I fiberglassed at the shop 2 weeks ago. Now the fiberglass is coming out of my skin. FUCK. it itches like crazy. I wore protection but nooooo, it wasn't enough. (T.T)

Only 6 more weeks of school to go. Final project time. For my final I am doing a full orc make-up because that's what inspired to do this as a career.

I will be sculpting the face, neck,ears, and all the armour. Then molding everything in rubber and plaster. Baking the prosthetics in foam latex. The armour will be in fiberglass. I will making the chainmail also.

I have 3 weeks do this before the application day.

yikes yo.

HOLY SHIT. is what i said this morning. followed by OMG OMG omg.
THe shop i apprenticed for last month, phoned me, wanting to know my availability. I'm still in school, but next week is portfolio week so no attenance will be taken, it's basically open lab. So I will work that full week and weekends after that.

Toby also asked when I would graduate, which is soon so I can come back. >.< eeeeeeeeeeeeeekkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk. Plus i get sweet money because it's a new movie about werewolves. (i can't say what mwaahahahah) and overtime fo shoooo. I'm so excited like a giddy girly girl.

Mask is done



36 hours to sculpt.
2 hours to mold.
48 hours to cure the latex.
16 hours to paint.
several cigarettes.

I have been restless since the last week of august. What did i do the last week of august? i spent it working with the guys who did the SFX makeup for the x-files for 5 season. Toby lindala, my fucking idol. I got to work with him in his shop. I helped make a severed head, a pair of breasts, and a pregnancy belly.

ever since then i have become restless. i smoke like a chimney, i live off of coffee and i have nightmares almost every night. if not, then they are at least bad dreams. i snap easily and am moody.i am strangely consumed by what i do now.

I go to school everyday. for at least 12 hours, or when Charlie kicks me out.

i am in 35 000 dollars of debt. BEAT THAT.
but I like it. i make monsters. that's what i do. and i love it.

I'm going Sin city. Live in Sin city for a year. Then bounce somewhere else. Perhaps new zealand, live with their 40 million sheep. Make monsters there too.

monster. mmm.

1. Three days from now will you have sex?
yep

2. What color are your eyes?
darrk brown

3. What does your second text say and who is it from?
That's good, you're cute too. -Calum

4. How do you think your latest ex feels about you?
Clearly, this is a midlife crisis.

5. Do you like what you see in the mirror?
helll no

6. What are you listening to right now?
by bird

7. What’s one word to describe you?
silly

8. Best memory right now?
driving home with a car full of zombies

10. What makes you laugh?
people

11. Get asked anything ridiculous lately?
all the time

12. What are you doing tomorrow?
probably working on my portfolio

13. What's your msn name?
KERPLUNK

14. What are you wearing right now?
tank top and sweat pants

15. What are you most looking forward to today?
chilling with calum

16. How is your hair?
good i guess?

17. As of today, do you like anyone?
safe to say I love this person.

18. Have you kissed anyone on the lips within the past 24 hours?
No :-(

19. Have you ever been awake for 48 hours?
nope

20. Do you stay friends with your exes?
nope hahaha. their wives would probably come after me bwahaha

21. What are you listening to NOW?
silence

22. Do you like to cuddle?
Yes

23. What are your initals?
C.A.

24. Baseball or football?
neither

25. Married?
no

26. Do people misjudge you?
nopes

27. What's your biggest fear?
scissors. Especially when we are bald caping around the ears, or trimming beards by the lips. FUCK, DON"T CUT ME.

28. How do you feel about chocolate-covered strawberries?
eh, they're alright

30. Europe or the Caribbean?
Europe
31. How do you feel about racism?
hate it, it's stupid

32. Are you drinking anything exciting right now?
no

33. Who was the last person you talked to ?
my mom

34. Name a song that reminds you of old memories?
smack that by eminem hahaha. oh good times.

35. Who do you miss right now?
JAIME CONSTANZO. i miss u babe.

36. Is there someone you really can't stop thinking about?
a few

37. Look outside, how's the weather?
warm

38. Are you jealous of anyone right now?
yu[

39. Did you ever think someone didn't like you, but came to find out they really did?
nope

40. Last time you ate grilled cheese?
couple weeks?

41. Name something great that happened today:
When Elissa said she liked my dailies

42. Do you regret doing something today?
nopes

43. When you think of the rainbow, what pops in your head?
unicorns

44. I'm disappearing from?
eh?

45. What goes best with a soft drink?
diet coke

46. What did you do two nights ago?
watched Wanted

49. When is your next party?
dunno?
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53. Where were you at 3:02 AM this morning?
sleeping in my bed.alone

59. What was the first thing you thought this morning?
FUCKkkkk. school.

61. What are your plans for this weekend?
nothin but portfolio stuff.

64. Coke or Pepsi?
coke

66. What do you dislike at the moment?
how i have to move campuses soon

67. What did you dream last night?
don't remember

68. What's the last thing on TV you watched?
I don't have cable so i don't remember

69. What is your favorite piece of jewlery?
Some white hoop earings

70. Name 1 person on your Top Friends who is the most like you?
Heather.probably

71. Do you always lock your bedroom door?
nope

72. Are you on any medication?
nope

73. Have you ever cut your own hair?
yes

74. What is your favorite frozen treat?
mint icecream

75. How many tattoos do you have?
just 2

76. Where's your favorite place to be?
the cambie

77. Is there someone you haven't seen in a while and miss?
yeahh

78. When was the last text you sent?
just now

79. Do you care what people think about you?
No, i used to though.

81. Last new person you met?
just today.

82. Did you work today?
everyday is like work

83. Have you ever moshed?
yes

87. What do you smell like right now?
i dunno

89. Do you like ketchup?
a lot

90. What do you tell yourself when times get hard?
just get it done

92. What color is your pillow case?
green

94. Who was the last person you saw without clothes on? my boyfriend lol

95.What should you be doing now?
sleeping

96. Have you ever been to California/Chicago?
nope

97. What is the thing that you would most like to change about you?
lots of things

98. Have you ever suffered from bulimia, anorexia, etc.
nope

99. What celebrities do people say you look like?
none

100. Does it annoy you when someone says they'll call but don't?
not really

101. Who are you talking to right now?
no one

3rd week of being vegetarian. phew. still going

I have my pratical exam tomorrow.

I have to do an alien with wax construction. FUCK. egads. Stan marks hard but break after woo. meaning drinking. FinALLY.

gah, I am bored.
It is easter sunday, and i have no bunnies or chocolates.
i do have rum tho. har.ar.ar.

I crashe my dad's truck the other day. The same day I said goodbye to my own car. On top of that I have a 3000 tuition fee due in a couple days. This stinks.
Like poop.

My aunt died this morning.
This week sucks. Badly.
Fcuked all the way around.

Gabanna has mites. boo.

Vancouver is sooon. December 27th. . . Fuck, i'm really going to miss people. I dont know what to do sometimes. I know I'm going to go to Vancouver for sure, I don't know if I will be coming back right after or ever. I want this relationship to work, but long distance relationship don't usually work. Fucking hell.

So yeah, i have a snake. Her name is Gabanna. My friend has a snake too, her name is Dolce.

Dolce and Gabanna.

ha. love that shit.

GOING AWAY PARTY December 15th. You all are invited. call me, text, me, or message me.

my pictures were taken down. NIMRODS. It's special effects. phh, shows you how good I am. . . NIMRODS.

VANCOUVER BABY

It's monday, I have a feeling this isn't gonna be a good week.
but i did find this picture
hahaha i would so buy that

1. Taken a picture naked? No.
2. Painted your room? Yes.
3. Made out with a member of the same sex? Yes.
4. Drove a car? Yes
5. Danced in front of your mirror? Yes.
6. Have a crush? Yes
7. Been dumped? Yes
8. Stole money from a friend? No.
9. Gotten in the car with people you didnt know? Yes
10. Been in a fist fight? No
11. Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back? Yes.
12. Had feelings for someone of the same sex? Yes
13. Been arrested? No
14. Made out with a stranger? No
15. Met up with a member of the opposite sex somewhere? Yes.
16. Left your house with out telling your parents? Yes.
17. Had a crush on your neighbor? No
18. Ditched school to do something more fun? Yes.
19. Slept (not had sex) in a bed with a member of the same sex? Yes.
20. Seen someone die? Yes.
21. Been on a plane? Yes.
22. Kissed a picture? Yes
23. Slept in until 3? Yes.
24. Miss someone right now? Yes.
25. Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by? Yes.
26. Made a snow angel? Yes.
27. Played dress up? Yes
28. Cheated while playing a game? Yes.
29. Been lonely? Yes.
30. Fallen asleep at work/school? Yes.
31. Been to a club? No.
32. Felt an earthquake? No
33. Touched a snake? Yes
34. Ran a red light? No
35. Been suspended from school? No.
36. Had detention? Yes
37. Been in a car accident that you didnt cause? No
38. Hated the way you look? Yes.
39. Witnessed a crime? No
39. Been the person doing the crime? No
40. Pole danced? No.
41. Been lost? Yes
42. Been to the opposite side of the country? Yes
43. Felt so sick you thought you might die? No
44. Cried yourself to sleep? Yes.
46. Sang karaoke? Yes.
47. Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? Yes
48. Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? No
49. Caught a snowflake on your tongue? Yes.
50. Kissed in the rain? No.
51. Sang in the shower? Yes.
52. Had sex in a park? No.
53. Had a dream where you were married? No.
54. Glued your hand to something? No
55. Got your tongue stuck to a flag pole? No.
56. Ever gone to school partially naked? No.
57. Been a cheerleader? No.
58. Sat on a roof top? Yes.
59. Didn't take a shower for a week? No
60. Ever too scared to watch scary movies alone? Yes
61. Played chicken? Yes.
62. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? No.
64. Broken a bone? Yes.
65. Been easily amused? Yes.
66. Laughed so hard you cried? Yes.
67. Mooned/flashed someone? Yes.
68. Cheated on a test? Yes.
69: Forgotten someones name? Yes
70. Slept naked? No
71. Gone skinny dipping? No
73. Blacked out from drinking? No
74. Played a prank on someone? No
75. Gone to a late night movie? Yes.
76. Made love to anything not human? No.
77. Failed a class? Yes.
78. Choked on something you're not supposed to eat? No.
79. Played an instrument for more than 10 hours? Yes
80. Been cheated on? No
81. Did you celebrate the 4th of July? No.
82. Thrown strange objects? Yes.
83. Felt like killing someone? Yes.
84. Felt like running away? Yes.
85. Ran away? Yes
86. Did drugs? Yes
87. Had detention and not attend it? Yes.
89. Made a parent cry? Yes.
90. Cried about someone? Yes.
91. Had sex with more than one person in a 24 hour period? No.
92. Dated someone you didn't even like? Yes.
93. Had/Have a dog? Yes.
95. Own an instrument? Yes.
96. Been in band? No
97. Drank 25 sodas in a day? No
98. Broken a CD? Yes.
99. Shot a gun? No.
100. Had feelings for one of your best/good friends? No