Name: Brittany Ann Gloria Lyons (Poulin)
Age: 20 years old
Weight: 169 lbs.
Marital Status: Engaged, soon to be married in the next 6 months =)
Number of Children: 1 gorgeous little 4 month old named Bailey
Living Situation: Living with my amazing Fiance and my beautiful daughter. =)
Mood: Slight post-pardum depression, but otherwise content ^_^

It may be a tough road ahead for my little family, but if we're together, it's nothing we can't handle. I couldn't be any luckier to be with such an amazing man as Jesse, and I feel truly blessed that I have a healthy little girl.

All our hard work in the next six months will pay off. I know it will. We wont have to make any rational decisions. I know we can do it if we work together.

I'm happy, he's happy, my daughter's happy. We have a roof over our heads, and we're getting by slowly but surely. My life couldn't be any better <3

Thoughts blog! =D WOO! Haven't done one in a while. It's about bloody time I do!

• I'm in love with my hair color right now =)
  
• I love you so much ^^
  
• I did mean to tell you sooner. Mom kind of was quicker to the punch than I was. It's not like I'm going to never see you again. I'm not moving out of the country or the province, just up South!
  
• Excited to move in with Jimmey. It should be a little easier for Jesse and I's financial struggle.
  
• I'm really going to miss my Mom if she goes. =( As soon as I have enough money I'm getting a flight out there just to see you Mommy <3
  
• I guess my breastfeeding dream is out the window now =/ Not enough money to eat. It all goes to Bailey's formula. Oh well... Next baby I'm for sure breastfeeding and I'm going to stick to it whether I get sick or not!

Everyone keeps asking me "What's wrong". And every time they ask me, I can't put it into words. I find that when I'm being bombarded with that question, it puts me in a worse mood than I was already in.

Well, this is what's wrong.

I feel as if there's something missing. I should be the happiest person on the planet right now. I have a beautiful baby girl to call my own. Yet I feel like I'm completely out of control.

All I want is to actually hold my daughter, and to bond with her by actually taking care of her. Yet every time I try to do so, someone takes her from me and does all the fucking work. I want to breastfeed. I really do. But every time I feel like I'm ready to do so, someone makes her formula, and then I miss out on bonding with her, which puts me into a depressed mood, and then I don't want to do anything but curl in a ball and cry.

She's supposed to be my daughter. I'm supposed to take care of her. All I've been getting is people taking over the role I'm supposed to be playing, or giving me the offer of babysitting, or people wanting me to leave her with a babysitter so I can go out and go back to my "party-girl" life.

What every one fails to realize is that I WANT TO TAKE CARE OF MY DAUGHTER! I'm sick of everyone doing MY job! I'm supposed to be her Mom, no one else is!

Don't get me wrong, I appreciate the help. BUT I'd appreciate it more if it was needed. When it's not, I feel incompetent. I feel like a bad Mom because no one will give me a chance at being a good one.

THAT, folks, is what's wrong.

I gave birth so I could be a Mom. Not pass the buck to other people because I'm still young.

For some reason, this message really bugs me.. I feel like I should've checked my nex sooner rather than later. Seems like this guy really needed someone to talk to, and I feel like I could've helped him through whatever he was going through. =/

I wish I could sleep. I know I promised I would try to sleep more often, but I just can't. =( I feel tired, but I can't seem to keep my eyes closed. Might as well stay up anyway. If I try to pass out now, Mom won't make it to her appointment, and then she's screwed on trying to get better. All up to Super Brittany once again! =_=

So tired. Thoughts blog? Why not!

• Seeing you the other week? That kind of made my day. You looked like a tool. Made me smile to know that I have someone WAY better now =3
  
• Bailey, Mommy really needs you to get out of breech position and to be birth-ready! Don't make Mommy have a C-section. She don't want no more damn scars on her belly. Aren't the stretch marks enough!?
  
• I'm scared about going back to school. I've missed so much due to this pregnancy. That, and I don't want to be looked at like I'm some kind of Teenage Mom High School Drop Out... Even though I am =/
  
• I really want gummy worms... Or something chewy. DAMN ME NOT HAVING MONEY!
  
• Heat back on? Check. Electricity/Water turned back on? Check. Rent paid? Working on it... Rest of bills paid? ... That "Check" is going to take a while =.=
  
• I don't want to be away from my family for Christmas. I wish I had the money to get Mom something so she isn't so upset about it.
  
• 5 more weeks. The time's going by too fast. =( I need more time to prepare! I don't even have a crib yet, dammit!
  
• DAMN YOU HOT FLASHES! DAMN YOOOOOU!
  
• God I wish she wasn't being so strict. I miss hanging out with you almost every day. Your grandma SUCKS! >=(
  
• Swimming on Saturday with mah bestest best friend ever! I hope my bathing suit still fits...

Let me get this straight... I post a picture of my pregnant stomach, to show off to the world how excited I am to have my daughter... And pervs decide to message me!? FUCK. OFF. SRSLY. =.=

Thoughts blog time! Haven't done this in a while =3

• All settled with my Squishy moving in. I'm happy I get to wake up to him every morning =3
  
• $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$ <--- I Need This Shit. =.=
  
• My family's a piece of CRAP.
  
• God I hope I'm going to be a good Mom... =/
  
• I hope everyone shows up to this baby shower, and it doesn't end up like my birthday =/ Ugh.
  
• Jesse, you have some fucked up music on this laptop... And a shit tonne of Porn... LOL I love you <3
  
• Addicted to Bingo games on Facebook =3
  
• God I wish this kid would get her damn foot out of my rib! OW!
  
• SO many bills, SO little money. =.= Grrrrrrrrrrr
  
• His cheque needs to come in TWO DAYS AGO!
  
• I need moar shmokez..
  
• My rooms messy, but what else is new?
  
• So much for people helping plan this baby shower... I knew I was going to have to do it all myself. Pretty much HAVE done it all by myself. Hell, I'm even making my own damn diaper cake... =/
  
• This bed is too big without you to cuddle up with me =( I miss you...
  
• Oh hai Misses Bo Binder... FIX OUR BATHROOM! I WANT A BATH TO SOOTHE MY CRAMPS DAMMIT!
  
• I want my damn account un-suspended! I'M DYING TO TRY MW3! =(
  
• I want popcorn =/

=) Bailey kicking me makes me smile. Her, my loving fiancee, my best friend and my mom are the reason I have the motivation to make my life better. No one can take away my happiness right now. Everything in my life is perfect <3

GIRL SURVEY
Bold anything that applys to you.

i'm heterosexual
I'm homosexual
I'm bisexual
I'm bicurious
I do wear make up
When I walk by mirrors, I can't help but look.
I wear toe nail polish sometimes
I have cried at a movie theater.
I've purposely talked to a guy/girl my boyfriend/girlfriend didn't like.
I love chocolate covered pretzels.
Getting a flower makes me smile, especially for no reason
I've wrecked a car
I can't put mascara on without opening my mouth
I'd do anything for that special guy/girl
I can get jealous easily
I love cuddling
I think Johnny Depp is sexy
I've gotten a detention
I've gotten suspended
I've gotten expelled
I've gotten kicked out of a class
I love to laugh
I like rock
I Like death/grind/black metal
I like rap
I like techo
I carry a purse everywhere
I carry a bag everywhere
I'd be lost without my cell phone
I'd be lost without my ipod in general
I own/did own a Spice Girls CD
I own/did own a Britney Spears CD
I own/did own a boy band CD
Football isn't boring
I like athletic boys
I like skater guys
I like punk guys
I like gangsta guys
I like emo guys
I like gothic guys
I like guys that are just themselves
I like guys with long hair, but not too long
Guys are confusing
I've been called a tease
I've been called a slut
I've been called a bad influence
Lip gloss is better than lipstick
I can't leave the house without makeup
I play video games, even when there are other people around
I would do anything for my friends.
I want to be with a certain someone right now
I am dating a boy right now.
I drink too much
I have a tattoo
I have 2 or more piercings
I have been to 5 or more concerts

I like how ever since I've let out the news that I'm pregnant, almost everyone has decided that I'm no longer a friend. Everyone seems to have forgotten about me... My best friend never calls because she doesn't like the fact I'm with my fiancee 24/7, my best guy friend has barely talked to me, not to mention never even tries to hang out with me. I feel like the people I used to call close friends have completely left me in the dirt. I may be pregnant, and I know no one likes it. But I expected my best friends to be a LOT more supportive than this.

GOD! To think we used to be like sisters.

Don't play Miss. Know-it-all JUST because you got knocked up by some low-life who won't get a job to support your kid. Stupid bitch. Just wait until you can't handle it anymore. I bet it's your Mom who does all the fucking work while you sit and starve yourself 'cause your so body conscious.

SO glad you're not my blood relation. T_T

Bailey Kathleen Rose Poulin <3

Jason Alexander Leo Poulin <3

My baby names are the cutest xD