be those who require confonmadity in all fourms, alawas those who wear there feer and ingroance as it were a bage of pride, and i would ask him to come back to the school he should never have left