Weight Plan!
So legit, I am sitting at an uncomfortable 2__ pounds. And it's driving me crazy. I hate skinny girls rubbing it in my face, how they look good in lingerie, naked, in a bikini. All this shit. I hate it. I've hated it my entire life. Always been a big fucking girl, and have never really pushed myself hard enough to loose the weight. Two years ago, I finally did something about it. Ran everynight for three or four months, dropping about 30 pounds. Except this winter, due to having no hockey team, I was unable to keep that weight off. Now I'm up another 30 pounds. I'm sick of living like this. Feeling disgusted with myself. I wanna be able to flaunt my body. To actually feel good about how I look. I'm sick of being "Just a pretty face". I wanna be more than that. I want my boyfriend to think I'm absolutely stunning. But most of all, I just want to do this for me. My goal is to be about 140 lbs. I think that's reasonable. It's not to small, and I know I am built to be a little bigger than most girls. However this means I've got to loose about 80 lbs. To say the least. I don't know. I feel good about this. Grad is coming up right away, and I want to be able to squeeze into my dress better. Until then, I'm gonna work hard to meet this goal.