I can't keep this shit locked up anymore. I feel betrayed
so where are you? the ones that call(ed) themselves my best friends.
where is it that you are, that is more important than being here...when I really need you. How else can I reach out, what more do I say. help
Is it only me who really does 'treats others how I want to be treated'
I feel so cold.distant. Far away from all of you.
can anyone tell me what being a friend means anymore?
don't kick me harder when I'm down.
I'm so fuckin disgustingly honest..I am crucified for it.

Geez..I would say so far 18 has been some dam fucking hard lessons to get through.
Most of being 18 has been much of a solo trip for me, figuring out alot of things the hard way and getting thrown down by many people who I thought I knew.
but hey..I've got along way to go.
and I'm not dead yet?

I always have alot to say. I suppose I could write alot more on here!

hmm...today is deary out.
alot of stuff buzzing around in my brain
listening to awsome..Riders on the Storm.

I'm working on my goals.
I'm thinking of my dreams. Todays the day I start...(i alreadt have, it's important to have people to support you.
I needed a good kick in the pants today.
Things weren't flying my way, I get/we all get boughed down with our daily routines. Always try to remember the goal your working for. If you don't know then think about it!
it's so hard when your in the middle, in the big fish bowl of school. surrounded by so many people going through alot of shit everyday, who all need different things.
crazy, insane!
'just remember that it's all in your head'

keep talking. always keep talking. There will always be someone that will hear you. Believe it.

Bored
tired...want to retire!
well back to my oh so fun life out here in the middle of nowhere!
NOTHING STAYS THE SAME FOREVER

Whats with people and probelms with accepting certain "types" of people. I guess I could say the same with religion I don't believe in it..I never will. I think it saves ppl so good on ya. but don't come blabbing to me about it cause I don't care/
....what is the world coming to. So many things the gov't keeps us locked out of, from and in this world. I think I'll stop typing before I dissapear "By Accident " ForeveR! dundun dunn.

maybe this will work!
it's my new journal and I don't know what I'm doing

today was boring..hopefully I can get my homework done!
and there wil be more adventures tomorrow. Bleck! :guns: