k soo im not syre how i feel right now,
first of all, my charm of a sister informed me of multiple who hate me, annd i thought we were friends,
second, im getting mixed signals, i love you too death but i wish you felt the same way cuz youve never been in love and i want to be your first love <3
you said maybe? is this jus wheels err idunno
alot of girls post on your wall,, you like all theres but not mine?
you send me a " baby ilu tho :'(" and then dont do anything at the movies?
i wish youd love me again
cuz its soo hard to remember what we had and remember that we dated for a solid 3 months and saw eachother once? its soo hard not being able to see you because when im with you
its like i have no worries and you jus make me happy,
like i cant stop smiling
idunno if this is the right thin cuz last time i didnt work,
cant count how many times guys just "lose there feelings" like
am i more than you bargained for?
idunno if i should be falling fer you
but being with you feels so right, and i can describe, if only i could show you this
if i werent so a afriad of getting you creeped :/
im gonna nd up getting hurt again i know it, but i wanna give it one more shot,
even if you dont
i just love you too much
every second i wish you were here,
i just wish you felt the same way </3

Dare you to tell me the last place you kissed?

school :/



What was the first thing you did this morning?

brush my hair?



Excited for anything?


next time i get to see you <3



Any bestfriends?

Dan-Elle Iris
Sierra Dawn
Kristin Kim




When is the next time you stay the night with the person you love?

no idea


Last person you talked to for over an hour?

Nigel


Could you stay in the same relationship for over a year?

fuck ya if i could





How much do you like the person you like?

maybe more than last time :/




Give me some reasons why?


well he has ALWAYS been there for me n hes someone i can trust all the time
he calls me hun and sends ALOT of ILU 's! when hes drunk, i love him to death?




When did you last hold someones hand?

fuck LOONG time ago



Are you a jealous person?

yes



Who slept in your bed with you last night?

me myself n I


Do you know who you'll even kiss next?

hope so




List everyone you have ever kissed in your life?

Bruce
Aaron
Tyler. M
Jory :/
Kade
Cole
Tyler. C
Cody

short ass list :/


Ever kissed brown hair brown eye person?

think so





Wearing any bracelets?

nope



What was the last thing you drank?

milk


Do you stay up later than ten o'clock on a week night?

yup


Who's the last person you told a secret to?

hmm nigel sierra danelle er cole?




What did you eat for breakfast?

smoooothie





Did you like anyone last summer?

yes.




What are your plans for the weekend?

hopefully seeing my nigel


How are you feeling right now?

let down,


What are you looking forward to this month?

danelles birthday




Your number one is?

none? :/






Has anyone put their arms around you in the past 10 days?

nope



How old is the last person you kissed on the lips?

15




What color shirt were you wearing when you had your last kiss?

bluee


Do you wish someone would turn up at your front door right now?

YES



What are you looking forward to today?

going to bed





Does the person you like, like you back?

i dunno too confusing :/



Did you kiss or hug anyone in the last 72 hours?

yup hugs




How often do you hold back from saying what you are thinking?

all the time




Have you ever cried cause you were so mad?

lots



What is on your wrists right now?

a doodle of a clown





Reason for the last tear shed?

nigel?




What color is your shirt?

red

What do you hear?

shit all




Last relationship?

afro cody like november?





Who did you all talk to on the phone yesterday?

megan mom roz




Have you ever liked someone then realized you really didnt?

yup



What would you do if you found out your girlfriend/boyfriend cheated on you?

couldnt tell you, i have never been cheated on





Plans for tomorrow?

study for finals,,




How would you react if you found out the person you were dating bestfriend likes you?

meh




So you're told you're not allowed to hangout with someone, you?

um yes, story of my life?




Ever lost friends because of something you've done?

ya




Do you have someone you can tell anything to?

ish

K soo
How do I explain,
I fucked up my past 2 relationships cuz
I rush into things, it was mostly because I didn't have to fight for them,
But babe, I'm fighting for you,
I don't think you feel the same way but, your leaving in
A month
So it's now or never
I'm gonna have to tell you that I like you,
Alot
The thing is, I usually like straight edge guys,
You
Your a hopeless stoner
I'd do anything to gr you off it
Your a sweetie when your sober
You told me
You would choose weed over love
But i don't think you've ever been in love
I think I can change you
You broke up with Chelsea because of weed
I asked if you would have quit for her,
You said
" not for
Chelsea"
That still leaves the option of quitting for someone else
I want to help you
I really like you
And even if you don't
I'm gonna help you nd be there for you
Cuz I know
Even if you won't admit it
You know you've fucked
Up
But I'm here fer you, you know that
<3

do you know how hard it is,
to see you after almost a year,
if our eyes meet you look away and act as if weve never met
and when i see you it takes everything in my power not to start crying
and fuuk it
i was almost better again
then i saw you and everything fell apart
that night all the pain came rushing back
except sharper,
toturing me till i gave in to the memories and the thoughts
ill never forget you
even if you already forgot me
and when dan-elle talks to you
ill just stare at my feet, you wouldnt notice anyways
the dreams are coming back
nd there worse
i cant fuckin take this i just need to talk to you
i got you
and you got me more than anyone else
i miss you
soo much
what i wouldnt give, to talk to you,
be friends
if we could be friends just for one day
just one day of talking to you again
i would be perfectly fine with dying the next day
:'(
fuck this hurts

i know this whole thing was fast but i really dont mind,,
i really like you
....alot
im really hapy you feel the same way
cuz your arent like other guys
and you get me
first date tomorow!
scary movies mean lots of cuddles.
congratulations bb
your fixing me <3

the wholee day was bull shit
what the FUCK
you have no idea how pissed i am not just HER
im so mad at myself,, are you seriouss i actually watched my best
friend get dropped by some butch bitch just because i was too scared
to do anything
im sooo sorry bb no one feels worse then me
dont think i didnt want to rip her face off
but i was terified or in shock or something because i couldnt move
and everyone was yelling
fuck :'(
im so sorry.
i know its my fault i let it happen
i cant stand it when your hurt specially like this
holy fuck i hate this
why the fuck would she even try this shit
like good job you beat up a kid that didnt wanna fight
congratufuckinlations
im really sorry dan-elle <3
fuck

im done with this, your only hurting me
and thats something i reallyDONT need right now
you might introduce me as some girl
but to me your the guy
ya im not perfect
maybe not as pretty
but i give a damn
n i promise id treat you llike gold
but ive realized
you might just treat me like everyone else
ive realized i wasted my time waiting for the question thats
NOT coming
i may not be cute and flirty
i dont play games
all i want is someone that will
actually care about me
im gonna try to just be your friend
im sorry
but
you mean so much to me which is why
i need to let you go
you dont get it
im still in love with you
so unless you change your mind
im just gonna give up
but fuck i wanted it so bad
nd i miss you so much
you have no idea how much it hurts to do it
like im balling as write this
but
its not even close to
what it was like when you left me
im sorry nigel
ilusm </3




nd sierra i know your glad i did that.
just wanted to say im happy for you
you nd cory are probly the cutest thing ive ever seen

Idinno what to say
um this is for you, if you know who you are
I'm just writin to say that I miss you and I love you
and all the hurting is worth every moment I spend with you
I'm content In the fact that you'll always be there fer
me and how great you are
I just wish that you felt the same..
You mean the world to me
like the whole world
Iloveyou

okay well you know whats bugging me
SaRaH says:
hm?
` kristinn . says:
we have the same fucking FONT !
SaRaH says:
FUCK ME!
FIXED!
` kristinn . says:
UP THE ASS MAN ! when you first started talking to me it juss got to me
YES
SaRaH says:
ew i dont like it
` kristinn . says:
change it
SaRaH says:
yes mam
bnblkdf
no
bfdb
i like it!
` kristinn . says:
me too ! what's it called ?
SaRaH says:
light oblique
` kristinn . says:
it's SEXY
SaRaH says:
SEX
` kristinn . says:
IN MY PANTS
SaRaH says:
IN MY SOCKS
` kristinn . says:
IN MY BUM

SaRaH says:
IN MY......
um
um
NOSE
` kristinn . says:
IN MY EAR
SaRaH says:
and between my toes!
` kristinn . says:
YES hahah that made me laugh
SaRaH says:
im proud
` kristinn . says:
me too 10 POINTS !!
SaRaH says:
10 POINTS!!!!
` kristinn . says:
it's been too long !
GET UP OFF OF THAT DANCE FLOOR
SaRaH says:
thats what she said
too long
` kristinn . says:
oh man , Sunday is gonna be like a reunion
SaRaH says:
fuck ya
its gonna be like
100000000000 POINTS!!!
` kristinn . says:
YES , were gonna be getting off of that dance flloooor ! we gotta play Wii .... BEGIN.

I can say my life is good,, in a way it is. Lots of friends, big house..  But in the same way im not..Fulfilled? cuz still I spend Friday night alone,,   dunno. I've never been the same, more,, insightful I guess? But I've never been
sure who I am or what I beleive. Screwed in the head to.. still dealing with heartbreak from almost a year ago. My friends are different,, not the people i rember.. I've got no love. no ones interested in me,, I've alwYs just been the friend,, so I was hoping maybe this summer would be different,, find someone fer me,, and maybe this time not almost cause my death.

I don't know what's making me hurt,,
but it's killing me
eating at me till there's nothing left to feel
vacancy
no one will help me
and I slowly slipping back into depression
though i won't show it, I'm dying
I wish I could break the promise
still I won't do it
I really wish there was someone to turn to,, I need him
he's just hurting me
this isn't working
I'm running out of back bone because everything hurts
and I need you to holde close
even for those few seconds,, and releive me of this pain
I don't what causes it but it hurts so much
o my god
I don't know how much longer this will work
does anyone care

help me baby <\3

sometimes i think maybe i am crazy
maybe my mind does work different
i might actually be fucked in the head
but sometimes i think im not
maybe im normal
maybe everyone else is crazy
maybe i do belong in the phsyc ward
id still be me
just a little mbit insane

at the same time maybe im not the only one
i know hes out there
another crazy soul looking for the same thing
with the look in his eye that says i know whst youve been through
or maybe ive already met him
maybe not
maybe i never will

or you know... im just.. crazy

Baby, baby blue eyes
Stay with me by my side
‘til the morning, through the night
Well baby, stand here holding my sides
Close your baby blue eyes
Every moment feels right
And I may feel like a fool
But I’m the only one dancing with you

Oh, she's been losing faiTh in what she knows, hates her music, all of her clothes. Consider surgery and a new nose, oh how she wishes she was a dancer and she never heard of cancer. She wishes god would give her some answers,,
for someone to make her feel beutiful.

I remember what you wore on the first day,, you came into my life and I thought hey
somehow I knew those wings were broken ...
all the broken hearts that hang around here, al the bad dreams and all the night mares that make you pull out your hair
I know you don't think I'm trying but hold your breath because tonight will be the night that I will fall fer you
everyones around.. No words are comin out and I can't find my breath can we jus say the rest with no sound.. I know this isn't enough I still don't measure up
and ii do want you to know I'll hold you up above everyone
ohh how she wishes she was a dancer and that she never heard of cancer..

Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend somewhere along in the bitter depths and I stayed up with you all night and I know how to save a life..
Cover up with make up in the mirror tell yourself it's never gonna happen again
cut myself so I could feel something I know is not a lie
and the shadow of the day will embrace the world in grey
and I'll dose off safe and soundly but I'll miss your arms around me
now I know I messed up bad you were the best I ever had
memories consume.. Like owning the wound I try to catch my breath again
all you did was save my life
he goes left and you stay right
I'm still alive but I'm barely breathin jus prayin to a god that I don't beleive in

...............