Hope is my obsession
Music is my weapon
Love's my ammunition
PEACE is my mission!!
Tear up the dancefloor not eachother now children!!!!
so if one of my plans does not work I have a new one...
One that I like wayyyy more!
If i perchance don't get this job... (doubtful)
and I do sell my horse...
I will be getting my passport and a work visa and going to Austrailia
I have been planning to go in the future anyways
but whats this point in waiting around for life to happen
I'm not all that happy here
sure I'm living but i'm not really alive right now
I just go through day to day life knowing I need a change and i never go through with it...
so if I don't get this job I should be our of here before Xmas... not 2 years from now..
I have the money for it... and finding work would be easy...
if I really wanted to I could jump on a plane in a month...
I just don't know if I can let go that easily...
I have just reached a point in my life where i am a part of a great group of friends... the family I have made for myself and i'm scared that if and when I do leave that i will lose all of them...
can people please send me some good song names
I have a FM transmitter now for my car
-sometimes I feel as if I give and give and give and never get anything back...
-you really learn who your friends are around your birthday
- I have learnt that just because I may like someone they may still be bad for me
- I've learnt that I need to need to find something new... maybe new friends... a new home.. a new job... I need to reinvent myself
I wanted to thank all of my amazing friends who came out for my birthday party this weekend
and I wanted to thank everyone for the birthday wishes you sent
it has made this birthday the best birthday I have ever had
you have all made it so special
Degree
Agent Orange
Battery
Brohans
Tianna J
All Out DJ’s
Da Phuture Dj’s
Roofio
Jared
Cobra Commander
Robin Banks
Agent Orange
Battery
Travis Mateison
Donovan
Erin Eden
This party is an all night 5 room mega bash at Starlite Room and Y Afterhours.
Doors at 9pm [ Starlite & Temple]
1am [ Y Afterhours ]
Tickets are $25 in advance avaliable at - Ticketmaster, Foosh, FS, Soular, Blackbyrd.
Buy online at www.ticketmaster.com
*** Paid entry to ZTRIP at Starlite Room will get you into Y Afterhours for $5***
***Please be informed that due to the changes with the new Facebook, we were unable to change the host. This event is hosted by OH SNAP and FS Skate shop. Not Soul'd out Dj's. This event was created to inform our friends as to where we are playing in hopes to bring more people to the event.
time doesn't make things easier...
you just don't think about it as much...
oh goodie my mom wants me to join a support group because I'm depressed this week... have you not seen the god damn cycle every year... I hate my birthday
only a few more days to get through
four more days for me to get through
thats all I need to do...
the only trouble is. the more I try to make things not phase me the more things that go wrong
at work I'm trying to be happy and such throughout the day
but I keep on getting thrown curve balls
usually these would piss me off
but on the outside they don't
on the inside I want to crawl in a whole until the 28th
it's almost done
it's almost over
I had a really good talk with Steven yesterday
talked about how we partied too hard this summer and need to take a break..
it got a bit depressing cause well we had been drinking.
and well i got talking about my birthday and why I hate it.....
my friends don't understand that I don't want to make it my day and do whatever I want to do
I could have taken my bday off of work ... but chose to work through it because hopefully that will keep my mind off of Heather....
anyways I love you Heather Peggy Mann
I miss you so much
my birthday is in 11 days
excuse me while I lock myself away next week....
I'll be in a better mood after the 27th...
Sham was pretty good
I want to go back
carefree
but it wasn't what I expected
I expected noone to judge
but so many kandi kids were discriminated against
I don't understand it
I know I'm not a kandi kid
or a hippy
I'm just me
and i hang out with people with all different personalities and lifestyles
I don't understand why people at Shambhala would discriminate
that is supposed to be a place where you are truely yourself
oh well I still had fun
I would do a lot of things differently next year
-camp in the trees
-don't party in the first few days
-make a costume
-drive there with one other person not a car load
I post this for myself... just a pointless ramble
just how a song is making me feel
I'm a little lost
but I know I will find myway
no need to read it
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vI2piuxgRVo&NR=1
haven't heard this song in a while
I love it...
I keep listening to it...
deeper than words
well what it says... I'm taking it in a different way
I need to remember to love myself
yes I want to feel loved
but I know I need to truely love myself and fix this broken road I am on in order to feel loved by another
I need to stop being a weekend warrior
I need to look for fun during the week not just wait until the weekend is here to have fun and dread the week
I need to find my real friends
not friends who I party with
but friends who I can just call to talk to
or spend time with
there is no need to go out every weekend
I need to keep reminding myself of this
Shambhala was truely awesome
different than I expected
I wish I was better rested ofter motion for Sham
I miss the carefreeness of those parties already
I want to live in a society that is more relaxed
and you aren't always running off of your feet
somewhere where you take time for yourself
after this summer I have realized how broken I am
I feel as if I want a relationship
but I'm so scared of getting hurt that whenever a chance comes along I fuck thngs up
I need to learn to love myself
and take chances
really let go of my fears and go for what I want
never second guess myself
I need to take control again
and make a life formyself
delayed gratification
go to school
get a carreer not just
work hard until it's time to party
that won't get me anywhere
home from sham
a lot of things need to change
I need to get back on track
register for school in the winter
so many times what the fuck!!!!!
hahaha
tequitos!!!!!
noises in the bush!!!!
yay for JEM and JAM nights
