I haven't changed this page in a looonngggg time...its mostly all still true..though I think I'm toning down a tiny bit..no idea why...ppl are changing around me and I suppose I'm changing too...though I refuse to say I'm growing up..I'm gonna be a toys r us kid forever

umm.............boo

music is the passion that was given to me at birth..or possibly before..not sure..can't remember the womb these days...its something I can't live without and its the only thing that got me through those horrible hard times in life..those times are over but its still what I live for

I am a party girl....right now in my young life it works for me...I put myself on an extended vacation by choice to escape from the strange world of work that sucks you in and turns you into a drone of something else.....I think everyone should do it every once in a while..it'll save your soul
I love going out to the bar but never to sit around...I have to dance or sing or play pool...but I am NOT a barstar..I hate getting lumped into the same category as those drunken attention-grabbing idiots.... I also really love to just hang at home by myself or with someone and watch a movie or play some xbox...I don't play much by myself....and there's nothing like cuddling up in my waterbed..soo comfy and warm *sigh* I should be there now...but I'm a night owl and tend to sleep the days away..so if you're an early riser we'll probably never know eachother

just so you know..i WON'T TALK TO YOU IF YOU DON'T HAVE A PIC....its not a shallow thing.....its just too wierd to talk to someone without seeing their face


Listen. Do not have an opinion while you listen because frankly, your opinion doesn�t hold much water outside of Your Universe. Just listen. Listen until their brain has been twisted like a dripping towel and what they have to say is all over the floor.
- Hugh Elliott, Standing Room Only weblog, 02-14-2003
Could you imagine how horrible things would be if we always told others how we felt? Life would be intolerably bearable.
- Randy K. Milholland, Something Positive Comic, 12-09-05
Some men are alive simply because it is against the law to kill them.
-Edward W. Howe
Think what a better world it would be if we all, the whole world, had cookies and milk about three o'clock every afternoon and then lay down on our blankets for a nap.
-Barbara Jordan
Suburbia is where the developer bulldozes out the trees, then names the streets after them.
-Bill Vaughn
Society honors its living conformists and its dead troublemakers.
-Mignon McLaughlin
Music washes away from the soul the dust of everyday life.
-Berthold Auerbach
Music was my refuge. I could crawl into the space between the notes and curl my back to loneliness.
-Maya Angelou
After silence, that which comes nearest to expressing the inexpressible is music.
-Aldous Huxley
A film is - or should be - more like music than like fiction. It should be a progression of moods and feelings. The theme, what's behind the emotion, the meaning, all that comes later.
-Stanley Kubrick
I have found the paradox, that if you love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more love.
-Mother Teresa
I was about half in love with her by the time we sat down. That's the thing about girls. Every time they do something pretty... you fall half in love with them, and then you never know where the hell you are.
-J. D. Salinger
We waste time looking for the perfect lover, instead of creating the perfect love.
-Tom Robbins
For it was not into my ear you whispered, but into my heart. It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul.
-Judy Garland
Friendship often ends in love; but love in friendship - never.
-Charles Caleb Colton
Love takes off masks that we fear we cannot live without and know we cannot live within.
-James A. Baldwin
A word to the wise ain't necessary - it's the stupid ones that need the advice.
-Bill Cosby
How can a society that exists on instant mashed potatoes, packaged cake mixes, frozen dinners, and instant cameras teach patience to its young?
-Paul Sweeney
"See, the problem is that God gives men a brain and a penis, and only enough blood to run one at a time."
-- Robin Williams



i do love these songs...

AVENGED SEVENFOLD

"Seize The Day"

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry
These streets we travel on will undergo our same lost past

I found you here, now please just stay for a while
I can move on with you around
I hand you my mortal life, but will it be forever?
I'd do anything for a smile, holding you 'til our time is done
We both know the day will come, but I don't want to leave you

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry (a melody, a memory, or just one picture)

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

Newborn life replacing all of us, changing this fable we live in
No longer needed here so where do we go?
Will you take a journey tonight, follow me past the walls of death?
But girl, what if there is no eternal life?

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry (a melody, a memory, or just one picture)

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

Trials in life, questions of us existing here, don't wanna die alone without you here
Please tell me what we have is real

So, what if I never hold you, yeah, or kiss your lips again?
Woooaaah, so I never want to leave you and the memories of us to see
I beg don't leave me

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

Trials in life, questions of us existing here, don't wanna die alone without you here
Please tell me what we have is real

Silence you lost me, no chance for one more day [x2 then continues in the background]
I stand here alone
Falling away from you, no chance to get back home
I stand here alone
Falling away from you, no chance to get back home






BILLY TALENT

"Red Flag"

Cast off the crutch that kills the pain
The Red Flag waving never meant the same
The kids of tomorrow don't need today
When they live in the sins of yesterday

Cast off the crutch that kills the pain
The Red Flag waving never meant the same
The kids of tomorrow don't need today
When they live in the sins of yesterday

Well I've never seen us act like this
Our only hope is the minds of kids
And they'll show us a thing or two

Our only weapons are the guns of youth
It's only time before they tighten the noose
And then the hunt will be on for you

We don't need them...

Cast off the crutch that kills the pain
The Red Flag waving never meant the same
The kids of tomorrow don't need today
When they live in the sins of yesterday

Cast off the crutch that kills the pain
The Red Flag waving never meant the same
The kids of tomorrow don't need today
When they live in the sins of yesterday

Like the smallest bee packs a sting
Like a pawn checkmates a King
We'll attack at the crack of dawn

Build a ladder if there's a wall
Don't be afraid to slip and fall
Speak for yourself or they'll speak for you

The Red Flag waving never meant the same
No... The Red Flag waving never meant the same

Cast off the crutch that kills the pain
The Red Flag waving never meant the same
The kids of tomorrow don't need today
When they live in the sins of yesterday

Cast off the crutch that kills the pain
The Red Flag waving never meant the same
The kids of tomorrow don't need today
When they live in the sins of yesterday

Like a fire
Don't need water
Like a jury
Needs a liar
Like a riot
Don't need order
Like a madman
Needs a martyr

We don't need them [x8]

Cast off the crutch that kills the pain
The Red Flag waving never meant the same
The kids of tomorrow don't need today
When they live in the sins of yesterday

Cast off the crutch that kills the pain
The Red Flag waving never meant the same
The kids of tomorrow don't need today
When they live in the sins of yesterday

Cast off the crutch that kills the pain
The Red Flag waving never meant the same
The kids of tomorrow don't need today
When they live in the sins of yesterday

(we don't need them) Cast off the crutch that kills the pain
(we don't need them) The Red Flag waving never meant the same
(we don't need them) The kids of tomorrow don't need today
(we don't need them) When they live in the sins of yesterday

(we don't need them) Cast off the crutch that kills the pain
(we don't need them) The Red Flag waving never meant the same
(we don't need them) The kids of tomorrow don't need today
(we don't need them) When they live in the sins of yesterday

We don't need them!!





INCUBUS

"Here In My Room"

This party is old and uninviting
Participants all in black and white
You enter in fullblown technicolor
Nothing is the same after tonight

If the world would fall apart
In a fiction worthy wind
I wouldn't change a thing
Now that you're here

Yeah, love is a verb here in my room
Here in my room, here in my room

You enter and close the door behind you
Now show me the world as seen from the stars
If only the lights would dim a little
I'm weary of eyes upon my scars

Pink tractor beam into your incision
Head spinning as free as dervishs' whirl
I came here expecting next to nothing
So thank you for being that kind of girl
That kind of girl

~music is my everything...I have a really diverse taste..I love local bands and going to shows..alot
~I <3 drinking....especially kokanee
~sex, a little drugs, and rock n roll (I know it doesn't sound as hardcore but drugs are stupid and turn people into idiots)
~hot girls with piercings..or guys for that matter..sooooo hot
~I have 10 piercings right now...11+ as soon as I get the chance...I can't wait to get my tattoos but I've been planning them very carefully and its taking awhile but hey you only get one shot right?
~tattoos..my god I love to look at them
~sex...I love a good romp in the sack..or out of the sack..unpredictability is a good thing
~I make clothes..or rework what doesn't fit me right...and alter with cutting and leather, studs, pins, buckles, straps..whatever the mood...you should see my halloween costumes
~I'm addicted to ireland...I wouldn't call it an obsession as much as a passion....there's just something about that place and the ppl that makes me happy
~I love my kitty...we sleep together...there's nothing like a little Shuga in your life lol

Here's to:
Living Like MovieStars!
Partying Like RockStars!
and Fucking Like PornStars!


I had written a whole bunch of shit but then my computer froze and I lost it all
I'll just take my sweet little time

~umm k.....I like movies..alot..more than most and if I really like one I can watch it a million times..especially comedies or anything with kevin smith...and horrors but I tend to like company for those lol
~hanging in the river valley or parks in the sun on the grass or on my bmx
~sleeping when I finally go to bed...scratch that its the dreaming I love
~having friends that play instruments cause I suck and I love just hanging around while someones playing guitar or drums in the background..especially when everyone sings along..or when we bring my guitar camping..there's nothing like sitting around a fire in the middle of nowhere making your own music as loud as you want
~I've been singing forever and I don't suck..I'd like to put a band together
~I love dark chocolate! passionately..most ppl hate it but it gives me so much pleasure lol
~I'm a subway freak...none of this mr.sub/quiznos bullshit...subway is the only way to go
parmesan oregano/chickenbaconranch/toasted/no cheese/lettuce/tomatoe/cucumber/and tons and tons of olives....mmmmmmmm
~I'm not big into fast food but when I've been drinking I crave McMuffins like nothing else
~my piece of shit kuwahara bmx...the brakes barely work but I still love it..plus its all I got after the others where stolen and my ex left my mountainbike in his old apartments storage
real conversation and laughing at stupid things..or nothing at all
~even better I finally got a new(ish) bike..another kuwi and I'm loving this summer on it already...screw motors I'm never gonna grow out of my bike
~roadtrips!! I love hitting the road with friends on spur of the moment..just call me up and I'll pack and take off anytime
~playing on playgrounds..I don't care how old I am thats just fun..especially if there's a crew of us and tag is involved

My favourite time of day is after an entire night of drinking(usually at the bar) then finding somewhere to continue(usually a random friends from the bar) then staying up until 7 in the morning and crashing with the one person that could keep up..guy or girl..young or old...the best conversations happen at 5-6 am when everyone else has gone to bed and the guards come down.....I live for these times but it would be nice to have them around 3 sometime so I could get some sleep for once...I miss sleep


10 reasons 2 date a guitar player

1. They keep going even tho it hurts
2. They can play various positions
3. They know how to make the right sounds
4. They do it right or they don't do it at all
5. They're used to working with their hands
6. They can tap to the beat
7. They know how to use both hands and their mouth at the same time
8. They know how to make you scream for more
9. They're so pro they don't have to watch what they're doing
10. They're open to performing in groups


Many years ago in England , pub frequenters had a whistle baked
into the rim or handle, of their ceramic cups. When they needed a refill,
they used the whistle to get some service. "Wet your whistle" is the phrase
inspired by this practice.

ppl that think they're the shit when they're not..and think they're hot shit.....I love the confidence but not when it means they're fucking pricks....I hate guys that try to talk to a girl \guy by saying wow ur hot wanna chat..
I'm not gonna have some weird online sex with you or meet up with you so don't even try it.....I hate when ppl read this and still do that..do you think I'm gonna fucking talk to you?
ahh I'm too drunk to say anything more shit


lol I can't believe I wrote that last night
my kittys licking up the spilled bols blue from last night..wonder when that happened
last night...what did happen last night? lol

stuff that pisses me off:
-lol hangovers..and not having water by the bed when you reeeally need it
-spiders..well they don't piss me off as much as scare the shit out of me..so if you're ever hanging in my place and wonder why there's a random cup upside down in the middle of the floor...think twice before moving it
-being lactose intolerant...sucks sooo much..no cheese, no milk, no icecream, never half of every menu in a restaurant*sigh*
-when friends get boy/girlfriends and suddenly have no time to hangout
-goddamn theives!! I've had bikes stolen from my backyard..its such a bad feeling.. my sisters car was stolen from west ed while we were having a bite to eat...goddamnit get a fucking job..or at least steal from ppl who seem like they can afford to get stolen from
-contests that are only elligible for ppl living in the states
-when I write a bunch of shit and my computer freezes before I save it
-people that smell like BO...don't you notice? do you like the smell? I mean I know when I smell and I don't like it..its called deoderant
-slutty guys that can get ass whenever they want.. because I feel you should be free to have all the good times you want but if a girl does it then she's called a slut...its just not fair no matter how you look at it..if ppl want to hook up there should be no names called...its called enjoying life you bastards...if I want some I'm gonna get some...its not cause I'm a slut its cause I'm SINGLE...my choice damnit..I'm not fulfilling an emotional need to be liked
-might as well say next...bad sex...I'd rather have no sex
-cheaters....seriously whats wrong with you? if you need to do shit with someone else then you shouldn't be in a relationship in the first place
-people with PLUS that harass you when you don't leave a comment...k obviously I would've if I wanted to talk to you dumbass....I want to get PLUS just so that when I see ppl that have PLUS checking my page without leaving a comment I can bug the shit out of them ahahahaha!
-how hard it is to meet a cool chick...its not like we have little signs on us saying "hey I like girls too!" that would make it much easier though lol
-when guys try to dance with me n my friends at a bar...it is flattering but you're just gonna try to grind up against us and we'd rather have our own space to actually dance..if you want to talk or hit on one of us catch us outside or while we're getting a drink....and please..pleeaase don't ask me to two-step..I just don't do that lol
-snow..I mean its pretty for the first while and it has its good sides but I want to be outside..I want to be riding my bike in the rivervalley *sigh*
~the way I'm attracted to men with a ton of tattoos and piercings and crazy hair and style with a love for wicked rock music.......and they almost always go for these california typical blonde chicks...I will never understand except to know that I'm probably screwed..oh well