I am not coming to terms with this...I don't know if I ever will. You've been a good friend of mine for 9 years, and I just can't picture my life without you in it. You were an amazing person, a super talented artist, an awesome friend. I just feel so fucked up right now. I think everyone does. I don't know if you ever did realize just how many people cared about you. Fuck. Dude, I miss you, so so much. Why the fuck does this shit happen? You were only 20. Its not right. This does not feel real.