Never trust a David Bowie you don't know.
They will destroy the world.
It's spring break '05 all over again.
Except instead of posting on Nexopia forums and drawing on my wall,
I'm meditating and reading and writing on them.
And instead of being a lameass,
I get fucked up every night.
I think I have to take a break pretty soon.
My family has been watching Hellboy 2 all day.
I don't know how you can watch it all day.
I didn't think it was that long.
Hello blog, it's been awhile.
I missed you
Hey what the fuck?
I liked nexopia because it was really basic and shitty.
Why are you trying to compete with facebook; you're not going to be better.
You don't know how to do anything.
Thanks for pixelating my pictures you fucks.
I had all of my pictures lined up so that the strongest point of focus in one picture was in the same place as the point I wanted focus to be drawn to in the preceeding photo.
And now they all look like dick.
God damn it.
Fuck you nexopia.
Fuck you.
I came back with $50 worth of books,
some good luck charms,
and no new messages.
I have a yellow shirt and a broken guitar string
and I'm sure I've felt this lonely,
but I can't remember when.
I'm very ready to be back at school.
Well that was very, very fun.
I've decided to go to BC tonight.
And will see you all sometime in my life after thursday.
Also!
I saw a hooker talk to a man, get in his car, and drive away last night.
Very exciting.
Also!
The bus ride is ten hours long and leaves at 10:30 pm.
Should I be drunk?
Speech after long silence; it is right,
All other lovers being estranged or dead,
Unfriendly lamplight hid under its shade,
The curtains drawn upon unfriendly night,
That we descant and yet again descant
Upon the supreme theme of Art and Song:
Bodily decrepitude is wisdom; young
We loved each other and were ignorant.
Just reading my journal from age 14.
Here are some quotes!
"Why do people care if you say Jesus? It's a name and sure it would suck to have people say your name when bad stuff happens but it would suck more to have people say "don't say that". You would think he was, like, a murderer or something. But I'm guessing he wouldn't mind. He does have people worshiping him."
"Grad was fun. I think the best part was when Tye hit my pop all over Alan, which only kinda sucked because Alan is nice."
"UPDATE:
-I became the second bassist of contradiction
-Their singer was lame and wouldn't sing
-I BECAME THE SINGER OF CONTRADICTION
-Got an electric guitar
-New school
-Art = bitchin (Eyril and Courtney)
-New nicknames: Teeth, Raunch, Big Momma, Sid, Bear (Erik M.)
-Lunch with Tye and Tyler F."
"Tyler and Tye have become good friends and we do something about every week. NO BOOZE and NO DRUGS."
I kind of want to do everything right now.
Like.
I want to read a really good book.
One where I feel like I want the narrator to be real so we can be friends,
but that hasn't happened in awhile,
and I don't even want to read it;
I want it to go in through osmosis.
I really, really want to go clothes shopping or cd shopping
and I want to feel like a badass after,
like when I discovered The Stooges or Neil Young or Sonic Youth
or when I bought my leather jacket.
Except what really want is to shave my fucking head
and get a massage
and not feel like there is dried snot covering my whole body.
I really want to go to a really good party soon.
I don't, however, really want to study for phyc
or think about writing two critical fucking rhetorical essays.
I think I need a good film.
Maybe I will bear the cold wasteland and walk to rogers with my dog.
My stomach feels strange.
My dog keeps shaking.
The pile of books beside my bed keeps growing
and every time I try to read the phone rings.
A big part of me misses the part of me that was against everything.
Lately I feel like being on the phone takes me away from everything else.
I understand more about myself
and human nature
and everyone else,
but sometimes I don't want to.
Sometimes I just feel like reading
or lying on my bed listening to gish,
but the phone keeps ringing
and I keep thinking of all the things I should be thinking about.
I'm not the man I want to be
and I don't think I ever will be entirely,
but that's okay.
Don't get me wrong, I feel great,
but there are a lot of things I don't understand.
I got a cellphone....
477-9459
...
I have been rehearsing for two weeks.
And the play goes up in two weeks.
I am very scared for just about everything right now.
But it makes me very thankful for those who I can fall back on.
I really understand how important it is to have those people in my life.
However, for those feeling left out, I also love you very, very much.
I hadn't realized how many people I am used to having in my life and I miss having you around.
I'm sorry for everyone I have not seen when I should have.
I am too busy.
I expect everyone to come see this play.
Even if I have not talked to you for a bazillion years.
I know you creep my blog.
So come creep the show!
And I will seriously delete you off my friends list if you don't
But probably not for realz.
