I might not be perfect but im always me. i love to sing and i love music. i like sad songs lol i dont know why. alot has happened in my past..some things i try to forget about. but these memories just come to me everyday. i feel like breaking down and crying. but i hold my head up high and hope for a better tomorrow.
there is very few people in this world that i trust and the people i do know who they are. but my only question is: what do you do when someone you care about so much sometimes doesnt give a fuck. and wants to give up, why do you always end up feeling like shit, knowing you did nothing wrong? and why does everything..E.V.E.R.Y.T.H.I.N.G..seem so hard and so out of place??

I shall never be forgiven for all my faults, By man nor god nor any good thing. But this I know: I am not here for grace, nor pardon, nor to give them. My way is through shadow, blackness on the path, and in my heart, in my eyes, and in my soul. My fate... unknown. My destiny... my own.

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john


*ALL I HAVE TO GIVE* You're the first thing i think of each morning when i rise. You're the last thing i think of each night when i close my eyes. You're in each thought i have and every breath i take. My feelings are growing stronger w/ every move i make. I want to prove i love you but thats the hardest part. so im giving all i have to give To you...i give my heart

sooo there is this guy, his
name is john and he completely stole my heart...
♥♥♥



IF I KNEW
If I knew it would be the last time
That I'd see you fall asleep,
I would tuck you in more tightly
and pray the Lord, your soul to keep.
If I knew it would be the last time
that I see you walk out the door
I would give you a hug and kiss
and call you back for one more.
If I knew it would be the last time
I'd hear your voice lifted up in praise,
I would video tape each action and word,
so I could play them back day after day.
If I knew it would be the last time,
I could spare an extra minute
to stop and say "I love you,"
instead of assuming you would KNOW I do.
If I knew it would be the last time
I would be there to share your day,
Well I'm sure you'll have so many more,
so I can let just this one slip away.
For surely there's always tomorrow
to make up for an oversight,
and we always get a second chance
to make everything just right.
There will always be another da
to say "I love you,"
And certainly there's another chance
to say our "Anything I can do?"
But just in case I might be wrong,
and today is all I get,
I'd like to say how much I love you
and I hope we never forget.
Tomorrow is not promised to anyone,
young or old alike,



Chris: you are my brother and we have gone
through so much together.. i know we fight
sometimes, but in the end i just want you to know
that friends come and go..but family lasts forever!!!
and that no matter what happends you have a place
in my heart, i will not judge what you have to say,
i will listen..i might not always be able to help...
but im here!!....xoxo all my love hun!!![/b]




somewhere out there, dreams really do come true


The girl who seemed unbreakable. . . Broke
The girl who seemed so strong. . . Crumbled
The girl who always laughed it off. . .Cried
The girl who would never stop trying. . .Finally gave up


But what happens when karma, turns right around and bites you?
And everything you stand for, turns on you, despite you?
What happens when you become the main source of a pain?



I Hate How There Is Always That One Special Person,
That No Matter What They Do to you,
And How Bad Thay Break Your Heart...
you Still Love Them With All The Little Peices.....

And today may be the last chance
you get to hold your loved one tight.
So if you're waiting for tomorrow,
why not do it today?
For if tomorrow never comes,
you'll surely regret the day,
That you didn't take that extra time
for a smile, a hug, or a kiss
and you were too busy to grant someone,
what turned out to be their one last wish.
So hold your loved ones close today,
and whisper in their ear,
Tell them how much you love them
and that you'll always hold them dear
Take time to say "I'm sorry,"
"Please forgive me," "Thank you," or "It's okay."
And if tomorrow never comes,
you'll have no regrets about today[/font]

and i just love him...