i try and do the best in the things i do, i think of myself as a good hearted person who would go out of thier way to help another... i have drive, ambition and a dream. i dont want to be left standing in the wake of what i could have been. i only have one life, one chance to make it right. this was fun though, this little vacation to the "what was" of my life. it was though this place has never changed, and the last hue of light from a setting sun spoke this to be true, a time loop of everything repeating itself. fun in small doeses but like most everything that warps a mans mind to much of this will make you sick... and i have had my far share. now it is time for me to leave this again to continue on the road of progress, i am i creature of this earth ever growing ever evolving, life is hard but with a grain of salt, a man shall be carved from this has been feeble boy... the road long hard but ever rewarding, for the "mouse" of the group is becoming the falcon, and its time to fly, the world large and big, is mine, it is my time.... for now i am.. 21... of yesterday january 12 of 2009, and the only people who where there for me was family... as they always had been and always will be.... but funny... i sat and waited for my.... so called friends to come pull me away for a party the last day i was in town. if i was in their place thats what i would have done, considering on his 17 birthday he bought all the alcohol with his own birthday money so his friends could get drunk.... but the following year all of his friends did exstacy the night before and where to hung over to do anything the next day..... people may not realize it but it took along time for me to forgive anybody about that, for the next following 2 years i was on the moving, i do not remember if i was running away from something or running to something, but along the way i got lost.... but i found myself in the darkest most deepest recesses of my soul, i revolutionary life awakening.... it is that the world is large and unforgiving. god does not exists, at least not the way the world likes the believe, that life is unfair, those with nothing receive nothing, those with it all, only get more..... that when you need someone the most they will be nowhere to been seen, that some people change and others do not, but this is life, this is my life for reality is only perspective, a great man once said " stay away of the those who manipulate, lie and belittle you and your ambitions for they are the small ands the week and they shall never grow to be anything better" and all this confirmed by a lonely beer drank in the last hour of a dyeing age, the world is wide and the time to fly is upon me, for reality is perspective and i have seen the light