I KNOW, I KNOW. I HAVEN'T UPDATED IN A SUUUUPER LONG TIME, I'VE BEEN SUPER BUSY. BUT RIGHT NOW, I HAVE A LONG UPDATEFOR YOU ALL . I MAY HAVE ANOTHER ONE IN THE NEXT WEEK BUT IT DEPENDS ON IF I GET BUSY AGAIN OR NOT . ENJOY ! 
don't you just love.. how things can go from good to bad,
from bad to horrible & just keep on getting worse as time goes on.
or how in a matter of a 5 minute argument,
you could end up losing someone who meant everything to you.
people change, girls talk, lovers cheat, and best friends ditch,
and theres always going to be those people who would kill to see you fall
but no matter how hard it gets, keep your head up, and handle it
& looks like in the end all you can depend on is yourself
because "best friends" isn't a promise anymore.. it's just a label.
Dont change yourself for one person, they are probably
not worth it, if you have to change yourself for them.
Dont make somebody your everything,
because when they are gone youve got nothing.
Learn how to be optimistic, drama is a waste of time.
Stop listening to the remarks, rumors and lies.
Smile as much as possible, smiles make our
world so much brighter.
Crying is healthy, don't be afraid to show your feelings.
Enjoy the outdoors, fresh air does good to a person.
Make time for yourself, its refreshes your mind, body and soul.
Dont point out others imperfections until youve fixed your own.
Laugh with your friends, laughing makes everything better.
Change happens, welcome it as you would welcome an old friend.
Remember to tell people how you feel because they might
never know you love them if you don't.
And finally, make time for family, they will stick with you
no matter what you get yourself into.
tell me I'm not making a mistake. tell me that you're worth the
wait, that you're always going to be here. make me believe
that I'm making the right decision by still holding on. show me
that you're going to be around to catch me when I fall.
im the one that has to die when it's time for me
to die, so let me live my life the way I want to.
you told me to make you or break you. i said both would be bad for the 2 of us, but you didnt care.
i decided to break you. 3 years later, i see you never really got over it. then again, you never listen to me.
You know, I saw you today, just when I thought
I was beginning to forget you. The instant that I saw you,
I got nervous, my stomach began to turn, & I almost started
crying & as much as I didn't want to look at you,
I couldn't take my eyes off you.
you really want to know why i hate you as much as i do !? do you !? do you !?
fine, ill tell you. its because you're the only boy i've fallen this hard for it, and it hurt.
you want to be my life? you want my soul?
thats nice, but i want my heart back first.
flipping through photos, as my tears fall. i wasn't ready to say
goodbye to it all. i remember our memories like back
in the fall. still not ready to say goodbye to it all.
i still see you at school, as we pass in the hall. i hear
myself think, goodbye to it all. our friendship was
close, but now we never call. so i stand
saying goodbye to it all.
- ~Jen78~
scary movies make her jump
she hates it when people dont call her back
she envies every single couple that walks
around showing it all she wants to be is
happy, and lately.. all she thinks about is you
our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
it is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.
your playing small does not serve the world.
there is nothing enlightened about shrinking
so that other people won’t feel insecure around you.
we are all meant to shine as children do.
it is not just in some of us, it is in everyone.
and as we let our own lights shine,
we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
as we are liberated from our own fear,
our presence automatically liberates others
I try to talk to you, but I don't know what to say. I am afraid you don't want me to say anything. So I don't. But inside of me there are words waiting to come out. And tell you how I feel-like how I miss you. And how I love you despite my broken heart. And how I need you in my life. And especially how much I want you. But those words may forever stay in my heart-locked inside. Sometimes I wonder if there are words locked inside you too... but I'll never know.
Once in a life time, means there's no second chance, so i believe that you and me should grab it while we can. We could make everything so much better if you finally just understood how much you mean to me, and how much i love you. I don't think you get it, this isn't a waste of time, you've just made everyday of my life a better experience. It's made me grow up, and understand that things don't always work out. I see you everyday, smile at you, and just wish that you understood how i feel. But i guess you won't understand, until you're in this position. You get me confused really easily, but somehow i can still say im in love. You get me into tears, but i can still say i love you. You get me angry, but i can still say i love you. I can always say i love you, because after i get through these moments, i think of the person who put me in this situation, and it brings a smile to my face. I don't understand, but i guess it's true love. These are my true feelings for you. I've never felt them for anyone else. However, i know deep down, i have to move on. I know it's time, and i hope you know i won't wait around forever. It's hard enough now, i can only imagine it in 3 years. But i love you, and thank you for everything, i'll never forget you..<3
I remember EVERYTHING about that day. It had just finished snowing, and it was sunny out, and i was really happy. I was wearing jeans and a t-shirt. My hair was straight and in a puff. I was anxious, excited, and scared. I was sitting there, hoping to hear the answer, i had been waiting to here forever, but the most i got was " let's just be friends". Suddenly, i just felt, broken, self conscious. How could that happen, i waited sooo long, just to hear " let's just be friends". What was wrong with me ..
That was the day i told him- i loved him
you swear you recall nothing at all that could make you come back down.
you made up your mind to leave it all behind. now you're forced to fight
it out. you fall away from your past, but it's following you. you left something
undone, it's now your rerun. it's the one you can't erase. you should have
made it right, so you wouldn't have to fight to put a smile back on your face.
you fall awayfrom your past, but it's following you. you're falling apart,
and tearing at the seams.
im in love, so are you. so why dont we do what we want to?
maybe i am scared. maybe i cant live without you. maybe i do need you. maybe i do think about you.
maybe i do wish you were mine. maybe we were meant to be. maybe you need me too. maybe all i
need is your love. maybe its time to choose. maybe you are my everything. how about you stop with
the maybes? the whole world knows no one has a better love than us. lets get this going now .
don't waste your time regretting all your wrongs.
know that in the end, you'll get what your heart
longs. try not to risk it all: don't stumble, don't fall.
take the time to read the writings on the wall. hold
your head high, don't be afraid to say goodbye. stay
true and be you. do everything there is to do. live life
to the fullest and never look back, there's a reason
for the future and a reason for the past. love til it hurts
and laugh til you cry. when your life flashes before
you die, be happy for what you've done, be happy
for what you've overcome, and most of all, be proud of
what you have become
I need you! i dont care if you dont need me all i want is for you to notice i exist! i can take it from there.
same old story, boy meets girl.
shes still holding on.. while hes letting go.
when you call she doesn't answer
when you write she doesn't answer
you go out, you see him with her.
she told you she was sick at home.
It's not okay because he made me laugh. Because
I didn't have to pretend to be anything other than
who I am when I was with him. Because I don't
believe that stuff about finding your other half,
but because I do believe that what you look for is
someone who makes you a better person when
you're with them, who changes you for the better,
who makes you the best person you can possibly be,
& because I thought I had found that in him.
you'll never guess the secret i've been holding in for so long,
we've been best friends since we were born, its hard to imagine
i've kept this from you for so long but.. i love you.
" I have feelings for him. Romantic feelings. "
- The OC
" its hard to tell who has your back,
and who has it long enough to just
stab you in it. " - Nicole Richie
push me into the snow.
hold my hand. kiss me by surprise.
cuddle under a blanket and pretend the
snow isn't the only thing falling fast
she ran away, as hard and fast as she could, this has got to be the 10th
time, i'm really going to do it this time. She told herself. She took one glance
down the alley, too make sure he wasn't running as fast as he could, with an
appology ready. She saw no one. Maybe I should go back? She thought to
herself. But the cuts on her wrist, reasured her that she knew what she was
doing. She saw a bus nearing her. One step at a time, she walked towards
her death. One last tear trikled down her cheek, leaving her almost motionless.
It was to dark to see much. The only light was coming from a dim streetlamp.
The bus driver would not see her. The bus came nearer, nearer, seconds away.
She wasn't scared. And when the bus was just about to hit her. She saw him.
Running as fast and hard as he could. With a worried expression on his face.
Ready with an appology. She almost smiled. But then she remembered where
she was standing at this very moment ... and the only thing she could do is
mouth the words "I love you", right before she crashed into pieces.
You're different now . I could tell right away you don't care anymore, you live day to day
drugs, sex and alcohol is all that metters to you - you had me but you lost that too .
its nothing new, im just disapponted in you.
How do you throw away something like that when you've
been dreaming of something like it your whole life.
And when your finally on your way, its gone.
tell me I'm not making a mistake. tell me
that you're worth the wait, that you're always
going to be here. make me believe that I'm
making the right decision by still holding on.
show me that you're going to be around to
catch me when I fall.
Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away
that they were meant to be there, to serve some sort of purpose,
teach you a lesson, or to help you figure out who you are or who
you want to become. You never know who these people may be - a
roommate, a neighbor, a professor, a friend, a lover, or even a
complete stranger - but when you lock eyes with them, you know
at that very moment they will affect your life in some profound way.
i wish i could be the one you want to hold
the one you talk to all your friends about
the one who makes you smile.. but for now
i am ' just a friend ' .
honestly, have you ever really thought about it ?
you've got this girl head over heels in love with you.
she'd do anything for you, she'd die for you. but, for
some reason, you don't want to see that. you know
it's there, and you know how you feel about it, but
you refuse to let it be. maybe you're scared, maybe
you're scared of the thought that this girl you've
known for a while, you've seen her happy, you've
seen her sad - maybe this girl is perfect for you and
that really scares you, doesn't it ?
someone asked me if i knew you..
a million memories flashed through my mind
and i whispered "not anymore"..
your words are cold, and the season is
too. the comfort in your voice is gone.
don't keep in touch. i'm better off alone.
everything im not, made me everything i am .
wanna know who your true friends are?
fuck up and see who's still there
i know we havent spoken in a while but i was thinking about you, and it made me smile.
“I've had a couple of people betray me. I'm not a person who believes in holding grudges, but if one of my best friends did something really terrible to me, it would be very hard to ever really trust her again. What would stop her from doing something like that again? It's not like that person just changes and suddenly becomes different.”
-Lauren Conrad
she's seventeen years old. she's not perfect;
never has been, probably never will be. she's emotional and she doesn't think
about things before she says them. invariably, she'll say some things that will
make you want to strangle her. she'll probably hurt you and make more mistakes
than you can imagine. she doesn't mean to, but she probably will. however,
she will appologize. she's still learning about everything, even if she thinks she
already knows it. she's been hurt; hurt deeply. sometimes she feels so alone she
can hardly stand it. other times she's so happy she acts drunk. she's just trying
to figure out this twisted time in her life when everything gets real complicated
real fast and everything seems to spin out of control before she even begins to
understand whats going on. she loves, laughs, and does her best and thats
all you can ever ask of her.
Relationships are like glass.
Sometimes it's better to leave them broken
than try to hurt yourself putting it back together.
He's the only person she wants to be with.
He means so much to her. She loves his
stupid jokes, how he can change her entire
day by just giving her a hug, the way he can
always make her laugh, and how hes by her
side through everything that goes wrong.
We are all changing, growing up slowly. We fight for the things that mean the most to us and cry when those things disappear or leave. We are happy when things fit perfectly together but when one piece doesn't fit we seem to break down just give up. No ones perfect but for some reason we strive to be that. This world is full of impressing people or putting a good word out for others. Rumors are the new secrets, anything we say out loud is talked about the next day. We are told to tell how we feel and not to hold it in but these days holding it in is the farthest thing away from humiliation and a bad reputation. Its never about doing things for yourself its always about doing it for a boy, or a friend or to fit in but at the end of the day its just you, all alone, regreting something.
Its when I'm standing six feet away from you and not being able to find the words to tell you how much I love you and how much I miss you that I want to just scream to the whole room that I'm still in love with you. Its when I'm sitting alone with the phone in my hand dialing your number and hanging up that I would trade a thousand tomorrows for just one yesterday. Then I could just call you to tell you goodnight. It's when I am really sad about something and need someone to talk to that I realize you're the only one who really knew me at all. It's when I cry myself to sleep at night and it hits me how much I would give to hold you at that very moment. It's when I think about you that I realize no one else in the world is meant for me.
They put tape over your moth and scribbled it out with their little lies.
did you ever love me like you said you did?
Because I fell in love with you
& every word you said & now that it's all over.
Do you ever still think about me?
Because I do. My heart is exactly where you left it.
I try not to think about you
because I know you don't.
I try to move on because I know that I'm only hurting myself.
I put on a fake smile everyday
because I know that no matter how pretty I make myself look,
you will never se me the same.
Your first real kiss, your first true love, you were scared.
Show me where you learned about life, spent your summer
nights, without a care. Take me there. I wanna roll down main
street and backroads like you did when you were a kid. What
makes you who you are, tell me what your story is.
i wanna know everything about you.
i wanna know your hopes, and your dreams.
you need to let me in or let me out
I lied when I said I didn't like you anymore. The truth is, i like you more than ever. I lied when I said I was okay. The truth is, I've never been okay. I lied when I said I don't need you anymore. The truth is, I need you more than I everI have before. I lied when I said I was happy for you. The truth is, It kills me to see you with her. I lied when I said I found someone. The truth is, You’re my only one.
The bad thing about a girl with a broken heart is that, she starts handing out the pieces to any boy who comes around.
Disappearances happen in science. Disease can suddenly fade away, tumors go missing, and we open someone up to discover the cancer is gone. Its unexplained It's rare, but it happens. We call it mis-diagnosis say we never saw it in the first place, any explanation but the truth. That life is full of vanishing acts. If something that we didn't know we had disappears, do we miss it? -Grey's Anatomy
Because once upon a time, we were best friends. And, yes, there's been a lot of bad stuff in between. But none of that matters right now, okay? You need me, I'm there. Any time, any place, anywhere -Dawson's Creek
It was the best thing anyone had ever said to me, and it was the best for one reason: I felt exactly the same way. The person who loved me like this was the person I loved back-- which can feel like an absolute miracle. It is an absolute miracle. -Emily Giffin
" these days you'll meet someone, and for the time being they take my place
and i'll meet someone new - but in the end we will end up together "
Take out the Picture. Blow off the Dust. Take off the Frame; It's starting to Rust. Remember the times we had Together. What ever happened to Best Friends Forever?
Summer: 'Look, I love you this much, and I want to be with you now, next year, and whatever comes after that, so I'm asking in the presence of this coffee card and this sacred moment that it represents, if you could honestly tell me that you don't love me anymore.. '
[PAUSE]
Seth: 'Summer I..'
Summer: 'Just say it, Cohen. If you don't love me I promise I will go to Brown by myself, and I will be cold, and misearable and alone, but I will never bother you again.'
[PAUSE]
Seth: 'I don't love you anymore!'
i want that amazing christmas kiss.
you know, the one where you're under the mistloe,
not even realizing it, & all of a sudden he comes up
& cups your face in his hand and kisses you, & his
kiss leaves you competely breathless?
yeah, that one ..
- *[r]ad-icons
merry, merry christmas, baby.
although you're with somebody new,
thought i'd send a card to say that
i wish this holiday
would find me beside you
- *[r]ad-icons
it was cold. your hands were shaking, & i stepped in front of you
just to wrap my arms around you as i said, "let's pretend winter
isn`t here." as you buried your head into my shoulder, you said,
"let`s pretend the snow isn`t the only thing falling fast."
*[r]ad-icons
For once I wanna be the girl that makes
the player fall. I wanna be the girl that makes
him change & give his all. For once I wanna be
the girl that got him to quit his game,
Retire his jersey & draw hearts around my name.
If i had one wish, It would be that he would never forget about me.
Maybe once in a while he would think about me.
Maybe during one of those moments he would pick up the phone.
& dail the numbers he knows to well.
Maybe then he will realize we we could have
It has been a month or two since I last
saw your face. That smile that always made
me feel right at home. I try to tell myself
that I don't miss you, and I'm getting pretty
good at it overtime. It's just at night, staring
up at the starless sky with tears down my
cheeks, I know it's not true. I know.
I`m smiling & laughing with all my friends, then I notice you. As my smile
quickly fades, I wonder if you can really tell what I`m feeling. I wonder if deep
down hidden beneath my smiles, you can see my broken heart. I wonder if
maybe you`re feeling the same way.
look at all the pictures of the past, thinking of how the years went by so fast.
the dances, the parties, the jokes, the laughs, the shoulders to cry on, cute photos,
the people i've known since way back when, the new kids that came every now and then,
the friendships you make come and go, but there's always those few you'll always know.
now as we go our seperate ways, i know i'll never forget those days
It may seem that I haven't been thinking of you & that this memory of you I've
held in my heart, I've finally been able to let it go. I'm just trying to give you
some space, give you some time to realize how much you mean to me &
hopefully you'll pick up your act & come back. You & I both know that deep
inside this thing we got going on ain't ever going to stop. Because as much
as I cry, fight, & stress about you, I wouldn't do it if I didn't think that you were
worth it. Whoever you decide to let take my place, just remember that it won't
be for long because even though we're not together, please don't doubt that it
was real. I don't know what else to do but to wait, wait for better things, better
days. A better time for us so that this time, we're gonna make it. I don't want a
fresh start; I want to learn from our mistakes together. You know I'd do anything
for you, I wanna see how far you'll go for me. There's a lot of things I want, &
you're not one of them. I need you. I keep trying push away these feelings &
hide the underneath anything that will keep me sane for the day. Me & you,
we're just the 8th wonder of the world. I'm dying inside because I hope what
I'm saying isn't too late. Ask anyone that knows me well; the best part about
me was you.
when im around you my confidence dissapears,
because i dont feel like im up to your standards.
your beauty is intimidating, and i cant get you out of my head.
something about the way you looked at me,
made me think for a moment that we were meant to be .
i wished nothing could take away that feeling,
but even if i know nothing can change between us,
everytime i talk to you, i fall a little harder .
and i guess i just have to understand . . .
that destiny doesn't want us together
"A sonnet: I don't know how to write.
A haiku: 5-7-5 seems too tight.
Then there are three little words I'm not able to say.
But Taylor, this is what I can tell you today.
Though I can't say those words tonight.
Please stick with me because I feel someday I might."
- Ryan's poem to Taylor
i dont know why we all hang onto something
when we know we're better off letting go. it's
like we are scared to lose what we don't even
really have. some of us say we'd rather have
something than absolutely nothing, but the
truth is, to have it halfway is harder
than not having it at all.
I’ve learned to realize that you’re not what I want, and you were never what I wanted in someone. Now that I’m looking back on it and looking back on you, I’m realizing you never deserved me and that you were a mistake. I’m not going to say I regret you because everything happens for a reason but I should’ve never let you have me. It was a lesson learned. I just want you to know, now that I’m seeing how there are so many better people then you out there, you will never have a chance to have me back, never. Because you don’t deserve everything I have to offer. And to me, you’re just another face in the crowd. After all, my life was fine before I met you and it can go back to that.
I try to talk to you, but I don't know what to say. I am afraid you don't want me to say anything. So I don't. But inside of me there are words waiting to come out. And tell you how I feel-like how I miss you. And how I love you despite my broken heart. And how I need you in my life. And especially how much I want you. But those words may forever stay in my heart-locked inside. Sometimes I wonder if there are words locked inside you too... but I'll never know.
Once in a life time, means there's no second chance, so i belive that you and me should grab it while we can. We could make everything soo much better if you finally just understood how much you mean to me, and how much i love you. I don't think you get it, this is isn't a waste of time, you've just made everyday of my life a better experience. It's made me grow up, and understand that things don't always work out. I see you everyday, smile at you, and just wish that you understood how i feel. But i guess you won't understand, until you're in this position. You get me confused really easily, but somehow i can still say im in love. You get me into tears, but i can still say i love you. You get me angry, but i can still say i love you. I can always say i love you, because after i get through these moments, i think of the person who put me in this situation, and it brings a smile to my face. I don't understand, but i guess it's true love. These are my true feelings for you. I've never felt them for anyone else. However, i know deep down, i have to move on. I know it's time, and i hope you know i won't wait around forever. It's hard enough now, i can only imagine it in 3 years. But i love you, and thank you for everything, i'll never forget you
Heres to the people that have had their hearts stepped on by that one boy that you can just never get over. That one boy that the more and more you try , you just know you can never become "just friends" with. That boy that screws you over time and time again but each time you always come running back to them because in the back of your head you know theres hope. That boy that is that pain in the rear-end. When everything is going fine in your life hes always there to make sure he screws you over. That boy that when the phone rings you just hope its him. That boy that you think about very hour of every minute of every second and even though you have tons of bull shit going on in your life, hes always theres in the back of your head.
I'm garunteed everyone has has that boy, but most of us need to come realize that boys arn't worth the tears & the pain. If you really think about it, who deserves that? NO girl should ever have to go through that for a boy. Yes, he may be perfect, the way he smiles, the way he laughs, the way he smells, the way he dresses, the way he looks at you, but if you look deep down all those things that are just on the outside of a person dont even add up to what is on the inside. And its the inside of the person that counts. So next time you see that stupid boy in the hallway, just ignore it and walk by confidently and show that hes not going to take advantage of you anymore, because you are so much better than that. It may take a long time, but find that boy that respects you for who you are and wont step all over you like he owns you and have you crying yourself to sleep every single night. Keep looking and never give up because hes out there. And remember .
the only boy that is wroth your tears is the one that shouldnt make you cry in the first place
AS YOU CAN TELL, I TRIED TO DO SOME BIG ONES THIS TIME . HOPE YOU LIKED THEM !
don't you just love.. how things can go from good to bad,
from bad to horrible & just keep on getting worse as time goes on.
or how in a matter of a 5 minute argument,
you could end up losing someone who meant everything to you.
people change, girls talk, lovers cheat, and best friends ditch,
and theres always going to be those people who would kill to see you fall
but no matter how hard it gets, keep your head up, and handle it
& looks like in the end all you can depend on is yourself
because "best friends" isn't a promise anymore.. it's just a label.
Dont change yourself for one person, they are probably
not worth it, if you have to change yourself for them.
Dont make somebody your everything,
because when they are gone youve got nothing.
Learn how to be optimistic, drama is a waste of time.
Stop listening to the remarks, rumors and lies.
Smile as much as possible, smiles make our
world so much brighter.
Crying is healthy, don't be afraid to show your feelings.
Enjoy the outdoors, fresh air does good to a person.
Make time for yourself, its refreshes your mind, body and soul.
Dont point out others imperfections until youve fixed your own.
Laugh with your friends, laughing makes everything better.
Change happens, welcome it as you would welcome an old friend.
Remember to tell people how you feel because they might
never know you love them if you don't.
And finally, make time for family, they will stick with you
no matter what you get yourself into.
tell me I'm not making a mistake. tell me that you're worth the
wait, that you're always going to be here. make me believe
that I'm making the right decision by still holding on. show me
that you're going to be around to catch me when I fall.
im the one that has to die when it's time for me
to die, so let me live my life the way I want to.
you told me to make you or break you. i said both would be bad for the 2 of us, but you didnt care.
i decided to break you. 3 years later, i see you never really got over it. then again, you never listen to me.
You know, I saw you today, just when I thought
I was beginning to forget you. The instant that I saw you,
I got nervous, my stomach began to turn, & I almost started
crying & as much as I didn't want to look at you,
I couldn't take my eyes off you.
you really want to know why i hate you as much as i do !? do you !? do you !?
fine, ill tell you. its because you're the only boy i've fallen this hard for it, and it hurt.
you want to be my life? you want my soul?
thats nice, but i want my heart back first.
flipping through photos, as my tears fall. i wasn't ready to say
goodbye to it all. i remember our memories like back
in the fall. still not ready to say goodbye to it all.
i still see you at school, as we pass in the hall. i hear
myself think, goodbye to it all. our friendship was
close, but now we never call. so i stand
saying goodbye to it all.
- ~Jen78~
scary movies make her jump
she hates it when people dont call her back
she envies every single couple that walks
around showing it all she wants to be is
happy, and lately.. all she thinks about is you
our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
it is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.
your playing small does not serve the world.
there is nothing enlightened about shrinking
so that other people won’t feel insecure around you.
we are all meant to shine as children do.
it is not just in some of us, it is in everyone.
and as we let our own lights shine,
we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
as we are liberated from our own fear,
our presence automatically liberates others
I try to talk to you, but I don't know what to say. I am afraid you don't want me to say anything. So I don't. But inside of me there are words waiting to come out. And tell you how I feel-like how I miss you. And how I love you despite my broken heart. And how I need you in my life. And especially how much I want you. But those words may forever stay in my heart-locked inside. Sometimes I wonder if there are words locked inside you too... but I'll never know.
Once in a life time, means there's no second chance, so i believe that you and me should grab it while we can. We could make everything so much better if you finally just understood how much you mean to me, and how much i love you. I don't think you get it, this isn't a waste of time, you've just made everyday of my life a better experience. It's made me grow up, and understand that things don't always work out. I see you everyday, smile at you, and just wish that you understood how i feel. But i guess you won't understand, until you're in this position. You get me confused really easily, but somehow i can still say im in love. You get me into tears, but i can still say i love you. You get me angry, but i can still say i love you. I can always say i love you, because after i get through these moments, i think of the person who put me in this situation, and it brings a smile to my face. I don't understand, but i guess it's true love. These are my true feelings for you. I've never felt them for anyone else. However, i know deep down, i have to move on. I know it's time, and i hope you know i won't wait around forever. It's hard enough now, i can only imagine it in 3 years. But i love you, and thank you for everything, i'll never forget you..<3
I remember EVERYTHING about that day. It had just finished snowing, and it was sunny out, and i was really happy. I was wearing jeans and a t-shirt. My hair was straight and in a puff. I was anxious, excited, and scared. I was sitting there, hoping to hear the answer, i had been waiting to here forever, but the most i got was " let's just be friends". Suddenly, i just felt, broken, self conscious. How could that happen, i waited sooo long, just to hear " let's just be friends". What was wrong with me ..
That was the day i told him- i loved him
you swear you recall nothing at all that could make you come back down.
you made up your mind to leave it all behind. now you're forced to fight
it out. you fall away from your past, but it's following you. you left something
undone, it's now your rerun. it's the one you can't erase. you should have
made it right, so you wouldn't have to fight to put a smile back on your face.
you fall awayfrom your past, but it's following you. you're falling apart,
and tearing at the seams.
im in love, so are you. so why dont we do what we want to?
maybe i am scared. maybe i cant live without you. maybe i do need you. maybe i do think about you.
maybe i do wish you were mine. maybe we were meant to be. maybe you need me too. maybe all i
need is your love. maybe its time to choose. maybe you are my everything. how about you stop with
the maybes? the whole world knows no one has a better love than us. lets get this going now .
don't waste your time regretting all your wrongs.
know that in the end, you'll get what your heart
longs. try not to risk it all: don't stumble, don't fall.
take the time to read the writings on the wall. hold
your head high, don't be afraid to say goodbye. stay
true and be you. do everything there is to do. live life
to the fullest and never look back, there's a reason
for the future and a reason for the past. love til it hurts
and laugh til you cry. when your life flashes before
you die, be happy for what you've done, be happy
for what you've overcome, and most of all, be proud of
what you have become
I need you! i dont care if you dont need me all i want is for you to notice i exist! i can take it from there.
same old story, boy meets girl.
shes still holding on.. while hes letting go.
when you call she doesn't answer
when you write she doesn't answer
you go out, you see him with her.
she told you she was sick at home.
It's not okay because he made me laugh. Because
I didn't have to pretend to be anything other than
who I am when I was with him. Because I don't
believe that stuff about finding your other half,
but because I do believe that what you look for is
someone who makes you a better person when
you're with them, who changes you for the better,
who makes you the best person you can possibly be,
& because I thought I had found that in him.
you'll never guess the secret i've been holding in for so long,
we've been best friends since we were born, its hard to imagine
i've kept this from you for so long but.. i love you.
" I have feelings for him. Romantic feelings. "
- The OC
" its hard to tell who has your back,
and who has it long enough to just
stab you in it. " - Nicole Richie
push me into the snow.
hold my hand. kiss me by surprise.
cuddle under a blanket and pretend the
snow isn't the only thing falling fast
she ran away, as hard and fast as she could, this has got to be the 10th
time, i'm really going to do it this time. She told herself. She took one glance
down the alley, too make sure he wasn't running as fast as he could, with an
appology ready. She saw no one. Maybe I should go back? She thought to
herself. But the cuts on her wrist, reasured her that she knew what she was
doing. She saw a bus nearing her. One step at a time, she walked towards
her death. One last tear trikled down her cheek, leaving her almost motionless.
It was to dark to see much. The only light was coming from a dim streetlamp.
The bus driver would not see her. The bus came nearer, nearer, seconds away.
She wasn't scared. And when the bus was just about to hit her. She saw him.
Running as fast and hard as he could. With a worried expression on his face.
Ready with an appology. She almost smiled. But then she remembered where
she was standing at this very moment ... and the only thing she could do is
mouth the words "I love you", right before she crashed into pieces.
You're different now . I could tell right away you don't care anymore, you live day to day
drugs, sex and alcohol is all that metters to you - you had me but you lost that too .
its nothing new, im just disapponted in you.
How do you throw away something like that when you've
been dreaming of something like it your whole life.
And when your finally on your way, its gone.
tell me I'm not making a mistake. tell me
that you're worth the wait, that you're always
going to be here. make me believe that I'm
making the right decision by still holding on.
show me that you're going to be around to
catch me when I fall.
Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away
that they were meant to be there, to serve some sort of purpose,
teach you a lesson, or to help you figure out who you are or who
you want to become. You never know who these people may be - a
roommate, a neighbor, a professor, a friend, a lover, or even a
complete stranger - but when you lock eyes with them, you know
at that very moment they will affect your life in some profound way.
i wish i could be the one you want to hold
the one you talk to all your friends about
the one who makes you smile.. but for now
i am ' just a friend ' .
honestly, have you ever really thought about it ?
you've got this girl head over heels in love with you.
she'd do anything for you, she'd die for you. but, for
some reason, you don't want to see that. you know
it's there, and you know how you feel about it, but
you refuse to let it be. maybe you're scared, maybe
you're scared of the thought that this girl you've
known for a while, you've seen her happy, you've
seen her sad - maybe this girl is perfect for you and
that really scares you, doesn't it ?
someone asked me if i knew you..
a million memories flashed through my mind
and i whispered "not anymore"..
your words are cold, and the season is
too. the comfort in your voice is gone.
don't keep in touch. i'm better off alone.
everything im not, made me everything i am .
wanna know who your true friends are?
fuck up and see who's still there
i know we havent spoken in a while but i was thinking about you, and it made me smile.
“I've had a couple of people betray me. I'm not a person who believes in holding grudges, but if one of my best friends did something really terrible to me, it would be very hard to ever really trust her again. What would stop her from doing something like that again? It's not like that person just changes and suddenly becomes different.”
-Lauren Conrad
she's seventeen years old. she's not perfect;
never has been, probably never will be. she's emotional and she doesn't think
about things before she says them. invariably, she'll say some things that will
make you want to strangle her. she'll probably hurt you and make more mistakes
than you can imagine. she doesn't mean to, but she probably will. however,
she will appologize. she's still learning about everything, even if she thinks she
already knows it. she's been hurt; hurt deeply. sometimes she feels so alone she
can hardly stand it. other times she's so happy she acts drunk. she's just trying
to figure out this twisted time in her life when everything gets real complicated
real fast and everything seems to spin out of control before she even begins to
understand whats going on. she loves, laughs, and does her best and thats
all you can ever ask of her.
Relationships are like glass.
Sometimes it's better to leave them broken
than try to hurt yourself putting it back together.
He's the only person she wants to be with.
He means so much to her. She loves his
stupid jokes, how he can change her entire
day by just giving her a hug, the way he can
always make her laugh, and how hes by her
side through everything that goes wrong.
We are all changing, growing up slowly. We fight for the things that mean the most to us and cry when those things disappear or leave. We are happy when things fit perfectly together but when one piece doesn't fit we seem to break down just give up. No ones perfect but for some reason we strive to be that. This world is full of impressing people or putting a good word out for others. Rumors are the new secrets, anything we say out loud is talked about the next day. We are told to tell how we feel and not to hold it in but these days holding it in is the farthest thing away from humiliation and a bad reputation. Its never about doing things for yourself its always about doing it for a boy, or a friend or to fit in but at the end of the day its just you, all alone, regreting something.
Its when I'm standing six feet away from you and not being able to find the words to tell you how much I love you and how much I miss you that I want to just scream to the whole room that I'm still in love with you. Its when I'm sitting alone with the phone in my hand dialing your number and hanging up that I would trade a thousand tomorrows for just one yesterday. Then I could just call you to tell you goodnight. It's when I am really sad about something and need someone to talk to that I realize you're the only one who really knew me at all. It's when I cry myself to sleep at night and it hits me how much I would give to hold you at that very moment. It's when I think about you that I realize no one else in the world is meant for me.
They put tape over your moth and scribbled it out with their little lies.
did you ever love me like you said you did?
Because I fell in love with you
& every word you said & now that it's all over.
Do you ever still think about me?
Because I do. My heart is exactly where you left it.
I try not to think about you
because I know you don't.
I try to move on because I know that I'm only hurting myself.
I put on a fake smile everyday
because I know that no matter how pretty I make myself look,
you will never se me the same.
Your first real kiss, your first true love, you were scared.
Show me where you learned about life, spent your summer
nights, without a care. Take me there. I wanna roll down main
street and backroads like you did when you were a kid. What
makes you who you are, tell me what your story is.
i wanna know everything about you.
i wanna know your hopes, and your dreams.
you need to let me in or let me out
I lied when I said I didn't like you anymore. The truth is, i like you more than ever. I lied when I said I was okay. The truth is, I've never been okay. I lied when I said I don't need you anymore. The truth is, I need you more than I everI have before. I lied when I said I was happy for you. The truth is, It kills me to see you with her. I lied when I said I found someone. The truth is, You’re my only one.
The bad thing about a girl with a broken heart is that, she starts handing out the pieces to any boy who comes around.
Disappearances happen in science. Disease can suddenly fade away, tumors go missing, and we open someone up to discover the cancer is gone. Its unexplained It's rare, but it happens. We call it mis-diagnosis say we never saw it in the first place, any explanation but the truth. That life is full of vanishing acts. If something that we didn't know we had disappears, do we miss it? -Grey's Anatomy
Because once upon a time, we were best friends. And, yes, there's been a lot of bad stuff in between. But none of that matters right now, okay? You need me, I'm there. Any time, any place, anywhere -Dawson's Creek
It was the best thing anyone had ever said to me, and it was the best for one reason: I felt exactly the same way. The person who loved me like this was the person I loved back-- which can feel like an absolute miracle. It is an absolute miracle. -Emily Giffin
" these days you'll meet someone, and for the time being they take my place
and i'll meet someone new - but in the end we will end up together "
Take out the Picture. Blow off the Dust. Take off the Frame; It's starting to Rust. Remember the times we had Together. What ever happened to Best Friends Forever?
Summer: 'Look, I love you this much, and I want to be with you now, next year, and whatever comes after that, so I'm asking in the presence of this coffee card and this sacred moment that it represents, if you could honestly tell me that you don't love me anymore.. '
[PAUSE]
Seth: 'Summer I..'
Summer: 'Just say it, Cohen. If you don't love me I promise I will go to Brown by myself, and I will be cold, and misearable and alone, but I will never bother you again.'
[PAUSE]
Seth: 'I don't love you anymore!'
i want that amazing christmas kiss.
you know, the one where you're under the mistloe,
not even realizing it, & all of a sudden he comes up
& cups your face in his hand and kisses you, & his
kiss leaves you competely breathless?
yeah, that one ..
- *[r]ad-icons
merry, merry christmas, baby.
although you're with somebody new,
thought i'd send a card to say that
i wish this holiday
would find me beside you
- *[r]ad-icons
it was cold. your hands were shaking, & i stepped in front of you
just to wrap my arms around you as i said, "let's pretend winter
isn`t here." as you buried your head into my shoulder, you said,
"let`s pretend the snow isn`t the only thing falling fast."
*[r]ad-icons
For once I wanna be the girl that makes
the player fall. I wanna be the girl that makes
him change & give his all. For once I wanna be
the girl that got him to quit his game,
Retire his jersey & draw hearts around my name.
If i had one wish, It would be that he would never forget about me.
Maybe once in a while he would think about me.
Maybe during one of those moments he would pick up the phone.
& dail the numbers he knows to well.
Maybe then he will realize we we could have
It has been a month or two since I last
saw your face. That smile that always made
me feel right at home. I try to tell myself
that I don't miss you, and I'm getting pretty
good at it overtime. It's just at night, staring
up at the starless sky with tears down my
cheeks, I know it's not true. I know.
I`m smiling & laughing with all my friends, then I notice you. As my smile
quickly fades, I wonder if you can really tell what I`m feeling. I wonder if deep
down hidden beneath my smiles, you can see my broken heart. I wonder if
maybe you`re feeling the same way.
look at all the pictures of the past, thinking of how the years went by so fast.
the dances, the parties, the jokes, the laughs, the shoulders to cry on, cute photos,
the people i've known since way back when, the new kids that came every now and then,
the friendships you make come and go, but there's always those few you'll always know.
now as we go our seperate ways, i know i'll never forget those days
It may seem that I haven't been thinking of you & that this memory of you I've
held in my heart, I've finally been able to let it go. I'm just trying to give you
some space, give you some time to realize how much you mean to me &
hopefully you'll pick up your act & come back. You & I both know that deep
inside this thing we got going on ain't ever going to stop. Because as much
as I cry, fight, & stress about you, I wouldn't do it if I didn't think that you were
worth it. Whoever you decide to let take my place, just remember that it won't
be for long because even though we're not together, please don't doubt that it
was real. I don't know what else to do but to wait, wait for better things, better
days. A better time for us so that this time, we're gonna make it. I don't want a
fresh start; I want to learn from our mistakes together. You know I'd do anything
for you, I wanna see how far you'll go for me. There's a lot of things I want, &
you're not one of them. I need you. I keep trying push away these feelings &
hide the underneath anything that will keep me sane for the day. Me & you,
we're just the 8th wonder of the world. I'm dying inside because I hope what
I'm saying isn't too late. Ask anyone that knows me well; the best part about
me was you.
when im around you my confidence dissapears,
because i dont feel like im up to your standards.
your beauty is intimidating, and i cant get you out of my head.
something about the way you looked at me,
made me think for a moment that we were meant to be .
i wished nothing could take away that feeling,
but even if i know nothing can change between us,
everytime i talk to you, i fall a little harder .
and i guess i just have to understand . . .
that destiny doesn't want us together
"A sonnet: I don't know how to write.
A haiku: 5-7-5 seems too tight.
Then there are three little words I'm not able to say.
But Taylor, this is what I can tell you today.
Though I can't say those words tonight.
Please stick with me because I feel someday I might."
- Ryan's poem to Taylor
i dont know why we all hang onto something
when we know we're better off letting go. it's
like we are scared to lose what we don't even
really have. some of us say we'd rather have
something than absolutely nothing, but the
truth is, to have it halfway is harder
than not having it at all.
I’ve learned to realize that you’re not what I want, and you were never what I wanted in someone. Now that I’m looking back on it and looking back on you, I’m realizing you never deserved me and that you were a mistake. I’m not going to say I regret you because everything happens for a reason but I should’ve never let you have me. It was a lesson learned. I just want you to know, now that I’m seeing how there are so many better people then you out there, you will never have a chance to have me back, never. Because you don’t deserve everything I have to offer. And to me, you’re just another face in the crowd. After all, my life was fine before I met you and it can go back to that.
I try to talk to you, but I don't know what to say. I am afraid you don't want me to say anything. So I don't. But inside of me there are words waiting to come out. And tell you how I feel-like how I miss you. And how I love you despite my broken heart. And how I need you in my life. And especially how much I want you. But those words may forever stay in my heart-locked inside. Sometimes I wonder if there are words locked inside you too... but I'll never know.
Once in a life time, means there's no second chance, so i belive that you and me should grab it while we can. We could make everything soo much better if you finally just understood how much you mean to me, and how much i love you. I don't think you get it, this is isn't a waste of time, you've just made everyday of my life a better experience. It's made me grow up, and understand that things don't always work out. I see you everyday, smile at you, and just wish that you understood how i feel. But i guess you won't understand, until you're in this position. You get me confused really easily, but somehow i can still say im in love. You get me into tears, but i can still say i love you. You get me angry, but i can still say i love you. I can always say i love you, because after i get through these moments, i think of the person who put me in this situation, and it brings a smile to my face. I don't understand, but i guess it's true love. These are my true feelings for you. I've never felt them for anyone else. However, i know deep down, i have to move on. I know it's time, and i hope you know i won't wait around forever. It's hard enough now, i can only imagine it in 3 years. But i love you, and thank you for everything, i'll never forget you
Heres to the people that have had their hearts stepped on by that one boy that you can just never get over. That one boy that the more and more you try , you just know you can never become "just friends" with. That boy that screws you over time and time again but each time you always come running back to them because in the back of your head you know theres hope. That boy that is that pain in the rear-end. When everything is going fine in your life hes always there to make sure he screws you over. That boy that when the phone rings you just hope its him. That boy that you think about very hour of every minute of every second and even though you have tons of bull shit going on in your life, hes always theres in the back of your head.
I'm garunteed everyone has has that boy, but most of us need to come realize that boys arn't worth the tears & the pain. If you really think about it, who deserves that? NO girl should ever have to go through that for a boy. Yes, he may be perfect, the way he smiles, the way he laughs, the way he smells, the way he dresses, the way he looks at you, but if you look deep down all those things that are just on the outside of a person dont even add up to what is on the inside. And its the inside of the person that counts. So next time you see that stupid boy in the hallway, just ignore it and walk by confidently and show that hes not going to take advantage of you anymore, because you are so much better than that. It may take a long time, but find that boy that respects you for who you are and wont step all over you like he owns you and have you crying yourself to sleep every single night. Keep looking and never give up because hes out there. And remember .
the only boy that is wroth your tears is the one that shouldnt make you cry in the first place
AS YOU CAN TELL, I TRIED TO DO SOME BIG ONES THIS TIME . HOPE YOU LIKED THEM !
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