For the time when you were his number one, the times when you waited up for him to call you like he said he would, but woke up and were disappointed cause he never did.//* For the time when you were just about over him, finished the crying, only to get a phone call one day begging you to take him back, and you did. For the time you took him back, hoping this time it would be different, that people really do change, only to realize that they don’t. and it will never be any different than it was.</3
Heres to listening to your friends tell you how stupid you are for giving him another chance, but you just tell them they don’t understand.* You just wanted to hear him say he loved you.// For the times you believed everything he said w/out question, then found out the truth. For believing that he was really busy and didn’t have time to call you, or that he just went to bed early and forgot. Heres to how you’ve trained yourself to settle for less than how you should really be treated. </3
For the times you got up early to get your hair and makeup ready, only to hear that he didn’t have time for you today. For the times you took him back because no matter what he did to you, you remember that you haven’t been so perfect yourself, and you think that maybe you deserve everything you get-//. For never letting him go because you couldn’t bear to look back and think “what if” . For holding on to something that was over so long ago. For the time it happened, again, and again, but now you could only cry to yourself because you felt stupid , and you didn’t want to hear the “I told you so” speech.</3For knowing you deserve better , the guy that calls when he says he will, who will see you whenever he can, who will always tell you you’re beautiful instead of hot, who will hold your hand no matter who’s around, who will come up behind you and wrap his arms around you as tight as he can, the guy that brushes your hair out of your eyes when your talking to *him* , gives you his jacket when he knows your cold . The guy who doesn’t complain when your walking slow because you’ve worn your highest heels, because he knows you wore them for *him* . For the times you cried so hard , and how long it took to even think about him without crying .*+*
For the times that he would call and you had to force yourself to let it *ring .//- The times your phone would vibrate in the middle of the night, and your heart would drop when it wasn’t *him* .
For the time you went back to the same guy, only to get hurt all over again….

You're the closest to heaven
that i'll ever be,
and i dont wanna
go home right now