Expressing myself i am terrible at
I am affriad to right now
affraid i'll lose you
we are slipping further apart
and I am trying to help it but I cant
it is like I cant stop it
nore can I change it
this is what I did
I got to suffer my whole life with my mistakes
the fake I am
the things I do
my selfish self
my personality sucks
I am always up and down
my emotions are not there
feelings of regret feelings of pain
all this I feel when I am not with you
heart ache and pain from what I did to you
mentally and physically
not being attached to you anymore
not being in your pressence
keep me fallin from reality
your words of comfort are harldy there
your sence of being there is not even there
the dreams I have of you all the time
they are there haunting me every minute I sleep
to get you outta my mind is a desaterous mess
ending in pain and sorrow for me
but at the same time not being with you is the same
because I know I wont ever be with you the way I want to
and you would