Ashton told me to tell him a story... so this is what I said..
So this one time, There was a purple mouse named Henry and he really liked to play hide and seek But it was hard for him to play because nobody would play with him and so he decided to become a mastermind and build an army of mutants to kill all the mice who hated him when his army was finished though, it turned on him, forcing him to blow up the pipeline under the city that he was building them in... and that's what caused the new york blackout And when all the people figured out that Henry had caused that black out they tracked him down, cause he's the only purple mouse in the whole city, and they stomped on his head until it was nothing. When the news reached henry's brother [his only living relative] he vowed to avenge his brothers cruel demise and so he got all his friends and his biker mice together in a band of fury and they rode all night to find the people who killed Henry. Killing them all one by one. First they are their eyeballs and then they band together to drop an anvil on each of their heads. When the carnage subsided all that was left to do was kill all the zombies that came back to life after the explosion that caused the new York blackout Killing zombie mice is a very simple process... unless they were made by a purple mouse named Henry, then it's the most complicated process ever! It required a degree in quantum physics and psyche 1o1... you literally have to be a rocket schentist.. So henry's brother and his gang left town and decided that it wasn't their problem after all and they let all the people int he city be attacked by ravenous mice and that's what caused the Black Plaigue
I welcome you to read my writings, I just urge you to take what you take from them with caution. Many of my messages to you are consious. Take my dreams with you, change them, mold them, teach them, return them..
I love you all.
Welcome to me, this is my Blog, my life, my love, my inter-journal..
Old friends, missing my old friends. I missed you, I loved you, I tried you, I liked how you taste.
Old loves, old tears, the past. The past is solid, doesn't change. Cannot change. Is etched into forever.
You cannot return to the past, you cannot fast forward now till it's past.
Meeting again? Loving again? Missing you again?
Do I need somebody? Do I always need to have someone? I do. Is that sad, unhealthy? Wrong? Why am I not comfortabe with me?
I like people, I hate people. I love people, I miss people...
Rekindling old flames? Reliving old lives...
Will you love me? Could you still love me? Can it last? Can love really be untouched for a year and still be burning when you come back?
Time will tell love, time will tell.
i hate these things... junk mail... fill it out...
GIVE IT A SHOT HAVE SOME FUN! If We Had Sex.... GAME (Reply so only I see it and Repost so others can fill it out) DONT BE SCARED. YOU NEVER KNOW WHO REALLY WANTS TO DO YOU !
1. Would you be in control?
2. Would you pull my hair?
3. Would you whisper in my ear?
4. Would you talk dirty to me?
5. Would you kiss me with a little tongue or a lot of tongue?
6. Would you say my name?
7. Would you go down on me?
8. Would you let me give you a hickie?
9. How many rounds would we go?
10. What would you wanna do afterwards?
11. Would you take off all your clothes then take mine off slowly?
12. Would you lick and bite me all over?
13. Would you like 2 play or get straight to the point?
14. Would you want me to take my time?
15. Would u fall asleep with me when we were done?
16. Would u want me to go fast or slow?
17. Where would u wanna "do it" at?
18 Would u be loud or quiet?
19. Would you mind if i licked you?
20. Would you do it 2day?
21. Would you do it 2morrow?
Why am I not the better deal? Why am I not worth it? Is there something wrong with me... I generally believe that what I believe is what other people believe but I am at a point now where I love me, so other people should too. But I never seem to get that. Not from anyone I want it from anyways. And I know I am going to over exxagerate this becuse I am pretty pissed right now so I don't really give a shit. This is bullshit. I don't need this. Not after just finding out that my best friend in the whole fucking world needs my help and I haven't been around to give it to her. Alayna, babe, I am so fucking osrry for being such a conceted bitch. I... I will help you, just let me in...
Why do I have to deal with all the adolescent bullshit? I am the one who hates it the most. Fucking drama, teenaged bullshit. I don't need it. I don't need you telling me what otherpeople are telling eachother about me, I don't give a shit. I don't need bullshit guys telling me I am just not good enough either. Fuck you I am not good enough. I am as good as it gets. Everybody knows that...
Fuck this shit.
I put myself out there for people and all they seem to want to do is stand on my face and dig their heel into my fucking eye socket. Why do I let you do this to me? Why should I keep doingthis, every thing I fucking try to do for someone, or for myself even, it just doesn't fucking happen for me. Why not huh? Don't I deserve a little happieness... I know that the goddess is testing me but this shit is really starting to fucking piss me off...
God damn it, this shit is so fucked. You know what.... I'm outta here.
If you read this, do something for me, take a good look at my behavior and let meknow if I am totally wrong.
Me
My good feelings about who I am stem from being liked by you
My good feelings about who I am stem from receiving approval from you
Your struggle affects my serenity. My mental attention focuses on solving your problems/relieving your pain
My mental attention is focused on you
My mental attention is focused on protecting you
My mental attention is focused on manipulating you to do it my way
My self-esteem is bolstered by solving your problems
My self-esteem is bolstered by relieving your pain
My own hobbies/interests are put to one side. My time is spent sharinng your hobbies/interests
Your clothing and personal appearance are dictated by my desires
I feel you are a reflection of me
Your behaviour is dictated by my desires
I feel you depend on me to make a small decision
I am not aware of how I feel. I am aware of how you feel.
I am not aware of what I want - I ask what you want. I am not aware - I assume
The dreams I have for my future are linked to you
My fear of rejection determines what I say or do
My fear of your anger determines what I say or do
I use giving as a way of feeling safe in our relationship
My social circle diminishes as I involve myself with you
I put my values aside in order to connect with you
I value your opinion and way of doing things more than my own
The quality of my life is in relation to the quality of yours
Beautifully formed, Perfectly curved, Enticingly soft,
Eyes like diamonds, Sharp, exquisite, radiant.
Lips like candy, melt into me. Lick them, bite them, kiss them.
?eman a ni s'tahw
In 2006 I've...
I've stayed single the whole year
got my first kiss
--kissed someone new
made-out for the first time
--made-out in/on a car
--kissed in the snow
--kissed in the rain
--fell in love
--had your heart broken
--broke someone else's heart
--had a stalker
--had a good relationship with someone
--questioned your sexual orientation
-/-came out of the closet
gotten pregnant
---gotten someone else pregnant -oh hell yes LMFAO
had an abortion
gotten married
had a divorce
had a gay marriage
--kissed someone of the same sex
----------done something you've regretted
--lost faith in love (for a moment there)
kissed under mistletoe
got a promotion
got a pay raise
changed jobs
lost your job
quit your job
dated a co-worker
dated your boss
dated your boss' daughter/son
got fired from your job
got straight A's
--met one teacher you really like
--met one teacher you really hated
--found the subject you love
--failed a class
------cut class
---------skipped school
--got into a fight with a classmate
--did something you were proud of
--discovered a new talent
--gave the teachers a reason to teach
---------proved yourself an idiot
--embarrassed yourself in front of the class
(err...akward)fell in love with a teacher
got a lead in the school play
tried out for and made a sports team
--were involved in something you'll never forget
-------got sent to the office
--painted a picture
------wrote a poem
--ran a mile
--listened to music you couldn't stand
------double-dipped
skinny-dipped
--went to a sleepover
went to camp
threw a surprise party
---------laughed till you cried
--/--Laughed till you peed your pants (ALmost)
-----flirted shamelessly
--visited a foreign country
visited another province
cooked a disastrous meal(NEVER!!)
--lost something important to you
--got a gift you adore
------realized something new about yourself
--went on a diet
--tried to gain weight
------dyed your hair
---came close to losing your life
---someone close to you died
--went to a party
--drank alcohol
------drank alcohol underage
--got drunk
--got arrested
--read a great book
--saw a great movie
saw a movie so scary that it made you cry
--saw your favorite band/artist live. - One of them.
--saw someone famous in person.
--did something you want to tell everyone
enjoyed this year overall (honestly, this year was really hard in terms of me.)
My love:
I remember...I remember when i first met you...you looked like an angel...mind you tasha kida cramped your style...but anyways...you looked beautiful...something inside me woke up...i wanted you...but i thought that was not possible...but then we would run into each other every now and then and my first instinct was to hug you...although what a really wanted to do was kiss you...but thought that it would be innapropraite...i thought you were gay...but i got to know you and then one day you showed me what i thought was not possible...your true feelings for me...my heart stopped...then sped up like a twin turbo engine in the misd of a drag race...and then...i knew...you wanted me as much as i wanted you...and that...was the best felling in the world...
Okay, well this is akward... I have been hacing dreams latley that are metaphors for things that are going to happen soon, like i had one about my boyfriend and it came true and I had one aobut smoking andit came true, and then the other day I had a dream aobut my EX boyfriend, and it was reeeeally bad,.. he tried to kiss me and I had to run off to keep from kissing him... terrible terrible terrible... I really hope this one was just a silly dream...
gotta gowe..
ciao dolls
Once upon a time, in a land not too far from here the was a girl who was very much in love with a boy, and one day she decided to do something about it, she didn't care if he liked her back, (because she was a little tipsy) she was gonna walk right up to hime and kiss him square on the lips. So when she did it she was pleasantly surprised when he kissed her back, (mind you he was a little tipsy too) and she vowed that from that day forward they wouldbe together, rain or shine, fight or illness, plaigue or zombies she would always be his. Although she had her doubts as to whether he felt the same.
After a few weeks of this she realized that he was really falling for her. After 2 months he sobbingly confessed that he was so in love with her that he would die without her and all her doubts melted in that one moment, a moment she will always remember as the moment she knew he truly loved her.
No doubt you already know the ending of this story so I shall not force myself to explain.
I love you James Marriott. You're my soul.
