Hi, Mommy.

I'm your baby. You don't know me yet, I'm only a few weeks old. You're going to find out about me soon, though, I promise. Let me tell you some things about me. My name is John, and I've got beautiful brown eyes and black hair. Well, I don't have it yet, but I will when I'm born. I'm going to be your only child, and you'll call me your one and only. I'm going to grow up without a daddy mostly, but we have each other. We'll help each other, and love each other. I want to be a doctor when I grow up.

You found out about me today, Mommy! You were so excited, you couldn't wait to tell everyone. All you could do all day was smile, and life was perfect. You have a beautiful smile, Mommy. It will be the first face I will see in my life, and it will be the best thing I see in my life. I know it already. ... Today was the day you told Daddy. You were so excited to tell him about me! ...He wasn't happy, Mommy. He kind of got angry. I don't think that you noticed, but he did. He started to talk about something called wedlock, and money, and bills, and stuff I don't think I understand yet. You were still happy, though, so it was okay. Then he did something scary, Mommy. He hit you. I could feel you fall backward, and your hands flying up to protect me. I was okay... but I was very sad for you. You were crying then, Mommy. That's a sound I don't like. It doesn't make me feel good. It made me cry, too. He said sorry after, and he hugged you again. You forgave him, Mommy, but I'm not sure if I do. It wasn't right. You say he loves you... why would he hurt you? I don't like it, Mommy.
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Finally, you can see me! Your stomach is a little bit bigger, and you're so proud of me! You went out with your mommy to buy new clothes, and you were so so so happy. You sing to me, too. You have the most beautiful voice in the whole wide world. When you sing is when I'm happiest. And you talk to me, and I feel safe. So safe. You just wait and see, Mommy. When I am born I will be perfect just for you. I will make you proud, and I will love you with all of my heart.

I can move my hands and feet now, Mommy. I do it because you put your hands on your belly to feel me, and I giggle. You giggle, too. I love you, Mommy.

Daddy came to see you today, Mommy. I got really scared. He was acting funny and he wasn't talking right. He said he didn't want you. I don't know why, but that's what he said. And he hit you again. I got angry, Mommy. When I grow up I promise I won't let you get hurt! I promise to protect you. Daddy is bad. I don't care if you think that he is a good person, I think he's bad. But he hit you, and he said he didn't want us. He doesn't like me. Why doesn't he like me, Mommy?

You didn't talk to me tonight, Mommy. Is everything okay?

It's been three days since you saw Daddy. You haven't talked to me or touched me or anything since that. Don't you still love me, Mommy? I still love you. I think you feel sad. The only time I feel you is when you sleep. You sleep funny, kind of curled up on your side. And you hug me with your arms, and I feel safe and warm again. Why don't you do that when you're awake, any more?

I'm 21 weeks old today, Mommy. Aren't you proud of me? We're going somewhere today, and it's somewhere new. I'm excited. It looks like a hospital, too. I want to be a doctor when I grow up, Mommy. Did I tell you that? I hope you're as excited as I am. I can't wait.

Mommy, I'm getting scared. Your heart is still beating, but I don't know what you are thinking. The doctor is talking to you. I think something's going to happen soon. I'm really, really, really scared, Mommy. Please tell me you love me. Then I will feel safe again. I love you!

Mommy, what are they doing to me!? It hurts! Please make them stop! It feels bad! Please, Mommy, please please help me! Make them stop!

Don't worry Mommy, I'm safe. I'm in heaven with the angels now. They told me what you did, and they said it's called an abortion.

Why, Mommy? Why did you do it? Don't you love me any more? Why did you get rid of me? I'm really, really, really sorry if I did something wrong, Mommy. I love you, Mommy! I love you with all of my heart. Why don't you love me? What did I do to deserve what they did to me? I want to live, Mommy! Please! It really, really hurts to see you not care about me, and not talk to me. Didn't I love you enough? Please say you'll keep me, Mommy! I want to live smile and watch the clouds and see your face and grow up and be a doctor. I don't want to be here, I want you to love me again! I'm really really really sorry if I did something wrong. I love you!

I love you, Mommy.

Every abortion is just…

One more heart that was stopped.

Two more eyes that will never see.

Two more hands that will never touch.

Two more legs that will never run.

One more mouth that will never speak.

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By Lana Michelin - Red Deer Advocate

Published: May 04, 2011 6:51 AM
A Rocky Mountain House teenager described clicking a pen-like device several times before — to his shock and disbelief — it fatally discharged a .22 calibre bullet into his friend’s chest.

Connor Rose, who was 16 at the time of Tanner Mayer’s death in September 2009, said he thought the altered flare pen, which had rolled out from under the driver’s seat of his father’s parked pickup truck while he was sitting at the steering wheel, was a regular pen.

Connor said he’d never seen it before.

“I clicked it a few times. It didn’t do anything. I brought it down halfway. Nothing would happen. I put it down further and that’s when it shot off,” said the now 18-year-old, who testified at his father’s trial at Red Deer’s Court of Queen’s Bench on Tuesday.

Connor’s dad, James Alexander Rose, 42, is charged with criminal negligence causing the death of Mayer, who was 15 when he was killed.

The elder Rose is also charged with careless use of a prohibited device. But a third charge, of manufacturing a prohibited device, was dropped by Crown prosecutor Jason Snider on Tuesday because proof was lacking that it was Rose who altered the device to fire a bullet instead of a flare.

The accused maintains he did not know the flare pen had been modified.

James Rose told police it was among a bunch of items he had quickly transferred to his new truck after trading in his old one a few weeks before.

Mayer had been sitting in the front passenger seat of Connor’s dad’s new pickup when he was struck in the left chest by the .22 calibre bullet. It passed through his heart and aorta, lodging in his right lung and causing massive internal bleeding.

Ryley Murray, a friend of Tanner and Connor’s, testified that he’d been walking towards the pickup parked in front of his house when he heard a loud bang. He saw Tanner stumble out of the truck and collapse on the lawn with a chest injury.

Murray ran inside his house to tell his mother, Bobbi Jo Feil, who called 911.

Feil testified about the commotion around her as she was compressing Mayer’s chest. The teenager was still breathing at the time, but bleeding heavily.

In an agreed statement of facts, Feil said Connor told her, while holding the flare pen, “Oh my God, he is shot, he is shot. I don’t know what this is.”

Several neighbours came out to help before emergency services arrived.

Connor immediately called his father, then appeared to go into shock, pacing around the vehicle, recalled Feil.

When asked to call 911 again, in case the ambulance got lost, Connor “was very upset. He began yelling 911! 911! . . . I thought he was losing it,” she said.

Neighbour Eric MacInnis was drawn outside by loud shouting, which turned out to be Connor’s agitated father, who had arrived at the scene with his visiting brother Victor Rose, and was seen holding the flare pen.

“He was saying ‘He’ll be alright! He’ll be OK!’ Those kinds of things,” testified MacInnis, who at one point led James Rose away to try to calm him down.

Feil and MacInnis both testified that they heard the elder Rose say it was the flare pen that caused Mayer’s injury.

Several parents who knew the Roses through Connor’s hockey involvement, also heard as much when they stopped in to support the family that evening after hearing of Mayer’s death.

Tammy Lee Brosinsky testified that James Rose told her he couldn’t believe the accident had happened, since he had previously tried to set the flare pen off “about 50 times,” but it jammed. “He thought it was a dud.”

Tammy Davis heard the accused say he’d tried to use the flare pen while hunting, but it didn’t work.

Ken Cinnamon said James Rose told him he felt responsible for the accident because he did not think to get rid of the device.

Rocky RCMP officers arrested the accused in November 2009 after searching his home and finding loose .22 calibre bullets in a basket in his kitchen.

Connor testified that his father did not own any guns to his knowledge, and hadn’t done much hunting since moving to Alberta from B.C. a decade ago.

Several members of the Mayer family, who attended the trial, became emotional during some of the testimony.

More witnesses are expected to be called today.