Sometimes I think I need to get away. Pack all my things, get on a plane, and head off alone one day. I would try to never look back on the town I called home until the right moment. That would be my plan, to return later. After living years away, in a new life which might have been better then my old one, or might have not I would be sure to come back. I would pack up my things and get on that plane again. Head back to the town where I had been. And on my trip back I would be thinking about one thing, not what I did while I was gone or how things would have changed back home, but I would be thinking about why I really left. The reason would simply be, because I wanted to be missed. Because one day while I was gone, not only was I hoping people would still remember the good things about me, I was hoping, just hoping that for one moment, one minute, of one day, you would wake up and out of nowhere think “Whatever did happen to her?"

The reason that I would leave would be, you. It would be my way of knowing if you would remember me when I was gone. Although the gone I was thinking about, was with me having no way to come back. I thought this is good enough. If you remember me when I’m not there for a short amount of time, maybe a year or less, then I know I just know that when I’m gone forever, you will never forget me. I do understand that you will move on in life and I fully hope you do, but I do also understand that I will always be with you. Once in a while, maybe once a month or less, you will remember me. I can count on you to keep me alive when I am no more. Even if I don’t make history or I don’t travel to the moon. I know there is one person that will still remember me, and that person is you.

So that my dear is the reason I have left you that evening so many months ago. Now it has been no less than a year since I left you alone, but you must believe me when I say I will be back soon. I did not run from you my love, I could never do that. I am a wear that year without my presence might have been a whole year that you decided to move on with your life. It is a chance that you found a beautiful wife and moved out of our house with her, but I understand that would only be fair. I must remember I did leave you first. All I ask of you now, weather the love you hold for me is still as strong as the love I contain for you or not, is that you let me know if you thought about me when I was not there. I will not know until I return but I have this feeling. If you still love me as I love you then I think you have thought about me. Because all I know is being far from you for so long, locked you in my mind. So, darling this theory I set up for myself taught me another thing. I will always remember you. I never want you to forget my dear that even if you come to days in your life when you fear of being forgotten, just remember that I will never forget you. I will keep you alive forever, when you are no more. I will do for you, what I wished so deeply you would do for me.