laying down feeling light
looking at the celing, its a boring sight
all i think about are the things that could go wrong
i just with i could find a place where i belong
all i do is make people mad
but in the end im the one whose all torn up and sad
im a jealous bitch i know this much is true
how do i make it through and through?
im not skinny, long blonde and cute
im the opposite people think its a hoot
i hear them say oh Hunny your beautiful
then why do i feel none deservable
How simple my life is now you are here,
How I cherish each breath,
I have fallen in love without taking a step,
Fallen into the sweetest of dreams,
How I hope no one wakes me.
I will hold this dream forever.
Each time we say goodbye a part of me crys
People say we wont last, but i know its forever
Every time you hold my hand my heart skips a beat.
How sweet life is to be yours;
How meaningless life seems without you.
They know nothing of the loneliness before you
Nothing of the empty tears I cried day after day,
How did you do it?
How did you rid all the fear?
You have made me see that nothing is that bad,
That I am strong and worthy of happiness,
You have saved me from myself.
Everyday I wake up and smile to myself
Knowing you are waiting for me,
Knowing you can't wait to see me.
How would I go on if you were not there to hold me up,
To bless me with your love?
How I am glad you have found me
i love you
its the fact i cant look at myself in the mirror and say im a good person
its the fact i cant say to myself that i cannot lie, thats a lie itself
people do stupid things, but for me it happens on a daily basis
i can have everything good going for me then BAM its down the drain
ive had some pretty shitty times, but ive gottin over it
in a way i guess its made me stronger, but still a bad person deep down
no-one really believes me anymore, the only good thing is i dont take shit
people cant walk over me anymore, so much anger it built up inside of me
if i had a mountain i would scream my lungs out, but all i have are 4 walls
my room is where my thoughts lash out. good bad, sad mad.
but threw it all i have my friends and family. but majority of friends rule
i can tell them anything and not have to go home to them bitching at me
thats all i hear at my house and that makes te anger build up more
all i want to do is scream back, run away and never come home
Look at me, I'm so far away
Out of the way of rain
Far from the pain
And if you see me in your dreams
Would you still believe
All that you see
And only you and me, and only you and me
Well even though I'm not there with you
It's good to keep me close
I never thought that it would come down to this
That I would be so missed
So quickly dismissed, yeah
I want nothin more than to be with you every home
yeah, i know its been so long
What i did was wrong, yeah
And only you and me, and only you and me
Well even though I'm not there with you
It's good to keep me close
Closer to your skin, you gotta keep me deep within
Cuz where I am right now I couldnt be tomorrow
Close enough to see, Close enough to hear you breathe
Its hard to choose which road to go down.
i can live the life here, in pain, agony and hate
or
i can live the life away, become a different me, the one i use to be
I just wish i didnt feel like i have missed something
have i ruined one of the best things i will ever have?
if i could grasp that one feeling again, i would give everything away
just to have a sincere smile upon my face
to have the gleem in my eye like nothing could bring me down
you were my armor, my mind body and soul
and now i have nothing.
i sit in my room, play music from the 90's and cry.
i want you back
can you direct me which way togo?
One of my best friends
Part of me like breathing
Now half of me is left
I don't know anything at all
Who am I to say you love me, im pretty sure you dont...
I don't know anything at all
& who am I to say you need me...thats the last thing you want.
Color me blue I'm lost in you
Don't know why I'm still waiting, but im still here waiting to hear your voice
Many moons have come & gone
Don't know why I'm still waiting, but i love you, im still here.
Now you're a song I love and at the same time hate to sing
it brings tears to my eyes to think about you, yet hearing your name makes me smile..
all i see if you being with her, and thats all my fault. the things that ive read have cut me deep...
but im still waiting for you to give me another chance.
But who am I to say you love me, im pretty sure you dont...
& who am I to say you need me, thats the last thing you want.
& who am I to say you love
I don't know anything at all
The feeling you get when you hear there voice
The butterflies you get in your tummy, like when you were little.
The way your eyes can cry a million tears, but it still doesnt feel like its enough to get ride of the pain
The way your heart can feel so big it can take on an army, but 2 seconds later feels like its been blown into pieces.
The way i still cant get over that kiss, the kiss that made my breath disappear leaving me...breathless...but yet wanting more...
When you were 8 years old,
your mom handed you an
ice cream. You thanked her by dripping it
all over your lap.
When you were 9 years old, she paid for piano
lessons. You thanked her by never even
bothering to practice.
When you were 10 years old, she drove you all
day, from soccer to football to one birthday
party after another. You thanked her by
jumping out of the car and never looking back.
When you were 11 years old, she took you and
your friends to the movies. You thanked her by
asking to sit in a different row.
When you were 12 years old, she warned
you not to watch certain TV shows. You thanked
her by waiting until she left the house.
When you were 13, she suggested a
haircut that was becoming. You thanked her by telling
her she had no taste.
When you were 14, she paid for a month
away at summer camp. You thanked her by
forgetting to write a single letter.
When you were 15, she came home from work,
looking for a hug. You thanked her by having your
bedroom door locked.
When you were 16, she taught you how to drive
her car. You thanked her by taking it every
chance you could.
When you were 17, she was expecting an
important call. You thanked her by being
on the phone all night.
When you were 18, she cried at your high
school graduation. You thanked her by staying
out partying until dawn.
When you were 19, she paid for your
college tuition, drove you to campus carried your
bags. You thanked her by saying good-bye
outside the dorm so you wouldn't be embarrassed in
front of your friends.
When you were 25, she helped to pay for
your wedding, and she cried and told you how
deeply she loved you. You thanked her by
moving halfway across the country.
When you were 50, she fell ill and
needed you to take care of her. You thanked her by
reading about the burden parents become to their
children.
And then one day, she quietly died. And
everything you never did came crashing
down like thunder on YOUR HEART.
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