i desire the right to speak
letting go makes anyone weak
takes a tole on anybody's soul
hit the bottle till your at your last drink
that didn't help the pain because your left to think
all alone laying by your bathroom sink
am i still breathing am i still here
time for me to walk away from my fears maybe that was loving you
who new she would split my heart in two
I'm left half dead with my heart ripped out on the floor
these emotion got me running from the reality
maybe this is not just a bad dream
i stopped caring when she started staring at him
i new i was losing you
i take my time creep around realize
my heart wasn't lieing
face the facts when i was at work she was laying on here back
i cant even describe how i feel
i wont even eat my favorite meals
i hate everything that you put me through
but for some reason i still love you
the only way i can move on if i tell you how i feel in this song

the best part of life is moving on because i know i can do better

i am illa,
the microphone killa,
when i get on stage, my compaction runs away,
no one is safe,ill call anyone out,
don't even have to think about,
they call me little t, straight up p-i-m-p,
i only speak the truth, look at all of us wasting or youth,
drinking and fighting, or lives are exciting,

full of tattoos,and regrets,
broken promises,
cant relaxes , all this Carma on my back,
some one come save me,
from myself ,i am the one who dealt,
my hand, no one in this world would ever understand,
i am just trying, to stick it to the man,
i will fucking make every one on this site my fan,
i am not even trying, and this bitch is already crying,
i wont back down, till she feels like a fucking clown,
haha hello my name is Joe blow,
i am alittle fucked up on the snow,

run from my past,
all i know,
is abuse and a broken home,
take another drink,
as i think,
my plan of attack, is to lash,
ill kill any man,
you don't understand,
i have been pushed way to far,
put that mother fucker in the trunk of my car,
i was six, didn't diverse to get beat like a bitch,
why you dumb fucks think i am a dyke?
all to spite, fuck my life,
i would live in jail,
just to tell the tail,
of his face when i cut his throat,
made him look like a joke,
right know everyone should just give me space,
let me put the peaces together, what ever,
hit me once hit me twice,
beat it into me, why you think im not nice,
dont feel bad ,sad
its life , get over it move on,
if you cant i lend you my gun,

i got a lot to say,
if theirs any kids around,
better go play,run away,
i am about to lose my shit on this bitch,
ill break your heart its like an art,
she had me going from the start,
kissing and hugging,
but behind my back fucking,
she thinks i am bluffing,
i wont hesitate, to fuck up that pretty face,
girl who you trying to play,
i am a pro at this game,
maybe i should get checked in the hospital,
i need help,cant keep my hands to my self,
fuck it the bitch brought it a pond her self,

Welcome to nex
Put you in a hex
Make you flex
This shits complex
I don’t need no plus
To get a rush
To feel lust
All you bitches must earn my trust
put me in the spotlight
and ill drop like
the ill est shit you have ever heard
ill give you my word