Wow.. Been a long time. Kinda forgot bout' this shit.
Well.. in that time its been a long hard couple years.. and im still fuckin rockin it. I have the most amazingly beautiful son to ever walk this earth.
I changed. My son is my life.. my reason.. If you dont appreciate him.. like fuck ill appreciate you. Some have learned.. some will soon learn. Manda just dont give a fuck. It's Me and my boys against this fucked up world..
I count on myself and no other.
Thats who i am now, Don't like it. Fuck you then.
Well after all i went through in 2008 i think im due for a good year.
As far as now my year has been wonderful!
I got the guy i fought so hard to get,
we have now been together almost a year!
We have a beautiful baby on the way.. no im not sure of the sex.
I am currently 12 weeks... so many more to go.
Im living on my own..well with the man of course.
hopefully my year keeps getting better!
thanks to everyone for being there when i needed you, listening to me cry and giving me a shoulder to cry on.. And thank you for fighting for me!!!!<sam b... lol!
I wanted something SO bad
When i thought i might have it i decided i didnt want it
Now that i dont have it
I want it now more then ever
Lifes A Bitch.
im tryin to be strong but the strength i had is washing away.
well lets just say it basically sucked, i split my chin, yay 3 stitches!
i now have a cracked egg chin! yes.. i know, how lovely!
Ooo yeah girl see baby they call me mr.freaky!!!!!
It seems to me like I was botherin'
cuz I make walkin look like modelin
it ain't my fault the boys keep followin'
if you were better he wouldn't be wonderin'
I'm incredible, so unforgettable,
So no one can take my place,
I'm unbreakable, highly flammable,
So girl get out my face
Oh my god I'm going crazy
Maybe 'cuz I'm so amazing
Everybody in there dazin'
That's the reason why they're hatin'
Treat us like some superstars
And only cuz that's what we are
You know we're going really far
And ya'll ain't even heard it all
---Why dont you take a picture? It lasts longer---
Hello my one and only every thing.
Just wanted to say i love you with all my heart and a whole hell of alot more.
Me and you for ever baby........I PROMICE!!!!!!
No matter what happens, ill always be there for you....
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH MANDA.
YOU HAVE MY WORLD AND SO MUCH MORE
Flowers always grow, Rivers forever flow.
But people hurt. People cry. And people die.
People have the power to change what they say.
Everyone has the opportunity to brighten someones day.
Have you ever broken someones heart?
Has someone ever made you fall apart?
Have you ever got lost in yesterdays thoughts?
Thinking about what someone did to you and not what you did to someone?
Have you ever recognized that girl peering over your shoulder?
To be someone or to have some fun?
Have you ever fell so hard you cant lift yourself to your feet?
Have you ever been bruised by defeat?
Whens the last time you had some empathy?
Or offered someone sympathy?
How did it feel when the world was on your shoulders and life gave in?
And everyone just watched you struggle and only offered a weak grin?
When no one understood what you tried to say?
When people walked out on you even when you begged them to stay?
When everything you worked on was ripped up infront of your eyes?
With pictures and memories and all.
The tears from your own pleas and cries.
When the world isnt going to change just for you and me.
But wipe your eyes and try to see.
Flowers always grow.
Rivers forever flow.
The world will keep turning and ashes continue burning.
And we will forever try to be someone were not caught up in being
A machine or robot.
Well do something new:
Stand up for whats right
Not whats in, hip, or tight.
Im not perfect;
ill annoy you
- tick you off,
say stupid thinqs and then take them back...
but ,
if you put all of that aside;
you'll never find a girl who cares more about you than me.
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they.
I'll be your best friend and you'll be mine
Valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if you want to
Cause I want to hold yours too
Well be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds
It all started 5 years ago.
I realized i dont just love him.. im in love with him. He is the most amazing guy. I'm so happy...
Manda and Gowan laying in bed laughing at....not sure. Gowan laughing "Whats so funny" Manda laughing " We laugh at the same beat... its weird" Gowan *laughs a bit harder..* Realizes that we do.. laughs even harder.
Manda and Gowan layin down goin to sleep
Manda- Did you know when we lay together our hearts beat at the same time
Gowan- Pauses.....Your so freakin cute! *kisses forhead* God i love you Manda.
We have been through so much together... ups and downs... but through it all we stuck together and here we are. Pushing you around in a wheel chair... spending every waking moment at the hospital by your side... moving away and thinking about you 24/7. Coming back and ur the first person i call. Breaking up and getting back together. Seeing you yet again at the hospital for knocking ur teeth out.
I will always be here for you Gowan. Your my everything. I will love you till my very last breath. I just hope you feel the same way.
Love Doesnt Mean You Will Never Break Up.
Love Means You Will Always Get Back Together.
so your the bitch
who told the bitch
that im a bitch
well listen bitch
it takes a bitch
to know a bitch
After all that..
Life is slowly getting better.
