I totally need to make new blog entries!

So much has happened since my last entry.
I wasn't going to write this today, but a friend asked me to so I decided I'd give it a try.
First though, as followup to my last journal, it wasn't IRC or gmail that was increasing my phone bill. It's actually just that annoying access fee thing for 911 and stuff.

School went... well... basically how I expected it to. I failed two of my classes, one of which was calculus. (Technically I failed another class but I got credit in it once I showed my university transcript). Programming... well, I sort of didn't do the assignments. I aced the exams, but because I hadn't done the assignments, I didn't pass.
I met with my academic advisor and we went over my possibilities. And I'll be taking a reduced course load over the next few semesters.

During exam week, I met someone amazing. She cooks really good steak. My parents got so pissed off that I stayed over at her house. I hate how they restrict my freedom. They won't let me stay over with her... it sucks cause I was only going to cuddle her as we slept. I found out how much I love holding someone in my arms while I sleep. Cuddling is very awesome.
She is also the only person, as far as I know, that I can be with and not need to be on the internet while I'm with her. The first few times I went to her place I brought my laptop but I didn't bother opening it so I don't bring it these days. Also, I've been told I'm very talented at lovemaking (yay! atleast I'm naturally good at something. XD ). (Apparently, my fingers are incredibly skilled too! I'm very proud)

Now that I found out about school stuff, I'll be taking extra hours at work, so I may have a weird schedule at times.

Had a wisdom tooth pulled last monday. My last one gets pulled this upcoming monday. Hung out with my friend Kuna for most of the week. One day we went to the West Edmonton Mall. They are filming a movie there which is kind of neat. It's the biggest mall in the world and it is really awesome. Of course, neither of us did any shopping (and until I get more hours at work, I can't afford much shopping) but we looked at all kinds of stores and had a great time.
On friday, we walked around the city (I also took her to a restaurant called death by chocolate... it was soooooo good) and then went to some hiking trails in a forest. It was very pretty and I really enjoyed exploring. We had lots of fun. And I took tons of pics.
This is really what I've needed. To get my ass off the internet and interact with real people. Well... not just any people... just her. And I can hardly wait till I get to see her next. She's shown me parts of the city I never even knew existed. She is so incredibly wonderful. I'm really glad I met her.

err... I know there is TONS of stuff I forgot to mention. But maybe later, when I remember, I'll add it.

I have either got allergies or a cold. Either way, I am stuffed up. But hopefully I'll be less stuffed up soon.

Also, my server makes me happy. I did a tiny bit more code on it (really simplistic) but I'm happy about the uptime.
$ uptime
10:54PM up 414 days, 7:19, 5 users, load averages: 0.00, 0.00, 0.00

Now for a teensy bit of feelings:

.longing.

As I lay here in bed, alone
I miss her.
I miss her warmth,
her scent.
I miss her warm lips
pressed against mine.
I miss the way her black hair
brushes across my face.
I miss gazing into her deep brown eyes,
losing myself in their beautiful depths.
I miss the way she burrows into me,
snuggling up close,
laying her head on my chest.
I miss how it feels to hold her close,
to caress her soft, delicate skin.
I miss her warm breath,
as it caresses my neck.
I miss holding her while she sleeps.

stolen from .meagan.

THE RULES ARE AS FOLLOWS:
1. You can only say Yes or No!
2. You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone messages you and asks!
3. DO NOT SAY ANYTHING BESIDES YES OR NO!!!
4. Repost this as the Yes/No Game!

--------------------------------------------------
Over 18? yes
Kissed someone on your friends list? yes
Danced in front of your mirror naked? yes
Ever told a lie? yes
Tripped on mushrooms? no
Done Ecstasy? no
Been arrested? no
Kissed a picture? yes
Fallen asleep at work/school? yes
Held an actual snake? no
Ran a red light? yes
Been suspended from school? yes
Totaled your car/motorbike in an accident? no
Been fired from a job? no
Sang karaoke? yes
Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? yes
Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? yes
Caught a snowflake on your tongue? yes
Kissed in the rain? no
Sang in the shower? yes
Thought about your past with regret? yes
Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? no
Broken a bone? yes
Shaved your head? no
Slept naked? yes
Blacked out? yes
Blacked out from drinking? yes
Played a prank on someone? yes
Been wrongly judged? yes
Stayed up longer than 24 hours straight? yes
Had/Have a gym membership? yes
Felt like killing someone? yes
Made a girlfriend/boyfriend cry? yes
Been in a band? no
Shot a gun? no
Liked someone with nobody else knowing about it? yes
Played strip poker? no
Donated Blood? no
Loved someone you shouldn't? yes
Have a tattoo? no
Have or had any piercings besides ears? no

======================

stolen from Jessica.x
L - A - S - T
01. Last cigarette: never
02. Last kiss: month or two ago
03. Last cry: maybe yesterday?
04. Last library book checked out: I dunno... a long time ago
05. Last movie seen in theaters: silent hill
06. Last book read: The Watchers
07. Last cuss word uttered: fuck
08. Last beverage drank: coke
9. Last food consumed?: sandwich
11. Last TV show watched: I rarely watch tv
12. Last time showered: last night
13. Last shoes worn: my hiking boots <3
15. Last soda drank: coke
16. Last thing written: penises lol
17. Last words spoken: cock
18. Last annoyance: the world
19. Last time scolded someone: dunno
20. Last web site visited: nexopia

B - O - D - Y:
01. Piercings: none
2. Tattoos: none
03. Height: 5'11
04. Shoe size: 11? I dunno
05. Hair color: dark brown with red hilights
06. Eye color: hazel

L A S T . . .
01. Movie you rented: dunno
03. Song you listened to: I dunno
04. Song that was stuck in your head?: stop asking such fucking hard questions!
05. CD you bought: the nine inch nails one?
06. Person that's called you: Laura
10. Person you were thinking of: Cori
11. Friend you made mad: Cori

T R U E O R F A L S E . . .
01. You have a crush on someone: True.
02. You wish you could live somewhere else: True
03. Think about suicide: True
04. You believe in a God: true
05. You want more Piercings: false.
06. You drink/have drank: True
07. You do/did drugs: True
08. You smoke/have smoked: false
09. You like cleaning: False
10. You like roller coasters: false
11. You write in cursive: false

F O R *O R * A G A I N S T...
01. Long distance relationship: for.
02. Teenage smoking: against
03. Doing drugs: for
04. Driving drunk: against
06. Someone uses someone for their goodies: against
07. KFC: for

H A V E*Y O U
01. Ever cried over the opposite sex: yes.
02. Ever lied to someone: yes.
03. Ever been in a fist fight: yeah
04. Ever been arrested: no.

RANDOM...
01. Who is your best friend?: Cori
02. Shoes do you wear: hiking shoes, lol
03. Are you scared of love?: no
04. What are your favorite bands?: lots

NUMBER...
01. Of times you have been in love? many
02. Of times you have had your heart broken? too many
03. Of hearts you have broken? probably one or two
04. Of drugs taken? ...lots
05. Of people you consider your enemies? none
06. Of scars on your body? got some

Date: March 1st, 2007
Mood: cold, apathetic

I'd almost swear I was a sinusoidal function or something.

Lastnight
Well, I had code to write. But I was missing someone. A lot. But I promised a friend I wouldn't be emo because it was hurting him. And I really didn't feel up to doing anything. So I took the stuff that helps me sleep again, hoping it would calm me, and it helped, but not enough. So I got my bottle of Jack Daniels out and had a glass of it. This helped even more and soon I was singing along with 80's songs!
Now, as for the coding... I have successfully written code while drunk before. But I was feeling artistic so I cropped and resized some photos instead! But then I was tired so I went to bed instead and didn't actually get around to coding.

Food
Food hasn't really interested me lately. I'm barely eating and when I do, it is not particularly healthy (I seem to only be able to force myself to eat tiny amounts of chocolate). Actually, a lot of things haven't interested me lately. I didn't feel like waking up earlier so I missed my first class and now, I'm seriously considering hanging out at the mall instead of going to math.

Mental health
lol, more like the lack thereof. I'm not entirely sure what is going on, nor do I want to speculate why I've become like this. And I don't want anyone else jumping to conclusions either. I dunno, everything just feels pointless lately.

Giving up
I dunno, I guess that seems like the best way to describe how I feel. I feel like I've pretty much given up on everything.
I'm not really the type to lie online, so I won't say I'm happy, but I'm not emo or depressed or anything, so don't worry about me.

Sleep
I thought I slept well, but I guess I didn't. I kept falling asleep on the bus. I don't think I'll go to the mall, I think I'll just sleep through math-class instead.
And I still need help on that laplace stuff.

lying to myself
no matter how much I convince myself otherwise, everything I do is for selfish reasons, and I'd like to apologize to everyone about that.

I just got myself some coffee in hopes it will perk me up.
I don't know how I keep writing these entries.

Title: A lonely week.
February 26th, 2007
Mood: bored, missing you,
Smelling: diesel fuel
Tags: music, insanity, reading week, sunrise, edmonton

http://nikuramon.blogspot.com/2007/02/lonely-week.​html <--I like this one, it is pretty IMHO
http://nikuramon.livejournal.com/23700.html

February, 14th, 2007.
Mood: Energetic/refreshed/excited

The end of one era...

...the beginning of another

Tags: blogs, blogging, social networking, weather, cold, sexshoes, notFail, school

Synopsis:
I decided to change the way I blog.
Details on one of the blogs listed below.

links:
-Blogs:
http://nikuramon.livejournal.com/
http://nikuramon.blogspot.com/
http://nikuramon.vox.com/
-Other:
http://del.icio.us/nikuramon
http://www.last.fm/user/nikuramon/

1.) When showering, do you start the water and then get in or get in and start the water?:
First, I start the water, making sure it is sufficiently hot (once I'm in, I'll turn the temperature almost up to scalding, gradually). Once the short pipe to the shower head has warmed up, I stop the flow, open the curtain, and step in, resuming the flow and practically melting as I relax.

2.) Do you read the labels on the shampoo bottle?:
yep. more out of boredom than out of any actual concern for the ingredients or the instructions.

3.) Do you moan in the shower like the people on the herbal essence commercial?:
Not when I'm using the shampoo, no, but when I stand there, the steamy water hitting the back of my neck, my shoulders, caressing my back as it flows in hot rivulets down my spine... I do purr a bit in pleasure. *closes his eyes, his pulse quickening*
*shivers* showers feel so good.

5.) Have you ever been forced to shower with one of your siblings?
Baths with my brother when I was like 5 or something, I vaguely remember.

6.) Have you ever brushed your teeth while in the shower?:
no. I had not even considered the possibility until this moment

7.) Have you ever dropped your soap on your foot?:
not that I can remember

9.) How old do you look?
People say I look older than I am. I dunno how old I look. 23 maybe?

10.) What's the last song you heard/sang?
Hmm... something by freezepop. Stakeout, I think.

11.) Have you recently become a member of anything?:
I don't believe so.

12.) What are your plans for the weekend?:
Homework and work, probably. Also, I hope to hang out with Kevan, or my best friend, Chris, or Laura. Or any combination of them.

13.) What is your mood at the moment?:
kinda lonely. Bored. Wanting to be home, chatting with my friends.

14.) Have you ever ridden a mechanical bull?:
sounds kinda hot
seriously though, I haven't. I've never even seen one.

17.) Have you ever called anyone a slut?:
I believe so

18.) Has anyone ever called you a slut?:
yes. And I totally am. e-slut ftw!

19). Have you ever smuggled something into America?:
not yet

20.) Does playing a guitar make someone more attractive?:
mh. it really depends on the person.

21.) Do you live in a city with a good sports team?:
Hell yeah! Edmonton Oilers! Hockey is awesome!

25.) Do you have more enemies or more friends?:
Well, considering that I'm incredibly likable, I don't know why anyone would ever have any reason to want to be my enemy. So I definitely have more friends. (and the more friends the better)

26.) Have you ever sent an anonymous letter?:
I do not believe so.

27.) Can you fix your own car?:
If I had a car, the answer would be yes because I'm like that. Although I probably wouldn't have tons of time to tinker, I'd know how to fix things that I have tools for.

28.) Do you like staying up late?:
Yes. Unless I just feel like sleeping

29.) Are you smarter than your friends?:
I am smarter than a lot of people.
And less intelligent than some.
So it is hard to say. Intelligence isn't the only thing that matters, either.
I think my friends are smarter than me in some areas.

30.) Have you ever stolen anything from your friends?
;_; I wouldn't do something like that.

31.) Have you ever been to jail?:
no.

33) Do you like the smell of beer?:
beer smells disgusting so no.

34.) Have you ever died or killed someone in a dream?:
I think so... I rarely remember my dreams though

35.) Have you ever given to charity?:
yes

36.) Would you kill a dog for $1000?:
...no. I wouldn't.
(although, there may be circumstances like if nothing can be done, and it is going to die slowly and painfully and I could choose to let it die quickly with little pain... although I have no right to make a decision like that)

37.) Do you ever get depressed?
...all the time.
way too often.

38.) Do you live with your parents?:
uh huh. It sucks but I mooch off of them for electricity and internets of which I use lots. Still really sucks though.

39.) Do you have plans for your future?:
I have an outline of what I would -like- to happen, but nothing ever goes according to plan.

You are
[] short, under 5'4"
[] 5'4"- 5'5"
[] 5'5"- 5'6"
[] 5'6"- 5'7 ''
[x] 5'7"- 6'0"
[] tall, 6'1" and up


NATURALLY
[] blonde .... and proud of it.
[] redhead
[] brunette
[] dirty blonde
[] brownish
[x] dark brown
[x] black
[] indian red/light brown

[] blue-eyed
[] brown-eyed
[] black-eyed
[] green-eyed
[x] hazel-eyed
[] gold/gray-eyed
[] silver/gray- eyed
[] blue/green-eyed
[] blue/gray-eyed
[x] green/gray-eyed
[] they change colors

[x] glasses
[] contacts
[x] neither (I only wear them in class or if I'm driving, otherwise my vision is fine)
[] both

[x] short hair
[] medium hair
[] long hair


Your favorite color(s) are:
[x] red
[] khaki
[x] aqua
[] pink
[] hot pink
[] yellow
[] black
[] green
[] lime green
[x] blue
[] white
[x] turquoise
[x] silver
[] purple
[] brown
[x] orange (copper actually <3)
[x] grey
[x] fuschia
[] maroon
[] gold
[x] teal
[] coral
[x] clear
[x] bronze
[x] I don't really care
[x] rainbow (lol)
[x] I basically like all colors

Your personality is sometimes...
[x] talkative
[x] shy
[x] funny
[x] serious
[x] laid back
[x] strict
[x] hyper
[x] sarcastic
[x] slow



You like listening to:
[x] pop
[x] country (a little)
[] Christian
[x] orchestral/classical (think movie-music)
[x] techno
[] oldies
[x] opera
[x] 80's
[x] disco
[] rap
[] R&B
[x] classic rock
[x] pop punk
[x] metal
[] reggae
[x] rock
[x] alt/indie rock
[] emo
[] ska
[] showtunes
[x] lots of different stuff



The pets you have/had?
[x] cat (omg purr purr purr I love cats)
[] dog (I want one plz)
[] lizard
[] rat
[] ferret
[] bunny
[x] fish (they are all dead now)
[] horse
[] bird
[] frog
[] hermit crab
[] turtle
[] hamster
[] snake
[] gerbil
[] guinea pig
[] pig
[] goat
[] chinchilla
[] tarantula
[] geese
[] baby chicks
[] baby ducklings
[] none



Your confessions:
[x] I'm afraid of silence (so afraid of being alone)
[x] I am really ticklish
[] I'm afraid of the dark
[] I've collected comic books
[] I sometimes shut out others
[x] I open up to others TOO easily
[x] I read the newspaper (infrequently)
[] I love Disney movies
[x] I am a sucker for gorgeous eyes
[x] I am a sucker for a gorgeous smile
[] I don't kill bugs (I kill them with great fury)
[] I have "x"s in my screen name
[x] I bake well (definition of bake plz.)
[] I have worn pajamas to class
[] I love Martha Stewart
[] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS
[x] I am self-conscious
[x] I love to laugh
[] I can't swallow pills
[] I bite my nails
[x] I play computer games when I'm bored
[x] I have gotten lost in the city (many times)
[] I have gone out in public in my pajamas
[] I have made out in an elevator (not yet)
[] I have been skydiving
[] I have been bungee jumping
[x] I have bitten someone
[] I have egged or rolled a house/car
[] I have smashed into a car (with my bike)
[] I have been fired
[] I have been skinny dipping

Have you ever...
[] Seen a shooting star
[x] Joke proposed to anyone (I was proposed to today D:)
[x] Gotten stitches (maybe when I had my wisdom teeth out)
[x] Eaten Sushi
[x] Gotten the chicken pox
[x] Ridden in a taxi
[] Been on a cruise ship
[x] Driven over 400 miles in one day
[x] Been on a plane by yourself
[] Had surgery
[] Seen a movie more than 3 times in the theater
[x] Been on stage
[x] Gotten a black eye (kicked in the head while training, lol)
[x] Memorized all the dialogue in a movie
[] Watched an entire baseball game

Do you like...
[x] Old movies
[] Musicals
[] Blasting music in your car (I have no car)
[x] Foreign foods
[x] Gameboy, Pokemon, etc.
[x] Christmas time
[x] Animals
[x] Coffee
[x] Tea (meh, it's ok)
[x] Summer
[x] Winter (ohhh so pretty)



TWOS OF EVERY KIND

Two Names You Go By: Derek, Niku.
Two Things You Are Wearing Right Now: jeans. a black shirt. a leather jacket
Two Places You Want to go on Vacation: The US. Perhaps europe. Maybe Japan.
Two favorite animals? Foxes and Cats
Two Reasons you're doing this survey: fucking bored


Spell your name without vowels: Drk
How many pairs of jeans do you own?: dunno. maybe 4 or 6?
What color(s) do you wear most often?: black
Last song heard on the radio?: *shrugs* dunno
What's for dinner tonight?: who knows
Are you happy with your life right now?: a little bit

[Do you own a...]
- Wii?: hell no!
- XBOX?: my brother has one
- XBOX 360?: hell no!!
- PSP?: yep
- Gamecube?: my sister has one
- Digital Camera?: hell yeah!


In what state or country do you want to go to school
after highschool?
Well... there are a lot of people in the US that I NEED to meet so badly.
But here is fine, I don't plan on moving unless there is something/someone I want to be with.

Do you shop at stores like Aeropostale and American Eagle?
not that I know of. However I posses no aversion of such shops.

How do you make money?:
with my good looks?
lol, no. I work a job I like to call produce technician cause it sounds cooler but basically it involves me stocking the produce department at my store.

Last thing you bought?
a cappuccino

How's the weather?:
well, there is a beautiful sunrise, painting the sky with colors, but it is around -12c so it is a little cold.

When did you start summer break?:
I have no clue. Last year when I was kicked out of engineering, I had no classes from january till september

Favorite pair of shoes:
hmm... well, I guess I like my hightop hiking ones. They are made by Columbia (in Vietnam, apparently. lol, I had to look at the tag. actually, that reminds me. My electronics teacher went to 'nam, or so he tells us. (and he got hit with shrapnel and shot and stuff))
For me, as long as shoes fit and are comfortable and look ok, then they are ok.

Do you own big sunglasses?:
lol, yes.
But I also own cool looking ones like in the pictures I take of myself.

Do you find yourself attractive?:
I didn't before I was a camwhore. Now I think I'm ...ok looking. (cause everyone seems to tell me I look good or hot or sexy but I think it is lies! but it makes me feel good to believe it sometimes.)

What should you be doing right now?:
Rebuilding my network (and optimizing it and such), working on assignments so I don't keep falling behind, etc.

Who did you hug today?:
no one yet today. hmm... behind on my quota *thinks of people to hug*
but yesterday, I was hugging Kevan a lot.

How many beds did you lay in yesterday?:
only mine, (yesterday, anyway ;))

What color shirt are you wearing:
black.

Name one thing that you do everyday?:
...
err... lol.
umm... I live everyday (well, actually I'm not 100% sure all the time. cause sometimes I feel like I'm dead inside)

What is the color of your bedroom walls?:
a very light green

What's your favorite sport?:
taekwondo

When was the last time you saw your dad?:
just this morning.

What did you have for dinner last night:
roast beef, I think.

Look to your left, what do you see?:
at the moment, some chairs a table, a bare concrete wall, the dirty tile floor and the ceiling with recessed lighting

Do you have plants in your room?:
none of which I am aware of. Plants do not love me and just die which makes me sad

What's your favorite starbucks drink?:
mocchino or something like that (weird names, omfg)

Recent time you were really upset?:
hmm... XD I get really upset all the time so I dunno.

--eof--

11:26PM. January 22, 2007

I went to see the Edmonton Symphony Orchestra tonight. I guess I wasn't sure exactly what to expect as they were to be playing video game music.
Nothing could have prepared me for the site that greeted me once I stepped through the doors into the building.
In jarring contrast to outside, it was absolutely packed with people. Some bright colors caught my eyes and I turned and saw a girl cosplaying as KOS-MOS. Her costume was great and she looked really hot. Another girl was cosplaying as Eva from MGS3, she was so hot. One girl had a fullbody Red XIII costume. This was my favorite costume of all of them. I wanted to hug her, she looked so cuddly. There were vendors and displays set up. I watched some noobs play guitar hero II.
Anyway, it was time for the performance to start so I took my seat.
The orchestra filled the stage, and a large screen was set up for video playback. They started with Pong and Space Invaders. The Edmonton Symphony Orchestra did a superb job the entire night, backed by Kokopelli & Oran Chamber Choir. Lee Ann Leung did two piano solos. I've never seen anyone move their hands that fast before.
I apologize for my poor description, but... this is something that has to be experienced, I just can't do justice to it with words. To me, the most memorable parts of the night were when they played the music from Metal Gear Solid. That particular song always makes my heart swell with pride. (they also had a guy in a box on the stage which was totally awesome and a guard with a exclamation mark). The Myst and Sonic the Hedgehog music really brought back memories. Liberi Fatali and One Winged Angel and the Halo songs were absolutely perfect.
There is simply no substitute for seeing something like this live. The power and emotion of it is simply astounding. It is one thing to listen to music on speakers while playing a game, but this was so much more. And the lightshow was fantastic too.
It was a magical and wonderful night and I'd like to thank all involved for the awesome show.
http://www.videogameslive.com/video/vglpromo2.wmv (about half way through you get to see some of the performance)
http://www.videogameslive.com/

There is so much more I could say, but I should get some rest because I have class in the morning.

January 16th, 2007.
8:05 am
Mood: meh

Tired.
So very very tired.


Whiny/emo stuff that no one really cares about so I dunno why I'm including it but whatever:
Sometimes I wish I could be a computer. A cold, emotionless, logical box. As opposed to inhabiting this fragile mortal coil. Logic is beautiful. It is predictable. My reasoning and thoughts are so very easily influenced by minor chemical changes. Given identical data sets, I can arrive at many different conclusions simply due to my mood. Computers don't get tired. My server is nearing 300 days of uptime and it hasn't complained. It hasn't written whiny journals. It hasn't procrastinated, nor has it agonized over relationships.

But, without emotions, I doubt life would be worth living. Without experiencing the depths of suffering, the euphoric highs would be meaningless. Without emotion, I wouldn't even feel those highs.

I guess what prompted this was how I felt this morning. I just didn't see the point of getting out of bed. I've been pretty snappy and irritable lately too. I often compare myself with a sinusoidal function. My mood has a tendency to change frequently. It is hard to describe how I feel right now. Currently, I'm having difficulty focusing on anything at all. I have basically no motivation what so ever. I feel incredibly tired yet restless at the same time. I don't want to be around people, but I don't want to be alone. It sorta feels like depression, but I feel too numb, too blank at the moment to be certain.

I haven't been doing my homework. I -know- better than this. I keep telling myself I'll do it, but I don't. I haven't been paying attention in class. Why am I paying to be here when I don't even care anymore? At my current rate, I won't complete the program.
I don't want to work in produce all my life; I don't want to be in school. I want to work with computers and networking equipment. But every day, it just gets harder and harder to get up.

Date: January 11th, 2007
Time: 11:23AM
Mood: sortakinda bored
Music: mewmewmewmewmewmewmewmewmewmew

Programming:
ooooooooo fgsfds!!!!
i r idiot
I forgot to fucking null terminate ;_;
no wonder my program gave odd output.

School:
I spoke to the academic advisor. If I pass all courses this semester, she'll turn my fail in digital fundamentals into a pass.
As for courses, my hardware repair course and operating systems course seem to be utterly pointless for me. I know the material they are covering inside and out.
The second electronics course interests me at the moment; we are learning semiconductor physics and it is neat!
English... yeah. The technical writing course I took in university went into the material in greater depth than this course. I'll see if I can get credit for it so I can lighten my course load a little bit.
C++ is interesting. This course is going at a faster pace and I am actually having to put a little effort in to finish the in class assignments in time! I like it!
Math... lulz. The prof is a Ph.D. and wears a lab-coat with a super man symbol on the back but it has a 'M' instead of a 'S' (an sounds better but I think a is actually correct, please to correcting me) and the words "MATH MAN". It is basically the same stuff I did in university calculus for 1.5 years.

Donuts:
I was hungry. I left class and got a bunch of donuts. They are very tasty. I also have a capachino because omfg yummy!

Art:
Have been quite bored in class. Drew my math prof a bunch of times.
Also drew kitties and puppies. I dunno why, I was really bored.

Writing:
Started writing a fan-fiction about Kirk and Spock. (I doubt I'll finish it, I'll probably think of a better thing to write about)
THIS IS WHY IT IS BAD WHEN I AM BORED!!111!!ELEVIN!!1BBQ

Weather:
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...
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Winter had been very cold and harsh. Then it warmed up and wasn't so bad.
But, yesterday...
There was a blizzard. And It went down to -27C. While driving to school, visibility was 0 at times. A complete white out. I took pics and made some cellphone videos that I'll upload at some point.
I think some people in the area were snowed in.

Date: January 8th, 2007
Time: 7:50AM
Mood: Awesome
Music: NIN - with teeth cd (on my iPod)

Guess it's been a while since I last updated.
I hope you all had great holidays; I know I did.
(lol, is that improper semicolon usage? I forget.)

So anyway, last week was... a little depressed, I guess.
Christmas went well. I guess the biggest thing I got was the iPod. It is 80GB (which is double the size of the HDD in my iBook - a good thing since I have maybe 4GB left on my iBook). I got some lights and stuff for my case. I love LEDs. Love them so much. And electro-lumenescent tape. I stuck another fan in my case but there were no mount points left for it. I took out a HDD tray and umm... duct taped it in. ^_^; (hey, it's temporary, until I decide exactly where I want it). Oh, I dusted out the case too. A day before christmas eve, I had to work. It was good actually because my boss gave me a box of chocolates and pizza and pop. And I like it when it is busy because it goes by so fast.

New years was... well, it sucked! Cause I was sick. My sinus infection pretended to get better then on new years it launched a sneak attack against me and I was in bed most of the time. But I chatted with my buddies on the net so I guess it wasn't so bad.

My birthday was a little depressing. Oh, it was on the fifth. Dunno if I mentioned it or not. I turned 21. I don't want to get old. Got guitar hero II. It is pretty fun. And battlefield 2142... which I suck at... so badly. Lol, ramboing is bad

But... saturday... omfg.
My best friend came over.
He brought my Catalyst 1900 managed switch.
He brought my 2 Cisco 1005 routers.
We made cables for them (DB9 to RJ-45 serial console cables).
We booted the Switch. It has 12 10baseT ports, FDDI uplink port (fiber optic with lasers <3), and a 100baseT uplink port. Oh, and an AUI and console port. It's lights blinked (there were a lot) as it performed it's POST. There is a fan in this switch. It appears to be running catOS which is slightly disappointing but the routers run IOS which is awesome.
We logged into the console.
It was awesome.
The power this switch gives me...
Just thinking about it makes my heart race.
By pressing a button on the front, you can find out the bandwidth usage and also which ports are in full-duplex mode. It even has a built-in HTTP server. And I can set up VLANs on it.
The routers are going to be slightly more difficult. We still need to build power cords for them. And a special serial cable so that the two routers can talk to eachother. Just thinking about it makes me so excited. I dunno if CIDR and BGP and other things get normal people excited but they sure drive me wild.

Oh, I also redid the sound system in my room. Replaced the aging 5.1 surround that was failing with a Sony receiver and 2 Bose speakers. The sound quality is signifigantly better. At some point I'll add some more speakers to it.

Anyway, classes are starting so I'd better go. Thanks for reading. Have great days, everyone!

Umm...
I was gonna post this a lot sooner, but then stuff happened and yeah, didn't get around to it.

Thursday:
Thursdays exams went well, even the math one. I remembered a lot of the calculus things from when I was in engineering. The networking exam after lunch was a breeze. That evening, I discovered I had high blood pressure which could partially explain my headaches and nosebleeds. My heartrate was really fast too. Perhaps, if I get some time, I'll have a doctor check.

Friday:
This day was hell. My head was pounding and I ached all over. I didn't want to get up and almost was unable to. My limbs felt so heavy.
The first exam was brutal. But I figured out bits of it.
Then I went to the mall for lunch and then saw the pets at the petstore. And I looked at these puppies. And one of them was crying. I wanted to pet him so badly but I couldn't. So I looked at chinchillas. They were so cute. And my parents won't let me have any more pets :(. So I got a siberian huskies calendar and they are sooooooo adorable.
Then I had to write my Digital Fundamentals exam. It didn't go well at all. I tried to remember the bits I payed attention to but... my head hurt so bad and I felt like puking. I wanted to get out of there. I panicked. I did maybe half of the test and of that half, I guessed on most of it.

Saturday:
Went out for a bit, then slept most of the day and all night.

Sunday:
Laid around, slept some. Did nothing I can remember.

Monday, tuesday:
See sunday.

Wednesday, thursday:
I had to work. It is very busy because Christmas.

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Now:
http://www.last.fm/user/nikuramon/ I'm at last.fm now. They actually have my kind of music there.

Got my marks, mostly passed, lol.
Math: C-
Soldering: A+
Basic Electricity: D+
Digital Fundamentals: F
C++ programming 1: A-
Career overview: pass
Open System Interconnection: B

I'm really surprised I passed electricity, especially since I didn't hand in most of the labs or assignments. I knew I was going to fail digital fundamentals. Laziness brought me down in programming and OSI.

Awww, my cat is sprawled on the bed, right next to me.

I took a bunch of pics the other day but only uploaded a few because of laziness.
I have to head to work pretty soon.
Thanks everyone who has been supporting me and keeping me mostly sane.

I remember now why I stopped taking that stuff.
I decided to take my sleeping medication so I would be unable to stay up late and so I'd get more sleep and thus not be tired.
It was interesting to say the least.
As I looked around my room, still awake but half dreaming, I watched the walls become red and dissolve, melting into lava. For some reason, the room was filled with blue pulses of data. It was awe-inspiring and yet somewhat disconcerting at the same time. I didn't even feel myself slip away into sleep.

The dream:
I looked around, not sure where I was, though I felt like I had been there before. There was something... an assembly or dance of some sort... seemed like in a gymnasium. There were a lot of cute girls there. Suddenly I felt an arm around my shoulder. A girl dressed in a pink hoody was at my side. She had fair skin and blond hair, and she was slender. I didn't know her, but it really didn't matter to me. I put my arm around her waist. She seemed somewhat surprised. We talked a bit and we decided to go somewhere more private. We went into the girls bathroom, which was amusing because of some of the dirty looks I got from the females already in there. I suppose one or two of them yelled at me but again, at the time, I didn't care. I wrapped my arms around her, holding her close and pressing my body firmly against hers. She was pressed against one of the brick walls, painted a sort of bluish eggshell color. She felt so soft and warm, and I pressed my lips against hers as she held me tightly and kissed me back. My hands were inside that soft, cute hoody of hers and they were caressing her back as my lips hungrily kissed hers.

I wish I could remember the rest, if there was any more, but the next thing I remember was the scenery changing. The scenery was bits of Deus Ex and Deus Ex: Invisible War. So now I'm suddenly in a FPS, blue arcs of electricity shooting from the damaged Universal Constructor. Why I was there is beyond me, but I must have been JC Denton or something. There was a very cyberpunk feel to this part of the dream. Very Neuromancer.
Anyway, I was probably supposed to solve a puzzle or shoot someone but...
that girl
was there
and I was making out with her.
Even though there were sparks everywhere and the lighting was dim
her tongue and mine.
Even though there was danger
I was with her
and nothing else mattered
just us
and our passion


Then of course, people kept coming in and shaking me, trying to wake me up.
I tried to go back to sleep but to no avail. The dream was gone. I rarely dream. Or if I do, I rarely remember it. But this dream was so real. Was so tempting. It was quite possibly one of the greatest dreams I ever had. ...I can still almost feel her... almost taste her. *sighs wistfully*

And so now, I'm in my micro design class (AKA Digital Fundamentals).
I ended up sleeping in too much and missed the morning. The bus system was very inefficient and I had some time downtown so I stopped by the book store and picked up a copy of some magazines (mac addict, shonen jump, 2600 quarterly, and linux pro magazine). This will give me something to read for a while.

Oh, and the phone situation is taken care of. They misrepresented the information and they agreed to pay the ~$6000 data transfer fees.

I also took more city photos.

Something awesome happened yesterday. I was showing my deviantArt to a friend and he went, "oh, you like that guys art too? He has some good stuff." I was shocked and said, "lol, that's me". lol, I really never expected to meet anyone that liked my art in real life.

So many people are being very loving and I like that. I love it when I can just relax and be myself. I'm very affectionate and loving... it's just how I am. I have such awesome friends.

My midterm went ok. Although I've really not been getting nearly enough sleep, I still managed to be awake during most of it. Fell asleep a few times and scribbled a bit. But got a 75% on the test. I was very surprised.

Still tossing around the videoblog idea. I'll likely make atleast one.
My rail of IC's came in. 25 quad NAND gates, 14 dip. Breadboard fun is imminent.

Finished my programming lab this morning on the bus. Still trying to catch up with the rest of my assignments. It's getting so hard to wake up these mornings. I really need to catch up on sleep. Apparently, I need to work on time management.

Now for slightly negative musings:
It pisses me off so much. My job, that is. I work harder, but they only care when I mess up or don't work hard enough. And because of my job, I'm busy when my friends are free. And when I'm free, my friends are busy. And none of my 'in real life' friends are in to cuddling. Or hugging. Or being spontaneous. I need some physical contact.
And some people need to have good days. But they have bad ones. They deserve so much better. I hope things become better for them.

Communication is so important to me. I could really use some good conversation. Or even just rambling, I love talking on the phone/skype for hours.

I am so very tired. I think I may nap for the rest of this class.

Talk to you guys later. <3

eeeeeehhhhhhhhhhh.
caffeine *nom nom nom nom nom*
*sniffle sniffle shiver*

I'm very tired and cold but caffinated now-oh look, a sunrise!
So pretty!

Lol, the one course I'm naturally good at, programming...
lets just say my last 2 programs haven't really worked.
Or rather they work but not correctly.

Oho!! My new, non explosive battery arrived yesterday. So there is no need to fear for my safety, wonderful people. It's funny cause we're studying batteries in my basic electricity class. And so... I decided to switch them. But! my computer doesn't like not having electrons and so it turned off... I was expecting it too and wanted to see how it handled it and it did ok.

*sips* rawr! caffeine!

I need to shave.
I need a haircut too.

I'm cold, someone hold me?