Kmo..Thumps... aka Kaitlin[/color] - My Bestest friend... someone who keeps me sane! I love ya dearest.... too many good times... 'I can sing like Shakira'... baby when you talkkk like that, you make a woman go maaadddd' lol, buddy...you definitly don't sound like shakira... but I'll give ya props for trying... haha! Oh wait... camping... good ol' bail off the chair? knocking over my booze too, what the hell. Drunken messss.... soco, you and I.... kyles going away party... oh brother.... ROASTED WEEENIES! Burnt at that, but they were delish! lol how about alize at jj's... eeeek... I would say i was a little bit intoxicated, or even grad... my god.. lol... OHHH, and do you remember watching Hustle and flow... stoned? Cause i don't lol.... Well anywho! I will forever be here for ya... even though we have some sweet arguements... wicked budday! Welll then... love ya like a sisterrrrrr.... ciaoo buddday! xox

We Live in The Present, We dream of the Future, but we Learn eternal truths from the past.

Nobody understands her, she walks a lonely road.... miserable and embarrassed. Nobody see's past her beauty and stunning smile. If only they took the time to see passed all that. There is more to her than just her beauty. She stands... screaming for the attention she longs for. Praying for an answer. An answer as to why it all had to happen to her, all so fast.
She grew up too quickly, now lost for words... lost for any kind of understanding or direction. Her friends surrounding her, doing things she's done, things from the past. She longs for something much more than the parties and the drinking. She longs for more than the sex, the 'commitment' ... she has no reasoning, but nothing seems suitable for her. Perhaps she feels she doesn't deserve it, at least not yet.

Scared would be best to describe her..... 'scared of what' she wonders. She's unsure.... no certainty about anything these days. However, she is sure that shes scared of something. Then there was him... he showed her so much. He showed her the true meaning of love and compassion. He helped guide her to who she's supposed to be. He showed her what she couldn't see.
She still walks that lonely road....full of thoughts and wishes... but now she walks with her head held high.

Pursue your goals, live your dreams, dream your life and find out who you are inside....[/color]

Why drink and drive?
The truth of the matter is, most people wouldn't pick up a loaded gun, and start shooting it randomly, hoping to god that you don't hit someone.
So why get into a vehicle, intoxicated.... the truth of the matter is, your behind the wheel of a deadly weapon, and your just aiming randomly, hoping to god you don't hit someone or something on the way home...
Why do it then? I am sure, whatever it is that is so important that you can't wait for a taxi or a sober driver to drive....can wait..... I'm sure whoever it is you can't wait to see, would rather see you alive and a couple hours late, as opposed to seeing you laying on a tray in a mourge (having to identify your body). Or I'm sure you'd wish you waited that extra couple hours, or paid that extra 20 bucks, when you're sitting in a jail cell, waiting to be tried, on your charges of impaired driving, and murder.

So guys.... think twice before getting behind the wheel after having a few too many to drink. And I guarenteee you will think that it would never happen to you, and that drinking actually makes you concentrate better, but I'm sure all the people that were killed because of it, said the exact same thing!

Life simply spins out of control. She no longer can grasp ahold of her reality. Everything becomes a dream. Simple kisses mean the world to her... a simple sign of compassion or love send a shiver through her body. Outgoing, yet so timid! Every evening she lets her mind release...she dreams of her life in someone elses shoes. But nothing seems quite good enough for her!
A friend had far too many chances, and really took advantage of the friendship they once shared. There is only so many chances to be forgiven. And unfortunately for her, she wore them all out, and then some. She took advantage of her.... but now she lost out! She'll one day come to the realization of what she lost... but thats when she has nothing left. I never knew someone could actually be so inconsiderate.... but...its those people that don't get very far in life...

'Your only fear is posibility '

Summers Here Its about bloody time. I can only imagine what this summer is going to consist of! It's going to be outrageous. Beaches...bitches...beers...and boys! Nothing better than that! lol! Im going to make this the perfect summer
Now heres to the summer days I'll never remember, with the friends ill never forget[/color]

Everyday someone out there is looking for that special someone. How would we truly know who is meant to be our own!? Love is unexplained, unmentioned, sometimes unnoticed. Some so afraid of the feelings that they cannot explain. Some so afraid because it's got them enclosed, unable to move or even breathe. For a simple second there is a time in everyones life where they must question the feelings they have. Who truly knows what love feels like. We look around everyday and say 'wow those two really do love eachother' ....simple actions speak much louder than any words ever could. But some people don't know it till its much to late. Now me, I'm afraid. Love is so 'grown up', its so.....real. So passionate, so true.... but for the now, ill just be me, and love who I am. I'll love another...later. Right now.... i'll just dream.

Heres the day you hoped would never come
Don’t feed me violence, just run -
With me through rows of speeding cars
The paper cuts, the cheating lovers
The coffee’s never strong enough
I know you think it’s more than just bad luck....

The times come for us to grow up...lets put away the drama, give up the gossip, and step into civilization

Promiscuous Girl....
Shes back into action! She's come back for the summer...and this time shes going to stay. There is no more hiding her in a closet for a year... if someone wants to be with her... they have to understand!
There is no more changing for anyone... She is now giving only herself... and taking care of herself in the process! Never give anyone more than they deserve... be freee... don't take life so seriously... you can only live it once! When life and death seems to be intertwined.. it gives you a completely new perspective... So don't get yourself into trouble and just have fun!

Promiscuous Boy...You already know... I'm all yours....Whatchu waitin for!

Times like this....so tough...
There is soo many choices. How do I know what's going to hurt me in the end. I mean, he still loves me..... but I can't do that to myself again, there is no way I can do it again. Then there is him and when I think of him, my body feels all tingly.... he has that smile that could melt any girl away!...In the end though, you know that the only getting hurt would be you. But then.... there is him That really just makes me laugh... he makes me feel alive all over again. What does a girl do!? It's like... so many emotions, all boiled into one. One truly cares, as a matter of fact, two deffinitly care... but then theres that one....just the one who I can't figure out. uhg... lets just let the games begin!

Every breath i take....never taken forgranted. My life coulda been over so quickly. One different move of that car, and I could have died. We were all so lucky to get off with what we did. Me being the worst, but a few broken vertabraes is nothing. At least I don't have to get surgery. Fuck that would have sucked. To see where we landed, and what the truck looks like....fuck... I'm so lucky to be here. Never will I take a single moment forgranted. Never will I take bending over to tie my shoe for granted... A simple movement sends remarkable pains shooting from head to toe. But I've learned to cope with it. I just can't wait for this brace to be off. Lets just say its deffinitly not a fashion statement! My lip, its still a little swollen, and my eye is still full of blood...but im lucky! I've gained some new friends, but I've also lost one. Accidents like this, really do show you who your true friends are. In that sense, I'm glad this happened. I now know whom will be my friends for years to come....those friends mean the world to me. But her....it breaks my heart. Laying in that hospital bed, thinking that we were best friends...waiting for her to arrive... although she never does It sucks.... I waited for her.... even a phone call! ....yet....nothing... oh well... hope ashleys ok!

I can't help but wonder what goes through his head. One minute he wants me the next thing I'm nothin. Its worthless, because when I'm around him...there is nothing I want more than to touch his skin and see his smile. But i should have known that in the end this would only hurt me. some things in life just don't come that easy i guess. I knew i should have worked harder. oh well...hopefully he'll come around one day ....just for me. Cause there is something about him...and its got me hooked!

Somedays, life seems to be making perfect sense. Then in a single moment, everything that was so clear, seems to be completely blurred. Two amazing kids, lost with a slip of the wheel, a little loss in good judgement. We all make those kind of mistakes on a daily basis... luckily for us, usually those mistakes don't end up costing us our lives.
To think, no more eye squinting smiles, no more 'cheers' with a beer, nothing... no more love for either of them... although they are getting a ton of love from down here... I can see it just by looking into someones eyes, that they care, and they wish it had happened to them.
Every morning I listen to a song...everyday! It seems to fit the moments perfectly... 'time of your life'.... nobody knew a good party like those two boys...my goodness! Today, ive never seen so many people in one room, show so much compassion and love for a single person...its amazing. Uhg, this is tough. Much love! R.I.P. Justin Dionne... R.I.P. Kevin Molloy

I sit here...and things have fallen apart. My life is no longer complete....I miss him more than anything. Its only been a day, and it feels like fucking forever. What can I do...nothing...
Love is torture...its soo worth it...because the time we had together was amazing... but the pain I feel now...is almost unbearable. A piece of me is missing.... ive lost it...and I dont think I will ever get it back.
He loves me...i know he does...the way he cares and treats me...with such respect and passion. He'll come to realize it...I know he will....
but the question is..........
will it be too late