RIP Barbara Dawn Burt........
November 9, 1958 - May 24, 2002
When I look at blogs of people hating they're mothers and wishing they were dead, makes me want to cry because they have no idea how hard it
is without a mom. Looking back on the past, I can't remember much about her except that she was amazing and whenever I talk to my dad he always
tells me how she lit up a room whenever she walked into a room or even just with her smile. I wish I could remember what that smile looked like and
how everything used to be. Sure I've got pictures but do I have memories? No, barely any. The only thing I can remember is when one day she called
me in to have a bath and I refused so she ran down the stairs and chased me around the yard until she finally caught me because I couldn't breathe
from laughing so hard. That is the clearest memory I've got of her but one other memory that isn't so clear was when she would drive me to preschool
and everyday on the way there she'd blast the dixie chicks. Both of us knew every single word and would sing the whole way there. At this point in my
life, I really need her the most and it kills me to see people taking them for granted. I would do anything to have a mother right now, but not just any
mother, I want her. I need her. Its unbelievable how long its been already and it seems that just yesterday she was with us. I know that shes in a better
place but it hurts me so much to know that shes never coming back and theres nothing I can do about it. When she was sick, I'd pray everyday and
everynight for her to get better but even though I tried my hardest, it wasn't good enough. Sometimes I think theres something I could have done
but I know I couldn't have, I was only 6. I still remember when my dad told Cameron and I that she wa going to die, Aunty Rhonda came to my kindergarten class and I was really happy to see her. She drove us back to our house and my dad was sitting on the couch right beside me watching me draw rainbows
while watching cartoons but little did I know that what he had to say would change my life forever. I know one thing, I would rather have had me die than
her. She had so much going for her and I was just young. I miss you so much mom and want to be with you right now. But one very important thing you
taught me is to live life to the fullest because anything can happen, I'm not going to let anyone get to me and I don't care what people think of me; I'm my
own person just like you were and I thank you so much for that. You meant the world to me and I hope you know that you'll never be forgotton. I love you!
♥ ♥ ♥
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