For the most part, there comes a time in a person's life where shit just starts making sense. You realize why the few people that are happy, are the way are. Stupid little love songs become beautiful and you can listen to them over and over again. You can just close your eyes and find peace. The funny thing is that just when things seemed like they couldn't get any worse; life did a comeplete 360 and now it seems like it can't get any better. Nothing can take away your high and you don't want it to end. Unfortunately life doesn't work that way, but for those that realize how short that breif moment of absolute happiness is, they can take the time to enjoy every passing moment of it. For that period of time, no matter how brief or long, you learn what love is. This love though, isn't just for a single person, place or thing, but actually for your entire surroundings. You see beauty in everything and learn to truly love and be at peace. So smell the roses, taste the whine, and breathe in that scent that makes you float on cloud nine. And when the moment comes where things aren't the same anymore, you can look back and see why life was beautiful and push through to find that peace and love again.
Growing up Isnt about having fun, getting drunk, falling in love or even moving out. Growing up is more than that .it's about what happens when the fun is over, the morning after, and getting your heart broken. It's about making mistakes, big ones. You can't grow up until you've made those mistakes, cause god knows where'd we be if we didn't make any. More importantly growing up is about learning. It's about being able to get back up on your feet and not letting something like a broken heart or a hangover or even a little bit of debt get in your way. Nothing is perfect but it's only when you can admit to your mistakes, take a deep breath and keep moving forward, that you can live the closest thing to a perfect life. Carpe diem baby.
Is it wrong that i just tried killing myself...
You dirty piece of shit.. You will NEVER love her as much as I do. NEVER.
I just want to stab something!
I know my voice is silence to your ears
I know I said some things you didn't deserve to hear
I miss you, God I miss you, why do I miss you?
I lie awake at night kicking at the sheets
No matter how much I try they never cover my feet
I need you, God I need you, why do I?
I finally gathered up the strength
To get through my days
[Chorus]
You lift me up
(Just to let me down)
You lift me up
(Just to let me down)
You call me on the phone to try to see if I'm at home
You play with my emotions; give me some kind of hope
I miss you, God I miss you, why do I?
I finally gathered up the strength
To get through these lonely, lonely nights
[Chorus]
You've got me desperate and confused
And my confidence is thrown
I'd rather be miserable with you
Than ever be alone
You're free, of me
You lift me up
(Just to let me down)
I will change the way I talk
I will change the way I feel
I will change the way I walk
Until nothing left is real
I will change the way I call your name
I will change the way I eat
I will change the way I touch you
When you're lying there asleep
Because I miss you
God I miss you, I miss you
Return to me
Return to me
I will change everything
The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere
'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you, dear
'Cause I wish you were here
I'll watch the night turn light-blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly
The silence isn't so bad
'Til I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly
I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
'Cause cold nostalgia
Chills me to the bone
But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because
When I think of you I don't feel so alone
I don't feel so alone, I don't feel so alone
As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight
I'll think of you tonight
When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again
And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh, if my voice could reach
Back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear
Oh darling, I wish you were here
It really sucks how i'm Not "allowed" to talk to you anymore
SO this weekend i got way to high and sat in the walmart parking lot alone listening to pink floyd for 3 hours =]
They do shit to your mind. They never know what they want and when you try to give them what they think they want, they want something else.
KDR Before justin= 2.10
KDR After justin= 0.81
and now I hear you found somebody new
and that I never meant that much to you
To hear that tears me up inside
And to see you cuts me like a knife
I guess
Every rose has its thorn
Just like every night has its dawn
Just like every cowboy sings his sad, sad song
Every rose has its thorn
and whats on my mind ?
Do not make me think of him
The way he touched your fragile skin
That haunts me every day
I'm out of love but I can't forget the past
I'm out of words but I'm sure it'll never last
I've been saving these last words for one last miracle
But now I'm not sure
I can't save you if you don't let me
You just get me like I've never been gotten before
Like I've never been gotten before
"He who fights with monsters might take care lest he thereby become a monster... And if you gaze for long into an abyss, the abyss gazes also into you"
-Friedrich Nietzsche
