NIN WAS AWESOME.

Wave goodbye

NIN in 30 days fucking pigssssssssssssssssssssssss!

MARCH
21st - Opeth
30th - The Sisters of Mercy

I have to apologize for the way I feel

Sweet lovely death I am waiting for your breath!

You think you're evil but you're not
Still sucking life from the mainstream
It's so deluded, give it up
What's that you hide behind your pile of shit?
Could it be that I have given up?
feeling blind to all important scenes
It's so deluded give it up
it's unoriginal.
Find out exactly what is meant
to be abducted in between
another moment documents
the fleeting magic of what could have been.
Could it be that I have given up?
feeling blind to all important scenes
It's so deluded give it up
it's unoriginal.
I'm sitting on the back porch
so you can make my topic noting, it's all relevant, what?
You want a seat on the back of my porch
to talk and wave a gun,
come touch my property, rape my bitch
rape my property as if you made a hitch,
wake up and I feel like shit
It's all right,
it's all right,
[music drowns out lyrics]
It's so deluded give it up
it's unoriginal
Could it be that I have given up?
feeling blind to all important scenes
It's so deluded give it up
it's unoriginal.
It's so deluded give it up
it's unoriginal.

A mother sings a lullaby to a child
Sometime in the future the boy goes wild
And all his nerves are feeling some kind of energy
A walk in the woods and I will try
Something under the trees that made you cry
It's so erotic when your make up runs
I got wiring loose inside my head
I got books that I never ever read
I got secrets in my garden shed
I got a scar where all my urges bled
I got people underneath my bed
I got a place where all my dreams are dead
Swim with me into your blackest eyes
A few minutes with me inside my van
Should be so beautiful if we can
I'm feeling something taking over me

1-1-2029, the stars are shining bright




1 - 1-2029, tonight the stars are shining bright

I'd like to thank my buddies for sticking the knife in my back.
I'd like to thank my buddies for twisting the knife in my back.

HOLY SHIT I TALKED TO AL (the singer of MINISTRY) for over 20 minutes!
ok, so from the beginning!
yesterday I went to see Ministry live. Its their last tour, so I had to see them!
And also - I had to be in the first row : p.
Well, Im quite small, so it was extremely hard to get to the very front, but after like 3 songs, I finally made it! (well, couldnt sleep at night, I have bruises all over my body - seriously, even on my back!)
And then, the guitarist of Ministry started pointing his finger at me. I just thought that he was pointing at someone else. Well - I was wrong!
So, 2 songs before the end of the concert , he goes up to one of those security bastards and asks him to freaking bring me in!
So that guy comes up to me ( there was a seriously wild, wild crowd, I'm glad Im actually alive), takes me like over to the other side, like in front of the barriers and that guitarist.. takes me on the fucking stage!!!!
Then he goes like: oh, you're so cute, blah blah blah (men...), I couldnt not notice you, you were just such a fighter out there with all these men!
I was like: hooooly
then I talked to him for like 3 minutes, and then I was like: ccould you sign this for me?
and then he signed like a big piece of paper, and was like: did you bring your camera with you? Well, I didnt...
And he was like: I have a camera, its in our tour bus. (I guess he thought that I was a groupie).
Well, I followed him to that bus and then he gave me water (I was so thirsty!)
and then I saw where Al and the rest of the band sleeps, eats, fucks, just pretty much everything!
And then he was like: oh, I have to take a shower, why dont you just go with me, Ill introduce you to Al, we'll have a couple of drinks..( by the way, I was pretty wasted)
We both forgot about the camera : (
but then, Im like entering that room, and there's the entire freaking band in there!
My jaw dropped!
And Al goes like: oh, you're that girl that I was looking at! It's impossible not to notice you! (que? lol)
and then I talked to the band (mostly to Al, he's such a nice guy, he doesn't behave like a spoiled star or anything like that : )
He also said that he saw me that day around 1 pm, and he remembered me!
Then he was like: you're underage, right?
Im like: yeah
And hes like: thats sad!
and then I was just so happy, so many things were just running through my head every second, I was asking so many questions!
Then my friends called me and were like: where are you?
I was like: Ill tell you in a sec, im coming back to you guys
and then I took out that paper I had and got it signed by all the band members!
with dedication!
And Al drew a big heart over my name ; D
Then the gutarist asked for my email ( I gave it to him, but I dont believe he'll ever write anything). Well, Im really glad anyways!
So after about 5 minutes of talking I told them that I'll be going (fuck, first of all, why didnt I take my camera, second of all, why didnt I stay there longer - Im such a good friend I didnt want to make the people I came with wait for me any longer : > ; ) )
So then, I hugged them, thanked them for their time, told them they were AWESOME on that stage and mentioned that, Im their biggest fan ; )
That was such an amazing concert, I was sooo lucky to be chosen out of so many people in there, I mean, I still I cant believe that they actually noticed me and wanted to talk to ME. ME, I mean, Im so average! (which they disagreed with). And every single person was looking at me as if I was like the luckiest person alive lol

Now I can only smile to myself every time I think of that crazy, amazing night I had!

The sky is not the same shade of blue...
Every single thing I believe isn't true...

I feel you

I feel you
In every stone
In every leaf of every tree
That you ever might have grown
I feel you
In everything
In every river that might flow
In every seed you might have sown
I feel you x5

I feel you
In every vain
In every beating of my heart
Each breath i take.
I feel you,
Anyway,
In every tear that I might shed
In every word i`ve never said
I feel you 5X
In every vain
In every beating of my heart
In in every breath I ever take
I feel you
Any way
In ever tear that i might shed
In every word i`ve never said
I feel you x5

I feel you



I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER THAT NIGHT

July 15th - Ministry
July 18th - Combichrist

I can still feel you... even so far away..

See, they dont give a fuck about you, like I do...