~LADY~
"Wasted, paralyzed I need ten thousand layers of disguise Built to save What's left that has already worn away"
"it doesn't feel right, holding someone elses hand, together on phone lines, and living in two opposite ends"
so I guess this is where I tell you about me?
as the world is, I am ever changing.
I change my mind as often as I change my clothes
my style depends on my mood that day
sometimes I am referred to as a kandi kid
I don't really like this
as soon as I am associated with a "kandi kid"
people make a stereo type of who I am by what I look like
or what type of music I listen to
I have to many layers to be just one type of person
I am a generally happy person
but I am jaded towards many parts of the world
I as most people start off
used to think I could save the world from itself
but I have lost sight of that goal
so I try to make my world a better place
I try to surround myself with amazing people
but everyone has faults and even the most amazing person you know
can bring you down
one persons fault can cause to the destruction of the people around them
I try to distance myself from many people
I have so many friends I would like to get to know
but for me to get to know you
you have to prove yourself reliable
trustworthy
I am not going to take the time to get to know you and let you know me
if all i have see of you is turning your back on people.
friends are a very big part of my life
they help bring the best and worst out of me
they help me get to know myself even if I don't want to see what I have done.
I as every person have done things I regret.
well not regret, because these things have made me learn who I am as a person
without these mistakes I wouldn't be me
as any person wouldn't be without their faults.
I have lied and cheated
knowing that people have done the same to me
I have turned my back on friends
as they have to me
I try to be a nice person
but you can't be perfect all of the time.
I, as many people have before, have tried to find a secret to life
i found no secret
I have come to the conclusion that to live is to wait
we can't wait to grow up,
we can't wait to go to a new school,
we can't wait for the next vacation,
we can't wait for the next party,
life is waiting for a reward
once we get our reward we start waiting for the next big thing
it may be the next party, then next day, the new friend... a new life
I want to stop waiting
I am trying to live in the moment
but it is human nature to wait
I do my best to have fun in the now
to have the best conversation with who I am with at the time
to have to most meaningful days
as one of my friends Luke said everyday just keeps getting better
life is what you make of it
it's a rollercoaster of ups and downs
you just have to look at it as if the grass is greener on your side
and if it isn't you need to change sides