Ain't blogged in awhile ...... Things are going...... Could be a few things that is like to change still but I cant really complain :/ my son is Almost a year already , its Almost been a year since I've had a Gf :/ um idk.music is good check.it.out at www.MySpace.com/deathdrex , other then that nothing else is.new ...... So enjoy the.music .peace
lifes been great, things are looking up i still love u but im holding up, my son is amazing the world around me is well, i have my bestfriends who i share and tell, jus wanna meet new ppl maybe blossom something new , for now im fine where i stand breathing , still living and fighting for what i want to have and hold
step by step as i set the stage/unlock the door to show i got game/i may not be famous but im not playin/i unleash the best i got/i go with the flow like you've never known/now everything i got is about to be shown/am i goin to fast /well i aint stoppin/one after the next i keep droppin em/i aint got talent/but ive got a beat/its enought to keep you on your feet/feel the burn as i spit turn after turn/its to late to go back/but you cant catch up/well thats to bad lifes a bitch suck it up/im here sparyin these words and i havent even started/shits so sick its gone and made you retarded/im settin my goals the stakes are high/try and catch up you cant im to high/im so fly gettin inside your head/im leavin you in the dust broken and bruised/this is just the openin you aint got the tools/but i aint done/i've been through agony and pain/now im seein through the clouds/never again will i let my guard down/i've been down many roads and paths/now at long last i can start living my dream/to find out more to what this life means/i've strayed so many time's/now i've found my way/now im living life my own way/never will i let hope slip away/never again will i pass through this blackrain/my life has forever been changed/i no longer feel the stress and the pain/nothing will ever be the same/i know its for the best/and im on the right road/i've choked one to many times so ima let certain ppl be told/i took your shit/i put up the fight/i've been found in the gutter and lost the light/but now i stand here today to prove you wrong/that im now writin my own song/goin on strong and true/you thought you had me no i have you/you thought you could beat me down/crush my soul/now your payin the price/so you better think twice/especially bout what you say/you thought i was nothing/you thought my spirit crushed/but now its a rush/far to much for you to touch or handle/im an uncaged animal im like hannibal/i'll leave you dead/you thought i was gone well think again/im still in this game /it's time to bring the pain/when you see me next time you better walk away/cause i got a pace /that you cant keep up to in this race/your such a disgrace/ya'll just better stay out my face/cause ill spray your fuckin ass with mace/theres nothing you can do or say /cause i can keep spittin this shit all day/ im hot and you not lets leave it at that maybe next time this shit will be on a track......cause im so high writin every word /its so ubsurd/that i've never been heard/im gettin my swag on/and cant be touched/you keep screamin you've had enough/well to bad shut the fuck up/this is a battle/that you cant seem to handle/ive processed the field of the game/shits burning in my head/driving me insane/you cant save me its to late/i aint what i used to be but i aint fake/give me a break/this is only take one/but you dont seem to understand this aint about me its about you/and all you bitches who thought i couldnt go through with what the fuck i say all i got to fuckin say is look at this shit bitch im havin it my way/and page after page /writin like it was curse/all i can do is burst/gotta hit it how i live it/just goin with the flow/i just have to let you all know that im real and im true and if it wasnt for my friends or ppl like you i wouldnt be here today spittin like i do /so im a finish by sayin thank you and that one day i can repay you for you have done and will ever do.....this is the end im through...but we will meet again i promise you....because ill keep writin word after word...postin shit that some ppl may call whack....but that will just be ammo to make my attack...like eminem said if you dont like my shit put my tape back on the rack go head tell all your friends my shit is whack....im writin what comes to mind....im far to kind....one day ima snap and all you muthafuckas will get ur shit back
so shit sucks and im just not doing the things i thought i would be doing like providing for my beautiful tana,i dont even have a good job.i wish i could half the things i said i would but obviously not . idk what to do............i wish i could find or get a better job because i need to start helping with the rent and money .fuck where did i go wrong i had a job and shit that paid good what the fuck is wrong with me.....i mean all i have dont lately is fuck things up and i cant seem to stop doing it.......fuck....fuck....fuck. i love you tana but i think if i cant seem to get it together we are gunna have to go back whether or not we want to cause we cxant living like this i cant keep puttin u through this shit like fuck me i hate myself for all ive done and put u through and hope that it will get better.......................
well thi9ngs couldnt be going any better then they are lol i love tana i love our place i love everything about our lidfe and i always kn0ow that we will always be together for all eternity.......nothing will ever change how i fell now matter what Happens i love u tana mathieson
so i no longer work nights and sleep all day........im glad i dont cause it put a strain on us......and dear god do i feel like a complete piece of shit for having done and said what i did .........but i do know that if we didnt love eachother as much as we say we did we wouldnt still be here together......so im happy to say im happy for you in my life and that without u there is no purpose for me to have anything or anyone else for that matter because u are everything to me my whole world and nothing or no one will ever change that i love tana<3 and miss you evertime ur gone form my sight
all i know is that im yours for eternity and that no one and i mean no one is ever gunna be good enough for as you are.............when i say your everything i mean everything,when i sleep i dream about you,when im not with you all i think about is you even when ur right there beside asleep all i think about is you................you changed my world with just one kiss hell just one smile and that was teh day i first saw you and will never forget the way you lokked at me and the way i looked and you because i knew we were meant to be the day i asked you to be my GF.....................always and forever your dark prince
daryl michael john christopher mathieson
fucking sweet ill be back in dawson 2moro bitches,cant wait to see you my love i missed you so much only a day away tehe.............cant wait ot see veryone else to lol.............but i love you baby and cant wait <3
well once again so far so good 17 days till i get to see u again.im so excited i miss you so much tana.anyway things are good here im gettin a place i have a job and things with my realitives are good. if it werent for you there are certain things i would have fucked up before i even got here hun.uve helped me become a better person and still are to this day helping me grow and learn i may be older but u seem the wiser and i thank you for that and i hope i am and do get the chance to do the same for you my love..........but thats enough for the day and i hope ur day goes good lol i love you my darling angel and i love you alot
so for now everything is going good ,i have a job and by the end of next week i should have a place.but thats not the only thing i cant wait cause in less then 20 days she will be here YAY!!!!!!!!i miss you so much and cant wait to hold you again my love.but ya for now things are good and im hoping they get better.......oh well at least nothing bad has happened.......and ill do all i can to prevent it from happening as well lol.......but i love and misss you alot and cant wait to you tana
i keep whing about it but i feel empty, alone, and really depressed without.all i want is you here no matter what because i know either way everything will work out.i miss you more then anything,and ive never wanted anything more then to have u here with me.i love u baby and cant wait to see ur smile again ,i hate complaing and i know u hate it more then i do but fuck i just want to hold u feel the warmth of ur skin the feel of ur touch i love u baby
My bail = 620
This is HILARIOUS! Just read the 'offense' and if you've done it, you
owe that fine. Keep going until you've read each 'offense' and added up
your total fine. Title your bulletin 'My Bail is $........' You don't
have to confess your answers, just the amount of your fine.
1) Smoked pot -- $10
2) Ever got drunk at work, or went to work while still drunk --$50
3) Cheated on your significant other -- $10
4) Been in love with two people or more at the same time -- $50
5) Said you love someone but didn't mean it -- $25
6) Went streaking -- $5
7) Went streaking in broad daylight -- $15
8) Kissed a co-worker-- $ 20
9)Kissed your boss --$50
10) Been arrested -- $5
11) Spent time in jail -- $15
12) Peed in the pool -- $5
13) Played spin the bottle -- $5
14) Done something you regret -- $20
15) Slept with your best friend >-- $20
16) Been in love with a stripper -- $20
17) Went skinny dipping -- $5
18) Been slapped-- $5
19) Slapped someone-- $5
20) Beat up someone -- $20
21) Been jumped -- $10
22) Ever had sex at church -- $25
23) Dated someone you met on Facebook -- $25
24) Cheated on test -- $50
25) Vandalized something -- $20
26) Slept with someone in your parents' bed -- $100
27) Crossed dressed -- $10
28) Given money to stripper -- $25
29) Flirted with an officer to get out of a ticket-- $30
30) Been in love with a stripper -- $20
31) Kissed some one who's name you didn't know --$10
32) Hit on some one of the same sex while at work-- $15
33) Ever drive drunk -- $20
34) Used toys while having sex -- $30
35) Got drunk, passed out and don't remember the night before -- $20
36) Had sex in a pool -- $20
37) Masturbated -- $10
38) Cheated on your significant other with their relative or close friend --$20
39) Done oral -- $5
40) Got oral -- $5
41) Done / got oral in a car while it was moving-- $25
42) Woke up in the morning and did not know the person who was next to you-- $40
43) Stole something -- $10
44) Slept with someone who has been in jail -- $25
45) Made a dirty home video -- $15
46) Plan on making a dirty home video in the near future --$30
47) Had a threesome -- $50
48) Had sex in a public place-- $20
49) Been in the same room while someone was having sex -- $25
50) Stole something worth over more than a hundred dollars --$20
51) Had sex with someone 10 years older -- $20
52) Kissed a teacher while you were still a student--$25
53) Lied to your mate -- $5
54) Lied to your mate about the sex being good -- $25
OK , now tally up your answers, then, copy paste this into your own note
to tag all of the people you want to take
the test...... In the subject of you forward put your
'My Bail Is... (your total) Now send to all your friends
and back to the person who sent it to you
k so it was hard to get over the fact that you werent here but i guess its gotton easier ,i really miss u alot and wish u were here now but i know that u have to finish school and save money just like me.im gettin a job and gettin a place to live (a place so skittles can come to lol)and i know that i can do this i now we both can no matter what happens,i love you my sweet princess my light from the darkness.......and i know i will get to hold you again soon tehe and this is for the better so that in the end we can start our lives together.........but i love you and hope everything is going good for you while im gone
fuck em man all i know is that im not complete without you that im not one if ur not here ,evrything i knew and still know is you and only you .nothing else matters to me but i do this all for you tana ,my friend,my soulmate,my one true love.i cant wait to hold you close again to feel your warm embrace till that day i sit in my blackrain ,i love you tana for all eternity
