I want to scream until no sound comes out and you've learned your lesson I want to swallow these pills to get to sleep So I don't have to make a bad impression I need to start to be myself Because I'm sick of everybody else
I close my eyes and picture what couldve been
I close off my heart and dont let anyone in
I continue to count every breathe i take
I keep my heart beating for my families sake
I continue to build up the wall around me
I close my eyes because i dont want to see
I put my hands over my ears not wanting to know
I smile and laugh just to put on a show
I cut myself to know that im there
I cry and scream to know that you care
Im quiet because i am lost in my own head
I sleep all day pretend to be dead
I tell people im okay,that im perfectly sane
but deep inside im suffering from the ongoing pain
Wiping the tears from her eyes.
Some days she feels like dying
And some days its not worth trying.
She gets so sick of crying.
A wall around my heart,a castle for my protection, decayed into a tomb..as dark as my reflection.
"Even though we've changed and are all finding our place in the world,we all know that when the tears fall or the smile comes across our face we will come to each other, because no matter where this crazy world takes us,nothing will come to the point where we are not all still friends."
Memory is a way of holding on to the things we love,the things we are and the things we never want to lose.
Does this darkness have a name? This cruelty, this hatred.How did it find us? Did it steal into our lives or did we seek it out and embrace it? What happened to us? That we now send our children out into the world like we send young men to war, hoping for their safe return but knowing that some will be lost along the way. When did we lose our way? Consumed by the shadows, swallowed whole by the darkness. Does this darkness have a name? Is it your name?
You never know what you have until you lose it, and once you lose it, you can never get it back.
"I always knew that when I looked back on the times I cried I would smile. But I never knew that when I looked back on the times I smiled I would cry."
"Your only lying to yourself when you say you dont care..."
Its hard to hold on to something that you know would never be yours in any way you think of, you just have to learn to let go and face the fact that while good things never last….some don’t even start…..”
Not all scars show, not all wounds heal. Sometimes you can't always see, the pain someone feels
Sometimes it's easier to feel like you're the only one in the world who's struggling, who's frustrated, unsatisfied or barely getting by but that feelings a lie and if you just hold on. Just find the courage to face it all another day, someone or something will find you and make it all ok because we all need a little help sometimes. Someone to help us hear their music in the world. To remind us it won't always be this way. That someone is out there and that some will find you.
"And Hansel said to Gretel, 'Let us drop these breadcrumbs... so that together we find our way home. Because losing our way would be the most cruel of things.' This year.. I lost my way.[/color]
